Hey everyone! I've been reading reviews here religiously for about a year now, and I can't believe it but it's finally my turn :) I could barely find any petite women to compare with, so I'm hoping that this will help!
Here are my stats:
Height: 5’0
Weight: 100lbs
BWD: 13cm
Cleavage gap: 3cm
Pre-op cup size: Solid 32 A
Goal size: 34B / 32 C – just big enough to have cleavage and curves!
CCs: Between 275 & 300ccs
Placement: Subglandular / over the muscle
Surgery Date: October 18th 2018
*If you’ve had a BA or are about to have one and you’re also under 5'2 and less than 120lbs or you have implants over the muscle I’d love to hear about your experience It’s been very difficult finding similar patients*
I just met Dr. Larsen at Buckhead Plastic Surgery for the first time at my pre-op (and paid in full!) today, and I'm having Very mixed feelings. He has a great personality, explained a few things and made it seem like everything would be a walk in the park for me, but I definitely felt rushed. He was pushing me towards a size that was bigger than what I wanted and I didn't get to discuss the look I'm going for or to show him my wish pics, so I'm a little worried... but he's been doing these surgeries for over 20 years and is more than qualified, so I'm hoping I can just reiterate what I want and demand a little more time to be clear on surgery day.
The biggest shock to me so far though is that I was told that Dr. Larsen prefers to go over the muscle; as long as the patient has at least ‘an inch to pinch’ of tissue at the upper part of the breast. I was terrified at first because everyone seems to do submuscular placement, but after hours of research, I think I actually prefer the over the muscle approach for me personally. No animation deformity, no lateral sagging over time, and a faster recovery (two of my family members got unders from another surgeon, and unfortunately I think they look very augmented albeit proportionate). Most surgeons say it looks less natural, but I actually think it’s the other way around when the original tissue is thick enough.
Lastly, I'm stuck on sizing! The office only had 250 or 350 and nothing in between, and the 250s looked a bit small while the 350s (what the consultant and Dr. Larsen recommended) made me look very top heavy. They didn't object when I said that 275 or 300 at most was probably a good happy medium, so I'm going with that as of right now. Super indecisive though... we'll see!
Updated on 6 Oct 2018:
So the other day I asked if I could see the doctor again before my surgery since I felt a little rushed, and my consultant asked if I'd like to come in for 3D sizing since the Vectra system was up and running. I reluctantly agreed, but I have to say- it really helped! I definitely feel like 275ccs is the highest I would go, as the 300s give me the 'bolted on' look that I'm desperate to avoid. My cleavage gap is wide to begin with and I'm fine with it, so I feel like I shouldn't go bigger just to try and fix that. I can always push them together!
Also.. how do you guys deal with having little to no support? I just got off the phone with a close family friend who practically begged me not to go through with the surgery, and of course I'm long past the point of no return with full payment down and surgery in 11 days. My dad also made a statement the other day saying "I totally support you, but there's just no way any woman gets boobs for herself- it's always for men."- and it infuriated me. People honestly often find me attractive the way I am, and I love my body the way it is. I just want boobs 100% because I want boobs; not to impress anyone, not because I don't love myself, not for any other reason. Mostly though, the people I've told have said: "you're fine the way you are, but it's your body". I feel so alienated after wanting this so badly and saving for so long, and I'm starting to wonder if I made the right choice.
Updated on 9 Oct 2018:
Just picked up my prescriptions, surgery is 8 days away and everything is starting to feel a little more real! I ended up paying out of pocket for my prescriptions, which came to about $60 after using goodrx for coupons. I got muscle relaxers, sleep aid, antibiotics, anti-nausea, and pain medication.
I've also made a small shopping list of things that I need to have done or pick up before surgery:
1. Buy Gatorade, water bottles and stool softener
2. Borrow button-up shirts/pjs from family to wear for the first few days
3. Clean the house/my room, do laundry and run all errands
4. Label a bunch of sandwich bags to put medication in after surgery so I can easily take them myself
5. Set up all medications in Medisafe (my med reminder app, works wonders)
6. Get my hair braided, wax and take a long bubble bath while I still can! lol
I'm sure I'm forgetting a few things, but I like to think I've gotten the basics. Just over a week to go!
Updated on 15 Oct 2018:
2 more days and I to say, I’m super excited!! And not as worried as I have been. I just saw a review of a woman who went with the same surgeon, and she came out AMAZING so I’m pumped.The only two worries I have are A) I still haven’t gotten a call from the hospital for my phone assessment, although it’s only Monday and I was told they call the week of surgery, and B) I was told last weekend that my surgeon would give me a call to answer some last minute questions and put me at ease since I felt a little rushed during the pre-op, and still no call...
