I have been doing research on and off for 2 years for a tt surgeon in the Southern CA area. I’m 5’5”, 40 years old, 135 lbs and I have 2 kids. I finally got brave enough to schedule consultations and have a date in mind for my surgery. The journey thus far has been emotional and eye opening. I contemplated a breast lift and small implant but I am too much on the fence to make the commitment so Ive decided not to do it. My head was going back and forth and it was driving me crazy. I happen to like my small 32 c size. Sure a little perkier and tiny bit bigger would be nice, but im not even sure i even want implants. I guess I can get the same look with a push up bra! So here are my tummy before pics. I have days when i question why Im doing this to myself - then i look back at the pics and remind myself about having a better quality of life. So here goes!!!
Updated on 8 Feb 2018:
I just set my date today for March 28th!! Its so exciting but I also feel like throwing up at the same time. I had 3 consultations and I chose Dr. Edward Park in Upland, Ca. I felt the most at home there. I feel there is a high level of customer service and that i will get a wonderful result.
Updated on 15 Feb 2018:
Looking at old photos motivates me to feel confident about my tt decision. Wonder if i will feel anything like my former self after its all done.
Updated on 23 Feb 2018:
Took these pics today after my workout.
I also realize that I need to limit my time browsing on RS. The horror stories scare the sh*# out of me!! I just need to focus on positive things and being as healthy as possible before surgery.
Updated on 22 Mar 2018:
So emotional with this procedure around the corner. My oldest knows im getting an operation. I told her that I was going to fix my belly button. She loves playing with my “squishy stomach” as she calls it. She asked if my stomach was still going to be squishy after the operation. I was startled by the question and i told her that I didn’t know. She started crying and said she wanted my stomach to stay the same because she loves it. At that point i almost start crying and all these thoughts and emotions go through me like -Why am I erasing part of my kids from my body? This mixed with all the scary wavers signed at my pre op, and my husband leaving for a business trip, sent me into a 20 minute ugly cry a few nights ago. My husband asked if I was thinking of backing out. Nope! This thing is paid in full. No backing out now. Other than my emotional breakdown, the pre op went smoothly. Got instructions, prescriptions and blood work. My surgeon still thinks theres a chance I might need a vertical incision. He wont know for sure until he operates. I thought I would have to take certain supplements and get a list of stuff to buy, but thats not the case. I just have to avoid certain things like vitamins with vitamin e or extra stuff like fish oils. I need to also avoid aspiran products and ibuprofen products. I was told I could stay on my birth control pill. I chose to stop it on my own just as an extra precaution. I was told to bring comfy pants and a zip up hoodie to go home in. Flat side will be here before I know it!!!!
Updated on 27 Mar 2018:
So tomorrow is the big day. I am soooo thankful for many things. For my husband being my biggest supporter and helping me make this happen. For all my prayer warriors who are so positive and uplifting. And for my 90 year old grandfather!! He insists on being there and we could not talk him out of it. I am his first grandchild and Im sure he just wants to be there physically to give me support. He is an amazing man who has been through a tremendous amount of life struggles yet is so positive and is always helping others. He let me borrow a walker too! Love him to pieces!!
Here is a pic of some supplies I have. I really didn’t buy much. I guess its a bit different when you don’t have drains. I have the walker, an elevated toilet seat, pain meds, antibiotics, stool softener, cough drops, 1 gatorade, and pillow for my legs. I also have a recliner with a lumbar support pillow, extra strength Tylenol and a bunch of healthy snacks. Flat side here I come!!!!!!
Updated on 28 Mar 2018:
Made it to the flat side!!! Pain is manageable. I will update tomorrow when Im not so out of it. I cant believe I did this!!!!!!!
Updated on 29 Mar 2018:
Hello all! Thank you for those of you who had me in your thoughts and prayers. This community is so amazing!
