Hi All,
My personal experience mirrors many of yours - I wanted my silicone implants at the time I got them (12 years ago, 34A to 34C) but now I am older, more confident and it's time to go back to natural. And I could not be more thrilled!
I am so thrilled about the idea that I'm scared I'm not thinking through all the repercussions. So please ladies, can you provide me with advice to deal with the transition?
Here are some questions about my worries:
- how differently did you're clothes fit? was that difficult?
- did you buy pads for your bras?
- did you have to explain it to co-workers / friends? (a number of them don't know, and I just realized that a lot more women probably do this procedure in the winter, huh?)
- do other people look at you like something is different but they just can't put their finger on it?
- should I start wearing baggy tops or try to squish down my boobs to make the transition easier?
- was it hard to adjust to looking at your new proportions in the mirror?
I would love to hear about your experiences or any advice you might have.
Thank you kindly,
Emmarie
Updated on 22 May 2013:
In full disclosure, while I'm from Portland (technically born in CA, but I don't tell many people in OR that for reasons you would understand - I moved there when I was 2 and I'm 5th generation Oregonian on my mom's side) AND I'm getting the procedure done in Portland, I am currently living back east (where they call DC, "Washington" and say "bless her heart" before ripping into someone!). All that to say, I am not living in a LA or Miami, but a place that is just as outdoorsy as Portland. And to be honest, I think it was yoga that really got me thinking about the removal more seriously. There is something about connecting to your body that made me realize, these things are really getting in the way!
And I do abide by the Oregon vibe and have felt many times that with the travel I want to do, the outdoor sports and just being comfortable hiking and camping that the "plastic" just doesn't mesh with these activities and makes me really self conscious.
So why am I doing this procedure in Portland? Well, I live in a pretty small town and I would not be comfortable going to any place near here. So why am I doing this procedure in Portland? Well, I live in a pretty small town and I would not be comfortable going to any place near here. Plus I am going back to the practice (not the doctor but the same practice) where I got the implants done. I will be staying with my parents and my mom is a recently retired nurse. I know this is probably different from a number of women's experiences who did plenty of solid research into finding the right ps. I'm not taking this lightly, but I do trust the practice (the first nurse I spoke when I was considering this looked up my record and remembered me) and I am very happy to do this at my parents' home where I can recover in peace. I will be meeting with the ps the Thursday before the procedure and will have plenty of questions for him to make sure I am comfortable going through the surgery with him. Although this is probably not typical, I think this is the right circumstances for me.
Updated on 18 Jun 2013:
I feel they look better in person - hard to get a good angle. Anyhow, looking forward to updating with after photos!
Updated on 18 Jun 2013:
Less than two weeks until my procedure. I really can't wait until it's done and I'm on my way to recovery. So many things to look forward to,
- I will be able to give hugs without doing an awkward lean in
- I will get to wear strappy dresses without fearing that someone will notice
- I will be able to wear button up shirts without worrying about gaps
- I will be able to plan trips abroad without having a nagging thought: "what if something goes wrong with an implant?"
- I won't be afraid of skinny dipping
- I will be able to lay flat on a massage table and not feel I'm being 'propped up'
- I won't have to have to explain them to a lover ever again
- I won't have to keep this secret from friends
- I will be get to run, hike, and practice yoga without worrying about extra support - and do it all a few pounds lighter!
- I will be 100% biodegradable!!!
Those are the things that are top-of-mind - I know there are plenty of others!
Updated on 24 Jun 2013:
By this time next week (11:00am PT), I should be home from surgery (heart palpitation!!). Very excited and getting nervous. Hoping everything will go well! I know I will have to take it easy afterwards for a while, that scares me just as much. I had hernia surgery years ago (before my implants even) and I remember I played tennis about a month afterwards and I just did a lot of damage by doing too much too soon. I really don't want to make a same mistake, but I also wonder how I'm going to handle getting out of my regular exercise routine (which keeps me sane in so many ways). I guess it will be best to take it one day at a time and listen to my body.
Updated on 24 Jun 2013:
I wanted to load more photos since I thought the other ones look dark on my computer. Also I think it will be interesting comparing the sports bra 'before' and wearing the same one 'after' (how different will it look?! I'm having trouble imagining...). I wanted to show the ripple I have one my right breast (really noticeable in these new pics, I think) - I'm very, very self conscious about it, that only started in the last 2 years. It fluctuates on how noticeable it is - which seems odd to me, anyone else have this experience?. Will be SO happy that will be gone! But I wonder if that will cause complications with the removal...
Updated on 30 Jun 2013:
Well, I'm here in Portland waiting for the surgery. I had my pre-op consultation with Dr. Busby on Thursday and came away just FULL of emotion. I didn't update this 'review' because I wanted time to digest the information and me spewing my emotions didn't seem to be the best solution for calming myself (that's what breathing exercises are for - and whiskey). I feel better now, more that I am resign to getting it done and resign to the consequences (short term and long term). And when I say 'resign,' please don't get me wrong, this is something that I REALLY want. I have no ambivalence about that, but especially since the consultation, I have had to accept the fact that this will be a big change, it will take work and time to adjust, and they may not be perfect. This may be cynical, but I would rather be pleasantly surprised than disappointed.