I truly believe that he’s going to do a fantastic job, but my pre-op experience could’ve been better. I’ve set up my supplies and medications, taken care of most errands, and decided for sure that I want to do 275ccs! I’d rather be slightly big than slightly small. Next update will be surgery day, so wish me luck!!
Updated on 18 Oct 2018:
Hi ladies! I don't know if it's just the hydrocodone I'm on, but I am SO HAPPY with my results already! I got out just a few hours ago and I'm now in bed relaxing. I decided on 275ccs, Mentor Memory Gel Smooth Round High Profile implants on both sides. And, honestly? I did not at all think I would say this but... they look small right now! Lol, I can't believe it, I was so scared of them being huge! I really just hope they don't get much smaller once they settle in, because right now I'm pretty confident I'll be at a 32C just like I wanted. Ladies if you're between sizes, I highly recommend going for the slightly larger size or 25ccs over what you think is just right. I'm normally the smallest size (xxs/xs/s juniors, 0 or 00 in jeans, Very Petite) in any clothes, and the 275s look quite modest on me.I'm shocked since I did have a little handful of boob to start with!
I woke up at around 5:30, showered with Dial soap, and headed to the Northside Outpatient Center with my mother. I waited about 30 minutes until the pre-op nurse took me back and had me put on my "victoria's secret gown" and do the IV (which wasn't bad at all, but I've never been afraid of needles). She had me take two anti-nausea pills and put the Scopolamine (anti-nausea) patch behind my ear that needs to come off in 48 hours.Then she hooked me up to the bear hugger (heated blanket) and I got nice and warm until the Anesthesiologist came in and asked a couple of questions. Then Dr. Larsen came in and jokingly said "you wanted 600ccs right?" and I about died haha- he marked me, had me lay under the blanket again and then I was given the 'cocktail' drug that made me feel tipsy. I was wheeled into the OR, put on the oxygen mask, and remember seeing the anesthetic and hearing that I was going to go to sleep. And then I woke up very gently as if I had taken a good nap! I felt some pain, about a 4 of 10, so I was given the oxycodone and some ginger ale and crackers. Very slight tightness, but it doesn't feel heavy at all! Then my family was allowed in, they helped me get dressed and into the car. Now I'm home and so happy :) I was able to open the car door, pull up my pants, hold my bowl of soup, drink without a straw and just generally much more than I thought. I did get over the muscle, so I think that certainly helps. I just can't move my arms back far or too far above my head (and I don't want to mess anything up by trying). The swelling seems almost nonexistent and my nipples aren't as puffy as I thought they'd be, but I can definitely tell the girls are numb and firm. The cleavage already looks good, so I can't wait to see it get even better. I just can't wait to get a full look tomorrow when I get the bandage off! Everyone at the hospital was so nice, and my experience there was awesome.
AND oh my gosh guys, I just felt the 'squishing' towards the top of my boob! I know it's just air and it's fine, it's just so funny and weird to me lol.
Thank you everyone for your support so far, it means so much. I love my new boobs!!!
Updated on 19 Oct 2018:
So, several updates for today: last night shortly after my last update, the pain started to increase, slowly rising from a 2 or 3 to a 7-8 on a scale of 10 being excruciating. I cried, not knowing how to possibly relieve the pain since I'd already taken valium and percocet. The frozen peas helped temporarily, but barely. I finally realized that if I take a Deep breath (as instructed by my PS to clear out the anesthesia) every now and then, it somehow releases the pressure and makes me feel loads better for a while. I cried again before bed just worrying about it being worse in the morning, but when I woke up today I felt 10x better with little to no 'morning boob!" I think I might've just over-exerted myself the first day. But my gosh, the bandage was SO itchy! I'm still itching in the surgical bra, but I think it's just from my skin stretching.
Then I went to my post op appointment this morning, where I knew I was going to have to start massaging. I was terrified, and it was a bit painful but not nearly as bad as I thought! I'm supposed to do the massages every hour or whenever I think about it, and I've been doing that pretty frequently to prevent capsular contracture. The only thing I'm worried about is getting a hematoma, and I'm so glad to have that wrap off! There's a limited edition Mickey Mouse release at the mall tomorrow morning, so I'm really hoping I'll be able to do some walking and sit in a line for 2 hours. My next update will be whenever I see a change, so let me know if you have any questions! I still can't believe I have boobs now and I can't wait to put together a drop & fluff collage!