My surgery went well. I was freaking out right before but managed to calm myself down. They were playing music in the operating room and the last lyrics I heard were “dont you wish your girlfriend was hot like me.” Perfect song! Lol. Going under was not as bad as i thought. When I woke though I was shaking. I knew that this could happen because i have read so many real self reviews so it wasn’t scary. By the time i got home, i stopped shaking. Pain was at a level 2! I cant recommend experol enough!!! I have been in a blur due to pain meds. I felt nauseas on and off. I also have problems completely emptying my bladder. At my post op I almost fainted when they removed my binder. I started sweating and got super lightheaded. Thank goodness it passed. Tummy looks good from what i saw. I felt like crap the entire time so i only got 1 pic that my sister took. They also gave me an anti nausea injection. So far the walker, elevated toilet seat and soda water are lifesavers.
Updated on 30 Mar 2018:
This stuff works but Im so loopy. Sleep time.
Updated on 31 Mar 2018:
As the exparel wears off, i have had more pain and soreness. My back muscles hurt and my body as a whole is a bit stiff. I am taking Percocet every 4 hours. Im still having trouble emptying my bladder fully due to the meds. On a positive note, I forgot to mention that I did not need a vertical incision!!!! Yay!
Updated on 2 Apr 2018:
So these past couple days have been rough. I have a love/hate relationship with percocet but it was really messing me up so i finally got off of it during the day. I feel more clear headed and can now fully empty by bladder. I also had my first bm today!! Yay. The pain and soreness are felt more with just the tylenol vs percocet. The days seem to be passing by suuuuper slowly. Ive watched more tv and movies than ever. I have been scared to take off the binder due to the fact I almost fainted the last time at my post op. I have not showered even though I can. Just scared so Ive been using wash clothes with a no rinse wash that I use for my kids by Mustela and also a dry shampoo. Have any of you been scared to take off binder? My Dr tells me that i should keep it on for 4 weeks but i already hate it because it moves a bit and its bulky. Im probably going to switch to Veronique compression garment- hopefully with his blessing.
Updated on 3 Apr 2018:
I just took a shower and it was exactly what I needed. My husband helped me every step of the way and it was so loving of him that I almost cried. These days I am so incredibly helpless and my husband has been my rock. He even took a picture for me.
Updated on 5 Apr 2018:
Im in so much pain from laughing!!! Thanks to my husband calling me “wheels” because of my walker. Just breath just breath!!! Hurts so bad.
Updated on 7 Apr 2018:
Stitches and tape came off on day 9. It was a turning point for me. It was the first night I slept well since before the surgery. I also adjusted my binder much lower. It made all the difference and now I can breath better too.
Updated on 8 Apr 2018:
Well I watched the entire Downton Abbey series in 9 days!! Thats a whole lot of tv hours in a day! I was lucky to have my parents and my in laws split the first 10 recovery days to care for my kids. It made recovery easier. They are back now and the “vacation” is over. I am so thankful for them being with grandparents all those days but now we have to readjust to mommy and daddy rules. Along with the fact they don’t have the same mommy. My 3 year old wanted me to pick her up and that led to a meltdown. Day 2 with them is much better.
I have been sleeping in my bed for 2 days. Here’s a picture of my million pillows! It feels much better after sleeping on the recliner for over a week. I cant wait to be able to side sleep. Overall I feel really good. I am only taking ibuprofen at night. I dont push myself though. Im not standing straight yet and still using the walker from time to time to alleviate back pain.
Updated on 9 Apr 2018:
So the tape is off and its not pretty. I have a lot of dimples, swelling and unevenness which I have to believe is from the internal sutures. I have faith that this will all look much better in a couple weeks. I have a very peculiar incision on one of my sides. It looks like an arrow. As strange as it seems, I love it! I think its funny. Its my own version of a tattoo. Lol
Updated on 10 Apr 2018:
I was having issues with my binder after tt. My surgeon wanted me to keep it on for 6 weeks. However, it keeps riding up because of my booty and not giving me the compression I need on lower belly or digging into my incision. The sizing charts for veronique was spot on. They also have great customer service.
