37, Gigantic Girls Gotta Go! - Little Rock, AR

I’m two weeks from my one year anniversary, and sadly the girls have not morphed or settled into an acceptable boob shape. Haven’t posted since my “second opinion” because it left me hopeless and more depressed than when I went in. I literally can’t describe how much this whole ordeal has put me under the floor. I’m still struggling to keep up with my day to day, because I cannot get past it. I don’t cry as often as I was, but I still cry more often than is normal for anyone. A couple times a week, sometimes more, I get bogged down in all the DID THIS REALLY HAPPEN??? ARE THESE MY FOREVER BOOBS??? I’ve taken some time off from dealing with it, and now that I’m approaching the 1yr mark, I’m picking the scab and back to trying to make sense of it and finding out what I’m going to have to do to fix it. My surgeon was diagnosed with lymphoma in May, and has been out for treatment since then. I just found this out when I emailed the office to find out if they would be wanting after pics, or if they were curious as to whether I’d died of a staph infection, since the last time he saw me I had the big opening in my right breast. His office mate/partner has taken over his clients, and when I called to make an appointment she was very quick to let me know that insurance would not cover it. Fine. She told me she’d forwarded my email about my concerns to Zonica, but I’ve yet to hear anything back. This forum was a TREMENDOUS support system for me when I was still going through the motions of trying to find a solution, so I’m back now, seeking that again. Here are some 50-week post-op photos of how my breasts look with my arm raised, and a couple from nipple-angle with my arms down. For the arm lifted ones I did a below, nipple level, and above.

Nervous but ready to find out how intense and expensive revision is going to be.

I call them [RS bleep] because when I look at them I just see vulgarity. I literally hate them. I hate showering, dressing, going to work, going anywhere public. Every once in a while I tell myself they aren't that bad, but when I think about being intimate with someone all I can do is cry and wish I'd never gone through with it. I'm sorry to be such a sad sack of [RS bleep], but people considering a reduction need to know that it doesn't always turn out the way you imagine it in your head. Or even the way you see it in hundreds of other people's before and after pics. If I could give any advice it would be to have several thousand dollars saved for any revision surgery you may need, because insurance sure doesn't pay for you to feel good enough about yourself to go out in public , or get laid.