Updated on 22 Oct 2018:
Time flies when you're on a ton of pain meds! Haha. The valium (muscle relaxant/anxiety suppressant) has helped tremendously with pain, sleep, and discomfort, but it leaves me feeling disoriented and groggy all day so I'm trying to slowly wean off of it. I often find myself dozing off mid-text, and I wouldn't dare try to read, I did, however, make it to the mall and sit in line for two hours only 48hrs after surgery! I was in pain but generally okay, though I definitely wouldn't recommend doing that. I slept on and off all day today, almost as if my body needed to recuperate from yesterday.
Massages: I don't think that the overall appearance of my breasts have changed much, but it is definitely clear now that my left (larger) boob is firmer/tighter than my right. It also has a lot more bruising, but I know that this is all normal and they should even out soon enough. Massages are getting easier, and the cleavage is slowly but surely improving. The biggest change is that they're already getting much softer! My right breast is almost as soft right now as my sister's submuscular implants that are 10+ years old, and it blows my mind. I can't wait to see what they're like in 6+ months! I cheated a little and tried on the 34B bra I've been wearing with rice sizers pre-op, and it fits perfectly! Yay!
Bloating: So.. I look pregnant lol. I thought I've been bloated before but clearly, I haven't! I haven't had a bowel movement since the day before surgery, so about 5 days now. Right now I'm drinking coffee and taking stool softeners. Hopefully, I'll feel better when I can finally go!
Must-Haves: Here is a little list of things that have been extremely helpful to me during my recovery:
Backscratcher (you will thank me)
Heating pad for my back
Neck Pillow
Cheetos//fruits/crackers/whatever snacks you're into (Also helps to take with pills)
& lastly, I've been massaging them with Aloe Vesta Protective Ointment, which is used in hospitals and is like a super-charged petroleum jelly (great on dry skin, lips, and minor cuts), to keep my stretching skin from itching too much.
See you all at my next update!
Updated on 23 Oct 2018:
Well, I wish this update could be a little more uplifting but unfortunately it’s a bit of a sad one! I have a high pain tolerance, but I was shocked to realize today that I’ve almost gone through my entire prescription for pain pills. The few times I’ve tried to take less or skip a dose I’ve been in almost unbearable pain- I’m almost a week out, so I have no idea how people go back to work within a few days! I really had no idea just how painful this would be, and when it hurts it hurts everywhere: my sides, underneath, on top, and down my cleavage line. Quoting myself from the most recent episode of pain after skipping the meds, “It feels like someone is gripping both sides of my ribcage from the middle and slowly ripping it apart”. :/ My bigger and firmer left breast hurts much worse and sometimes is the only side that hurts at all, and I’m really starting to worry that it’s contracted since, as you can see in the photos, it’s much higher and tighter. I can also lift my right arm above my head just fine, but not my left. But it’s only the first week, and I can tell there is still a lot of swelling! I’m trying to be optimistic, but I’ll definitely be asking the doctor tomorrow. They do look great in my bra though, and I no longer feel like I should’ve gone bigger. They match my frame perfectly!
Today, unfortunately, was my absolute worst day emotionally. I don’t know if it was a response to bodily trauma or the medications I’m on, but my once-dormant depression came in full force and had me sobbing uncontrollably for hours (and for no good reason). I felt like a burden on everyone, and selfish because I was upset that no-one has even texted to see if I’m okay after such a major surgery. I should be able to handle this on my own, shouldn’t I? Luckily I eventually got it together, and now I’m just moving forward. I have supportive family and that should be all that matters.
Today was also the first day I drove (after stopping the pain meds in advance, hence all the pain) and it wasn’t too bad! I shuffled the steering wheel and turns weren’t too bad at all. Of course my car broke down though, haha. I’ve never had a problem with it and it’s relatively new so i figured, just my luck!
They look the same as in the other pictures, so I’ll update that tomorrow at the official seven-day mark. My right breast is super soft and looking amazing though!
Updated on 24 Oct 2018:
I went in for my one-week post op appointment today, and was informed that I have a hematoma (pocket of blood) in my left breast. I was offered the option of irrigating the pocket in-office under local sedation (as if) or going back under general anesthesia, and I opted for going back under. My surgeon is going to remove the implant, irrigate the pocket and make sure there isn’t anymore bleeding, replace the implant and close me back up. I should immediately feel better, with less tightness and bruising. My surgery is scheduled for this Friday at 7am, so I have less than 48 hours. I’m beyond bummed... wish me luck.