Updated on 11 Apr 2018:
Its 2 weeks post op and Im getting a little impatient with the healing. I just feel yucky and useless sitting around all day. My body is kind of sore. I am not walking straight yet. I also have not left the house aside from Drs. appointments. I wish I could sleep on my side already. I was able to shower on my own yesterday. I didnt wash my hair though. That would have been too much for me to handle. My poor husband has been handling everything and also working a very stressful job with long hours. I just want to get back to normal already. Sorry for the whining! Lol
Updated on 12 Apr 2018:
I noticed a little jiggly part on the left side of my belly. I took a video and sent it to my Dr. I got a call back this morning asking me to come in. After an examination, the Dr decided to drain it. He feels like perhaps some of the body glue wasn’t quite doing its job. Mu Dr used a mix of body glue and quilting sutures. It was only 50 cc and I didn’t feel a thing because Im still numb. I need to go back in 5 days so he can check it again. In the meantime I was told to take it real easy until then.
Updated on 14 Apr 2018:
Last night I noticed more fluid build up and it has spread to a wider area. The fluid was initially to the left of my belly button. Now its to the left and also down further next to my incision. :( I am frustrated to say the least. I put more compression on the area by adding a foam pad. This has me questioning the drainless tummy tuck big time! Full healing seems soooo far away. I have a vacation booked to Hawaii in July and Im wondering if 3 months of healing will be enough by the time I go. (Insert emoji face with a tear)
Updated on 15 Apr 2018:
I finally took some updated pictures. I took one right after taking off my binder. You can see all the indents from the foam pad I have been using. The rest were taken after my shower. The foam pad seems likes is really helping to reduce the fluid build up. The incision is healing well. Small victories!
Updated on 15 Apr 2018:
My binder tends to scratch my skin at the velcro ends that overlap onto my skin. I cut up some felt fabric and stuck it on the ends. No more scratches!
Updated on 18 Apr 2018:
Today marks 3 weeks for me. I developed a seroma and Ive had it drained twice. I was mistaken about the amount drained the first time. It was actually 60cc not 50. The second time was yesterday and it was 45 cc. My doctor wants to see me back in a week or sooner if more fluid develops. He also recommended additional pressure. Along with the foam pad, he also added a stack of gauze. I was ordered to basically do nothing and just sit or lay down as much as possible. Whoever said that you can go back to work at 2 weeks is slightly crazy. Its been 3 weeks for me and Im still a hot mess. Im not walking upright yet and I’m super slow. I guess you can go back, but it wont be comfortable at all! My 5 year old is at home with me but my 3 year old has been staying with my mom because it has been difficult for me to deal with the physical demands of taking care of her. I am so lucky to have my mom 10 minutes away. I showered from head to toe all by myself yesterday. It was exhausting but definitely a milestone.
Updated on 21 Apr 2018:
My kids are 3 and 5. My 5 year old has been great. She can dress herself, use the bathroom alone, grab her own snack, etc. The 3 year old has been a challenge. She doesn’t quite comprehend whats going on and is super needy. She still uses diapers for sleep time, wants to be carried at times, etc. I was lucky that my mom took over and kept her for a couple weeks on and off. My husband was also super hands on with them. If I did not have this help, it might have been better to wait until the youngest was 5 to get the tt. Its also been a super long cold and flu season so now both of them are sick. They got sick 2 weeks before my procedure and then again now at 3 weeks post op. I pray I dont get sick because coughing is pretty painful. These are the things to keep in mind when scheduling your procedures ladies. Have a plan and a backup plan if possible!
Updated on 24 Apr 2018:
Today I had my 3rd draining of my seroma. This time it drained 30 cc. Its going down for sure but my surgeon wants to be more on top of it. He wants me to come in as soon as I feel it. Unfortunately he wont be in the rest of the week so Im coming in on Monday. He will see me in between surgeries. I love how responsive Dr. Park is. I have never felt rushed and I always get my questions answered. I was also instructed to start standing up straighter and to do some small bending movements. I was given a new binder because the old one was thrashed. I am currently shopping for a different binder. The Veronique binder I mentioned in a previous post made me too hot because it was high back and hd shorts. I could not breath!! It was well made and had straps but I could not handle it. I will try a high waisted brief with side zipper and crotch clips as well. The pics I took today were a little rushed and the lighting was weird.
Updated on 27 Apr 2018:
Belly button
So I dont love my belly button. To me its flat. Not an innie or outie- just flat. I guess I wont be able to tell what the final outcome is for a few months.
