Is this swelling at 8 months post-op or am I disfigured? (Photos)

I had closed septoplasty 8 months ago mainly because I had a slight deviation and I hated my nose from the side which had a big hump. It was clear I did not want to change from the front. I am really starting to think that I disfigured myself. I liked my face from the front and now I really hate it. I was very swollen and had big bruises after the surgery so I did « react » a lot to the procedure but the before and after seem way too far from each other now to get any better.