That all said, here is how the consultation went,
- I met the ladies in the office who I've been talking to for weeks now, they could not be nicer!
- Dr. Busby was very professional, but also personable. He asked me about myself, talked about his daughter, and just put me at ease.
- Because of how long I had the implants in (since 2001) they are doing capsulectomies and I will have drains in at least until Wednesday (when I have my follow up)
- The surgery will be through the bottom half of the nipple, there is low chance of nerve damage (some of which I have from the implant which was done through the top half of the nipple). This is the method he prefers and has been successful
- Dr. Busby also went through all the "warnings" with me, and this is where I got nervous: I don't have too much breast tissue so I will be pretty small (I weighed more when I got them put in too), the nipple location will most likely change, there is a chance that the nipple will collapse and I will have to see a doctor, there might be hemorrhaging, and the warnings seemed to go on (eek!!!). So I would say, if you want a doctor to sugar coat everything, maybe Dr. B is not the one for you. But I think that's better than promising the moon. Things can go wrong! It's better to be cautious and better to treat the matter seriously.
Dr. Busby asked me point blank why I wanted them out. I was a little taken aback by this question, although when I think about it, day in and day out he probably mostly deals with women who REALLY want them in - and there must have been a reason why I got them in the first place, right? I told him truthfully that they just aren't me anymore and they just don't fit my lifestyle. He nodded and said "well, we'll take care of you." He also mentioned earlier that if I'm not happy with the results, the only way to correct that is to put in new implants. He added that he thinks he only has had one patient who opted to put in implants again after not being happy with the results - I think that says a lot!
So in less than 11 hours, I'll be going into surgery. I'll try to keep my nerves in check and hydrate (until midnight that is!). Hopefully I can get some sleep.
Here is to the start of something new!
Updated on 1 Jul 2013:
The wait is finally over - well, I have an hour and a half to go, but heading to the surg center now. Didn't sleep all that well, but glad it's early in the day! Hope all will go smoothly getting these puppies out. Will let you all know. See you on the flip side! (Deep breath, deep breath)
Updated on 2 Jul 2013:
I'm flat. Wow, I'm flat! But it is all me in there (well besides the drains), And that makes me happy!
The first 12 hours were kinda rough. I barely made it out of the car ride home before I threw up. I wasn't able to keep anything down for every long until late last night around 10p. I kept drinking water and juice though - and they did give me anti-nausea meds which seemed to help - oh and they gave me to take home these cool puke bags with wide mouth that self seal afterwards, pretty sweet!
Now starting day two, I am super sore! Hoping it will get better with some Advil because I really don't want to take the oxycodine if I don't have to.
Also, it's my little brother's birthday and I'm hoping to go out to dinner tonight. Maybe pushing it, but I'll make that decision later today. Just want to concentrate on healing now!
Updated on 2 Jul 2013:
Sore but good
Updated on 3 Jul 2013:
Went to the doctor today for my follow up & got my drains removed, yay! He said that the skin looks really good, a lot of elasticity, and they should bounce back well.
One thing I didn't realize was the incision site. I honestly thought he meant it was going to be on the lower part of the nipple, not the breast. No crying over incision sites now, but that was a bit of a shock when I realized where the tape was going.
I did run an errand with my mom afterwards and ran into some people that haven't seen me in a long time. I'm happy to report that people actually don't focus on the boobies all the time! They actually look you in the eye! I know, even more shocking! Still going to be an adjustment with clothes and all, but I think this is going to work out just fine!
Updated on 5 Jul 2013:
Four days post and feeling good! Almost too good, I need to be sure I don't over do it! I 'jogged' across the street yesterday and it felt like I had two sandbags on me! They may be small but the loose skin is no joke and it was a good lesson to learn - no matter how supportive the bra!
Things are almost back to normal routine, minus the exercise, but that will come in time. I also think My feeling more comfortable in my clothes will come in time... I am feeling a little self conscious and out of shape, but I did just get my period the day after surgery, so thanks for that double whammy universe!
As for the healing, so far I think the right is doing a little better than the left, but I hope it will catch up. (Reminder to self: it's only been 4 days!!!)
Still I am so happy I have my energy back - and can't thank this community enough for your support!
Updated on 6 Jul 2013:
On a bit of a whim, I decided to weigh myself in the middle of the day (something I normally only do in the morning). Rationally this makes sense, but still I had a complete jaw drop to see I weighed 3 pounds under my usual weight. Three pounds less weight on my chest?! Wow, to think of all that 'weight training' I've done while running with these bags! I can't wait to start up again (I know, I promised to wait at least 4 weeks)!
This journey is just full of little surprises and adjustments!
Updated on 9 Jul 2013:
Just in case someone out there is reading this review very closely. I mentioned I took Advil for pain at first. I found out from my PS this is the wrong choice as it quickly thins the blood - something you don't want to do when you have incisions! Tylenol (acetaminophen) is the better choice.