Compression Garment
Im still battling with finding the right compression garment that wont make me too hot. I need firm compression due to my seroma sitution. For several brands, my measurements make me range from size M to size XL depending on what part of the body I measure. Waist- 28in., hips- 40 in., thigh 24in. I spoke with 2 different people from Marena Group. One person told me to forget the post surgical garments and go for their regular shapewear thats made for curvy women. However, I didnt like any of the styles. The other person just recommended that I get a couple sizes and decide. He actually didnt believe my thigh measurement so he had me take it again. Yes I am curvy sir!! Lol! I ordered a few and we shall see what happens. If these dont work, I might try Leonisa or some kind of columbian faja.
Energy
My energy is up and I have been doing a lot more. I am taking and picking up the kids from school, doing dishes, laundry, cooking, etc. All in moderation though because I do tire out. Today I took a trip to Target and I was beat! Especially since I tried on some spanx while I was there. A nap helped. Now Im gonna cook quick dinner and finish a load of laundry. I am still having trouble getting comfy while sleeping. I tried side sleeping for bit and it wasnt too bad. I know that good sleep is coming soon!! Happy healing to all!!
Updated on 28 Apr 2018:
Today I decided to go to Macy’s to try on compression garments/fajas. All Leonisa was 30% off so I decided to give the brand a try. I have battle wounds!!! Trying these suckers on is a full on contact sport. It wiped me out but it was a success! I learned a lot about what I needed for my curvy figure. In a nutshell, I have to use a garment with shorts or use a waist trainer/corset. Any garment that is a brief style, does not work for me. One came close though. It was by Miracle suit but the issue was that it didn’t have enough compression. With all other brands, my thighs and butt were screaming to be freed!! I ended up choosing the Leonisa shaper short with removable straps. Its regularly $80 but I got it for $56!! There was also a boy short style and an above the knee style. The boy short gave me similar issues to a brief style. The longer shorts made me too hot. Even though the Leonisa brand is supposed to cater to latina figures, I still found myself between sizes M and L. I got them both and I’ll decide which to keep when I try them on again tomorrow. Im leaning toward the large though. I also got a Leonisa corset for $24, regularly 40. In the pictures I am wearing the wrong size and forgot to close one of the hooks. The corset is comfy and unique in that it has three bands instead of being one solid piece of fabric. When I got home I took 2 ibuprofen. Its bed time!
Updated on 2 May 2018:
Today I am 5 weeks post op. I still have the seroma. I got it drained again yesterday. I forgot to ask how many cc. I have to go in again tomorrow (2 days after.) My surgeon just wants to attack this. I just want it done and over with. The pics im posting are a few days old. I have some puckering still and it seems like I might be developing some new stretch marks. :( At the incision its still swollen but looks much better in the mornings. Its not painful to laugh, sneeze, or cough anymore. My stomach does get hard when I do -but its tolerable. Sleep is getting better but its for sure not back to normal yet.
Updated on 4 May 2018:
I had 30 cc drained on Tuesday. Yesterday, Thursday, I had 15 cc drained. My Dr. has been trying different things to get the area compressed. The foam pad was too wide so we have switched to gauze pads in the specific area. I put the stack of pads and then the binder over it. He marked the area where the fluid is building up. There is a little red dot in the middle. Thats where the needle went in to drain it. Thankfully I still don’t feel much of anything when that needle goes in. I have another appointment on Monday to check progress. I tried the corset binder for the day yesterday. It was not good. It gave me too many marks and didn’t give me the proper compression for the are with the seroma. I will have to keep wearing the binder until my Dr. tells me otherwise. I also have a cold. :( It came on yesterday. I have no idea how anyone made it to school today- but they did. I was on autopilot I guess.
Updated on 8 May 2018:
I went in to get my seroma drained on Monday but my Dr. could not drain anything. Hopefully this is the beginning of the seroma healing!! I still feel a little fluid but we shall see what happens when I go in on Thursday. Im gonna be 6 weeks tomorrow. My body is craving some exercise. Im not cleared to do that yet due to the seroma. I am not currently doing any scar therapy. My Dr wants me to wait. Here is a bathing suit I tried on!! Eeek! Its so exciting. The top was 2 sizes too big so I didnt buy it.
