When I was a child and naive I shaved and it curated bad cysts that I tried cutting out with a blade. It left awful scarring, and hypopigmentation that is impossible to get rid of. Now I'm 21, and I'm embarrassed to ever get intimate with someone without having my mons pubis covered by hair out of fear of getting judged. I feel shame. When my legs are spread it doesn't look too bad as the scarring smooths out, but otherwise there's a dent and It looks scooped due to the skin being compromised.