2 Days Before the Surgery

After thinking about it for a long time I finally had the time and money to get the treatment done. I lost a good amount of weight through quarantine but gained it back and I'm unhappy with the way my stomach looks. I have naturally large breasts and butt and thighs so I don't need a bbl. I'm not trying to look like a whole different person, I just want to look like a better version of myself. I originally inquired about doing airsculpt at Elite body sculpt in NYC but I had a video consultation with the doctor and I didn't like his vibe. He seemed kind of bothered to be answering my questions and I felt kind of dismissed. Also the quote was high and I didn't mind paying the money, for a good job, but I didn't think he cared and I was just another body. 

I continued my research and found Dr. Elliot Heller. I spoke to him on the phone then met him at his office the next day and I knew after talking to him that he was the right choice for me. He answered all my questions honestly, took the time to hear what I was worried and anxious about and set me up with realistic expectations. I have a bit of loose skin so he told me that my stomach wouldn't be completely flat without a tummy tuck, which is fine with me, like I said I'm not looking for perfection I just want to look like a better me. I told him I was scared about the pain and he assured me that it would be manageable and that I would be given pain killers to help manage. I was told to expect more soreness than actual pain and what really sealed the deal for me was when he told me he would take his time with me and make sure I have good smooth results. He made me feel so comfortable that I went home looked at my schedule and booked the first open slot he had available. 

I'm 2 days away from my surgery and am honestly an anxious wreck. I woke up today and had a complete anxiety attack and cried and everything. I've never had any surgery or been under general anesthesia so there's definitely anxiety from that because I don't know what to expect. I feel good now my anxiety has definitely gone down, thinking about my results is definitely helping to put me at ease. I think this will be worth it and I'm happy that I've done my research and went the best route for myself. 

Instead of driving myself crazy I've decided to just focus on preparing myself and my home. Clean bed sheets, bought compression garments, food in the fridge, putting aside comfortable and loose clothing and tomorrow I'll pick up my prescriptions. I've already bought a package for lymphatic drainage massages so I'll probably set up my first appointment for 5 days post op. My best friends are going to be staying with me and taking care of me so I'm very thankful to have the support system that I do and I'm just trying to stay calm and excited.