Updated on 10 May 2018:
Today I got my seroma checked out again and there was not enough fluid to drain. Its good news!! If it continues this way next week, I will be cleared to ditch the binder and be able to start working out! I do have a weird section on my lower middle tummy. Its a bit raised and it seems like theres brand new stretch marks. The Dr seems to think its a normal part of the healing but Im not too sure. Those marks were clearly not there before and its also a bit raised? One of his assistants was also baffled by it and said its the first time shes seen something like that. Could it be the extra compression we added with gauze caused this section of skin to stretch? Could it be some kind of scar tissue? I dont know but Im not liking it. The greenish looking spot of my belly is where they were draining the extra fluid so I got a bruise a couple days ago when they tried 2 sizees of needles. These close up pics are not too fun but alas, theres still progress.
Updated on 18 May 2018:
Great news! I have been cleared to work out and also to ditch the hospital binder!! The seroma looks great. My next appt is the first week of July. No more weekly and bi weekly appts. Its time to have a bonfire and throw the binder in!! I still dont feel Im completely upright yet. Sleep is slowly getting back to normal. Im side sleeping now. Cant wait to do a little shopping. Starting scar therapy. Happy weekend.
Updated on 21 May 2018:
I spoke too soon about putting my binder in a bon fire. It turns out I am super dependent on it. Cant live without it yet. I usually try to wear it when Im home. When im out, I wear a spanx type garment. But s soon as I get home, I feel the need to put it on. I hate this binder but I love this binder. :(
Updated on 5 Jun 2018:
I have started working out with modifications. I plank on my knees and I avoid or modify any exercise with jumping or running. No issues with the elliptical. I still get tired more easily than normal and still swell in the evenings or after lots of activity or heat. My seroma is totally healed it seems. Yay! I have a little loose skin where the extra compression my have caused the skin to expand. I also think I have a tiny dog ear. In my pics I have biocornum on the incision so that’s why it looks glossy.
Im still dependent on compression. Argh! I mostly wear spanks when im out and the binder when Im home. I wear it looser though.
Updated on 26 Jun 2018:
Its hard to believe that in one week I will be 3 months post op! Im feeling great and have much more energy. I still feel tight and swell at the incision but overall, I feel amazing. Ive been getting in quick high intensity workouts but still modify. I dont prefer running or jumping exercises. I also watch tv while on the elliptical. Its almost time for Hawaii!! Here are my bathing suits from Target and Venus swim.
Updated on 3 Jul 2018:
Went in today and everything is looking great. Healing is on track and I will be seen again at 6 mo. Post op. Here are my before pics, the skin they took off and a pic of my newest bikini!! Wow- just wow! Sooo happy!
Updated on 3 Jul 2018:
Updated on 5 Sep 2018:
Im doing well and have been enjoying bikinis over the summer. I still swell every night and I dont have complete feeling of my stomach yet. I finally stopped using the hospital binder at 3 months. Now Im using spanx type briefs and I am so dependent on them. I dont know if its a crutch or if I really still need the support. When I spend a day without them, all I want to so i get home and put them on. I need to get more consistent with working out and getting core strength back. I also need to stretch more. Maybe that will help me get rid of these spanx!! It will also help me fit into clothes better. My sister encouraged me to wear a smaller bikini bottom to show off my figure. I just couldnt. I put them on, took a picture of myself and when i saw them, i switched them for ones with more coverage. I just feel so uncomfortable with my bum hanging out like kim kardashian!! Well for your viewing pleasure, I have included those pics so you can see what I mean. This is also why I had such issues with finding a compression garment that fit right. “Itty bitty waist and a round thing in your face...”
Updated on 27 Sep 2018:
Looking good. I’m still numb on parts of my belly. Since increasing exercise, I have seen more puffiness in my lower belly area. It feels like fluid but not like fluid that needs to be drained. I will go to my 6 month appt in another week or so and Ill address the issue then.
Updated on 25 Apr 2019:
I cant believe its been a year!!! I have been doing well. The only issue is that Ive gained 10 pounds!! Yikes. I need to get consistent with working out. Overall, I am still extremely happy with my results. I feel a lot more confident and my clothes fit so much better. My stomach still does not have full sensation but It does not bother me. I am happy I decided to embark on this journey. Time to work out!!