Feeling devastated and a loss of identity 10 days post-op Is it swelling that is exaggerating my nose currently? (Photos)

I’m 23. I wanted a nose job to thin out my nose mostly from the profile, my bump was minimal and I just wanted that down a little. I told him I wanted my tip the same and he agreed it was already in good position but he has to raise it initially because it’ll drop. I took my cast off 3 days ago and haven’t eaten and have been crying since. My nose looks scooped, piggish, unnatural. I miss my old nose considerably and regret this 100%. I fear I will never forgive myself. I look like a cartoon