31 Years Old, 1 Child, Excited to FINALLY Have the Breasts I've Always Wanted!

Though I wasn’t able to make the 6 hour round trip to see my PS in person, I emailed him photos and video, and I’m currently being treated for capsular contracture. I’ve been absent from here for longer than I intended, I’ve just been really down. I knew going into this that this procedure isn’t without risk or complications, but like,....... damn, man.....
I’m currently on a regimen of milk thistle, vitamin E, massage, once daily singulair, and hella prayer (“Are you there, God? It’s me, tiddies”) in hopes to prevent further hardening of the capsule, and with any luck (but certainly not MY luck, because my luck is [RS bleep]), soften the hardening that has already occurred. Part of my massage regimen requires me to lay face down on the floor for several minutes at a time, which is neat because everyone assumes there’s something wrong with you (perhaps a depressive episode), and maintains a wide berth. Even if my CC resolves, I may continue this practice, as I’ve deemed it an efficient way to get some peace and quiet. My children have never asked me fewer questions.
Anywho, I’ve been researching this so much that any time I type the letters c-a-p, the auto-fill/predictive text on my phone automatically pulls up the word ‘capsular’. Kinda awkward when I’m texting my dad about a baseball cap, he asks me what the hell a ‘baseball capsular’ is, and I’m just like, “uhhhhhhhh...... stupid autocorrect??...”
But yeah, through my extensive googling, I’ve learned that each of the above treatments only has about a 50% success rate, though no studies have been done on the efficacy of prayer in treating CC. I’m banking on one of them to be effective because the next step is either ultrasound therapy (which, at a quote of 3 grand is outside of my financial capabilities right now), or capsulectomy/capsulotomy, which I’m sure is even further out of reach. I wonder how much googling I’d have to do to find out where I can sell a kidney? I’m kidding (I think)
My research has also taught me that one of the suspected causes of early CC is low-grade infection within the pocket. The bacteria then adheres to the biofilm, and the body goes into overdrive in protecting itself. See, all capsules are a normal part of the healing process any time a foreign object is implanted into the body, but sometimes the body goes into ultra freak out mode and goes ham on it, building a veritable fortress around the several thousand dollar medical cosmetic device. The human body is such a wondrous mystery, ain’t it??
All that is to say that I’m considering calling my PS and asking if they’d prescribe me antibiotics. Buttttt, I don’t wanna seem obsessive, and I also know that doctors are being much more conservative with antibiotics these days, and for good reason. Antibiotic-resistant MRSA is a [RS bleep], y’all. At the same time, though, I wanna attack this from all possible angles, because if I can’t resolve this by tossing a bunch of pills down the hatch, I’m fairly well screwed.
All in all, I *am* still noticing some slight changes. Roger may have dropped slightly, and that weird button thing on the side is gone. But I still have a nearly non-existent breast crease on the right side. Roger fails ‘the pencil test’. If I lift up my left breast (Jessica) and place a pencil at the breast crease, when I drop my breast, the pencil stays put. Roger, however, doesn’t have enough breast tissue to hold a damn pencil. Roger is a lazy, worthless [RS bleep]. Don’t be like Roger. But my transaxillary scars are healing quite well, so that’s good.
That’s enough of my ranting for now, and if you’re still reading this, bless your heart. Sorry for the overuse of my dark sense of humor. It’s how I cope. Pray for my tiddies, please?

These past couple weeks have been a HUGE struggle for me; primarily in my personal life, but the tiddies are now just the icing on the cake. I know in a very recent review update, I said that I would stop stressing and just let it be, but I guess I lied. I am now 9 weeks post-op, and I’m beginning to lose hope that the right one (Roger Rabbit) will ever be what the left (Jessica Rabbit) is. It is still up higher, with much more upper pole firmness, and while groping myself the other day (as I’ve been known to do these days), I noticed that Roger does not have the same ‘mobility’ as Jessica does. Jessica is soft and pliable, and when I squeeze, the implant moves all the way up to my collarbone. Roger, however, just [RS bleep] sits there. I told myself that I wasn’t going to swear in my reviews, because I don’t want to negatively color the information I have to share, but whatever. This is who I am. I’m foul mouthed, I’m frustrated, and I’m discouraged.
I’ve been resisting calling my PS for two reasons: A.) because I don’t want to be *that patient* who is freaking out over her results only 2 months in; and B.) because if I’m being honest with myself, I feel like that will make it ‘real’. Like if I call/go in, it’s a confirmation that something isn’t right. However, my beautiful, wonderful, and wise best friend told me two things that stopped that train of thought right in its tracks. “You didn’t pay $7000 for a surgery, you paid $7000 for RESULTS. Their job isn’t done if you’re concerned about your outcome. This is what they’re there for. CALL. And secondly, if something truly is wrong, it’s wrong whether you call or not. You have a window of opportunity where there might be other steps you can take to correct it without going back under the knife. CALLLLL.” So, on Monday, I will be calling. Part of me feels ridiculous and selfish because in the grand scheme of things, my results are an improvement on what I had naturally by leaps and bounds. Maybe if there were only one or two of these issues, I could be more accepting. But as it stands now, here are my concerns: at the very middle of the bottom of Jessica (at the crease), there is this weird indent thingy. When I flex, it stands out even more, and my husband says it looks like a butt -_- Roger is still up high, much more firm, and I’m starting to notice that my nipple points out to the side a bit, and the space between my midline and my nipple is greater than Jessica’s. Roger has this weird ‘button’ on the side boob area that seems to be becoming more pronounced. Roger’s lower pole isn’t nearly as round, either. It all seems so minor as I’m typing it out, but I’m not sure I can feel good about my breasts if some of these issues don’t resolve, particularly the positioning of Roger, and Jessica’s butt indent. I’m now wearing my compression band almost 24/7, under the left breast and over the right. In addition, I’m doing the massage my PS recommended, 4-5 times a day, for 2-3 minutes each. There is *some* change, but not very much. Sorry for being a downer, but I’m trying SO hard to keep my head above water, and it feels like everything is going wrong, tiddies and otherwise. I can’t tell if I need a vacation, tequila, or a hug...

Gonna try to upload the videos one last time before I give up. Third time’s a charm??