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400cc explant w/ full capsulectomy
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I got breast implants in May of 2004 in Portland....
WORTH IT$5,200
I got breast implants in May of 2004 in Portland. They are 400 cc, smooth, high profile, saline, above the muscle implants. I got them sophomore year in college. Back then it was the best thing I ever did for my self confidence.
In March of 2009 the left breast started feeling like it was falling out of my skin, and i got this faint but irritating burning sensation. Its since traveled over to the left quite a bit and gotten worse over time. And it burns behind my nipple. There is also this VERY strange sensation behind the implant. When I flex both my pectoral muscles, they feel like two totally different movements btwn the sides. It sort of feels like there is a "dark hole" behind my left implant. Like i can't access that area with my brain and feel it. It feels like I am not flexing my pec at all. Perhaps I've lost the feeling in my muscle?? But there is a constant strange pain sensation.
Keep in mind that my implants are ON TOP of the muscle. So strange.
I can't wear bikinis with strings that go around the neck. It hurts. In fact, I think my posture has totally suffered. I'm always hunched over. Shoulders always tense. When I lay on my back you could drive a boat show through my boobs, the implants travel deep into the side pocket. It hurts. I have not been able to sleep pain free with no tight sports bra for over 10 years.
I need some liberation.
I want to look in the mirror and see myself. And see the beauty I was given. I just want to look in the mirror and see a happy girl. Not weighed down by tacky conversation topics. I'm tired of being in a category where its socially appropriate to touch my breasts. By strangers.
I'm righteously tired of the question of "are they real", which I used to interpret as a sign of a good job, which I do have a really REALLY nice set of natural looking boobs. (just not when there's movement within them, then, then they look like crap. Like wrinkly sandwich baggies)
I think that breaking up with my current self is going to be challenging. Ive been CRYING A LOT. Letting go of who I've been for the last 10 years hurts. But I'm ready to emerge, to dust off the ashes and start age 30 with a fresh beginning.
I have a consultation scheduled next week (Sept 29th 2014) with Dr Busby in Portland. He is the doctor that took over my original surgeon's practice a few years ago. My original surgeon was Dr Melvin, who is fantastic btw, but he has since retired.
I have a consultation and surgery also scheduled for Nov. 3rd / Nov. 4th with Dr. Lenny Roudner in Miami Florida. He came highly recommended by a good friend of mine.
I don't want a lift. I am really trying to avoid that. In fact, I'm quite sure I'm gonna take my chances with the deflated condom look. I don't want to lose any more of my body, and I don't want anymore cyborg parts.
I waffled for a while btwn just getting a downsize. I thought that maybe some nice 200 cc under the muscle would be a good transition. But I've decided to try just one year without them. Just one. And I can always get new ones? Right?
In March of 2009 the left breast started feeling like it was falling out of my skin, and i got this faint but irritating burning sensation. Its since traveled over to the left quite a bit and gotten worse over time. And it burns behind my nipple. There is also this VERY strange sensation behind the implant. When I flex both my pectoral muscles, they feel like two totally different movements btwn the sides. It sort of feels like there is a "dark hole" behind my left implant. Like i can't access that area with my brain and feel it. It feels like I am not flexing my pec at all. Perhaps I've lost the feeling in my muscle?? But there is a constant strange pain sensation.
Keep in mind that my implants are ON TOP of the muscle. So strange.
I can't wear bikinis with strings that go around the neck. It hurts. In fact, I think my posture has totally suffered. I'm always hunched over. Shoulders always tense. When I lay on my back you could drive a boat show through my boobs, the implants travel deep into the side pocket. It hurts. I have not been able to sleep pain free with no tight sports bra for over 10 years.
I need some liberation.
I want to look in the mirror and see myself. And see the beauty I was given. I just want to look in the mirror and see a happy girl. Not weighed down by tacky conversation topics. I'm tired of being in a category where its socially appropriate to touch my breasts. By strangers.
I'm righteously tired of the question of "are they real", which I used to interpret as a sign of a good job, which I do have a really REALLY nice set of natural looking boobs. (just not when there's movement within them, then, then they look like crap. Like wrinkly sandwich baggies)
I think that breaking up with my current self is going to be challenging. Ive been CRYING A LOT. Letting go of who I've been for the last 10 years hurts. But I'm ready to emerge, to dust off the ashes and start age 30 with a fresh beginning.
I have a consultation scheduled next week (Sept 29th 2014) with Dr Busby in Portland. He is the doctor that took over my original surgeon's practice a few years ago. My original surgeon was Dr Melvin, who is fantastic btw, but he has since retired.
I have a consultation and surgery also scheduled for Nov. 3rd / Nov. 4th with Dr. Lenny Roudner in Miami Florida. He came highly recommended by a good friend of mine.
I don't want a lift. I am really trying to avoid that. In fact, I'm quite sure I'm gonna take my chances with the deflated condom look. I don't want to lose any more of my body, and I don't want anymore cyborg parts.
I waffled for a while btwn just getting a downsize. I thought that maybe some nice 200 cc under the muscle would be a good transition. But I've decided to try just one year without them. Just one. And I can always get new ones? Right?
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UPDATED FROM ZosoPortland
4 days pre
Franken-boobie
This is what happens when I lay down. I took this picture for my boyfriend, I was trying to get a good angle of hiding my cold sore, and didn't realize the atrocity happening to my left breast. I saw this pic and finally made the decision. Omg. How un-sexy =(
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September 27, 2014
Very true.....you can always opt for a lift or something else later. Many women find their skin does shrink up quite a bit throughout the first year after removal. I actually have some of the weird sensations you speak of in my right breast. It feels like its traveling or something. I wonder if mine is slipping out of the pocket it was nestled in for so many years (aka bottoming out). Best of luck to you! Keep us Posted!
September 27, 2014
Hey chica,
That "burning" and weird feelings in the L... Reminds me of feelings I had during the earliest stages of CC. CC also moved my L from its original location, I was also over the muscle saline so it was not from muscle distortion girls get from going under muscle. If you are starting to develop late CC as I did, then by god get them out and let everything settle for a year before doing another implant. Once CC is developing, exchanges/revision more often gets CC as well, because whatever underlying inflammation/irritant that ruined the original implant just goes on and attacks the new implant.
Dr Melvin was the best breast surgeon in Portland for many years. I'm not familiar with Busby, but had a great explant experience with Dr Gabriel in Vancouver, WA.
Best wishes, stay strong - nothing is as amazing as authenticity and being one-of-a-kind. You only "needed" implants because you thought in your mind that you did, in reality you were created as a perfect, unique being from the start. You can change your body through implants, or change your mind through self-love and confidence. Sound like you tried the first way, now try the other. As someone who has done both, I found changing my mind has been far more satisfying.
March 10, 2016
that was witty and amazing ! Love that! Change your body or change your mind. LOVE IT ! self -love! amen !
September 28, 2014
Thank you for sharing your story Zoso and for being so vulnerable to show us what you call your "franken-boobie." It is your personal decision on whether you plan down the road to get another set of implants but I would encourage you to read an informative book prior to making that decision. It's called "The Truth About Breast Implants" by Dr. Susan Kolb. Should you choose to get another set of implants, keep in mind that you will continue to be on the surgery merry-go-round a few more times throughout your life. Your breasts prior to the BA were beautiful and you will probably be just as beautiful after the explant. There is peace of mind when we know we do not have a foreign object in our body with a shelf life - there is a lightness and a beauty in touching our soft, natural breasts that somehow we forgot we had back in the day. I look forward to following your story.
September 29, 2014
Hmm..I wondering if you have a implant rupture. I think you will look fine after explant without getting new ones.. have faith..
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Your story sounds practically identical to mine! I have said the same thing and was sitting here about to update my review and try to be encouraging to woman scared about losing what gave us all the confidence and femininity we thought we needed.
I have said the same thing too. Going to remove the implants and see how I feel for one year. They can always be put back in....so that is what is keeping me confident in my choice not to mention the desire to be much smaller than I am because I am feeling pretty uncomfortably huge now.