Updated on 27 Oct 2018:
So, I can’t believe I’m almost a day out from my second surgery- I’ve already been off of work for a week, so it feels pretty crappy to be recovering from scratch all over again. I will say though, I feel So Much Better. The swelling and pain in my left breast (that had a hematoma, which is blood in the pocket) is way down, and I only occasionally struggle with stinging incision ‘zaps’ from time to time and overall soreness. When I took the bandage off for the first time this morning I was beaming- I finally feel like I’m going to have the breasts I wanted!
However.. I took yet another blow just recently. I excitedly ran over to show my mother my newly fixed breasts, and her face immediately turned into a gaping scowl- like she was mortified. When I said ‘why are you looking at them like that?’ She responded, still scowling, with ‘the left is smaller! It’s definitely smaller.’ And with that, my confidence that lasted all of a few minutes was crushed. The longer I stare in the mirror the more I notice the difference- I went in knowing one boob is slightly smaller, but not by a lot. But according to my mother, I’m completely lopsided. They look perfectly normal in my bra, but.. I don’t know how to feel about them anymore. I think I just need to wait for them to settle in- after all, the left is only a day old and the right is over a week old. Please let me know what you think- are they really lopsided? :/
Updated on 28 Oct 2018:
I just thought I'd make a small update since today is the first day that I've gone completely without pain meds (about 24 hours now) and I'm in very little pain only two days out from my second surgery! I think this is how I was supposed to feel the first time around, which is sad but I'm glad I'm doing better now. I'm doing massages as frequently as possible, and I like to think that the girls are getting softer and settling more by the day. They still look so unnatural to me, but I know it just takes time and patience. Can't wait to post a 6-month update where they look good! I did cave and try on a stretchy wireless bralette from my AA days, and it looked pretty nice! I'd just like to have less torpedo-boob.. asap. Like everyone else, lol.
Still sleeping almost upright (slinking down a little further each night but it still hurts to sleep flat on my back), still getting little painful zaps at my incision sites, and my nipples basically scream bloody murder (hurt a lot) at the slightest touch- but it's all bearable. Got a good look at my newer, reopened incision and, I mean, it's hideous - but I honestly don't really care after having survived a ridiculously painful hematoma. I'm sure it'll fade into something reasonable over time. My other incision is still covered but feels like a thin, smooth line so I'm not concerned.
The biggest thing that I've learned from this journey is to always ask your surgeon if you don't know if something is 'normal' or not. I thought I knew everything about the process and thought that my one-sided bruising, tightness and pain was perfectly normal; and it wasn't. It couldn't have been prevented, but I didn't have to suffer as long as I did. So please speak up!
Updated on 1 Nov 2018:
I thought I might make an update since it’s officially been just over two weeks since my original BA! It’s been about six days since my hematoma surgery, so it’s definitely weird and annoying having one boob still freshly augmented (complete with trapped air and fluids that squish at the touch, incision site ‘zaps’, limited arm movement and all of that fun stuff all over again) while my right boob is doing great. I have pretty much full range of motion in my right arm- it’s a little uncomfortable to reach all the way, but overall I feel good! I went out for Halloween and had no issues except a little general soreness, and my friends had to carry anything heavy. I had my two week post op appointment yesterday where I was basically just told that I’m looking great, have a light rash around my left incision (most likely because I was urged by family to put Neosporin on it, which apparently is a no-no because it can cause a reaction), and I need to do more of the massage to push the girls together because I have a wide cleavage gap. I’ve been much more aware (and frustrated) that I can’t sleep on my side recently, and every time I try my arrows/nipple area starts burning after about a minute. In photos I can tell that one is smaller than the other, but in person it’s way less noticeable so I’m trying not to care. 25ccs might’ve over-corrected and made them uneven anyways, and it is what it is. That’s it for now!
Updated on 3 Nov 2018:
I keep trying to do short updates and they always end up as a novel lol, but I feel like I need to share for the people who really want to hear about everything that comes with this journey. You don’t just have surgery one day, feel tight for a few days, then fast-forward a few months and have perfect boobs- there’s so much more to it than that. So read on or skip to the pics! The last few days and up until right now, I have been intensely going back and forth wondering if this procedure was really worth it. I know it’s very common and I’ll likely have no regrets by month 6, but my mind’s been churning all the same- I could’ve put a hefty down payment on a Nice new car, stayed in an overwater bungalow in Bora Bora for half a month, traveled through all 50 states, the list goes on.. but I chose to get bigger boobs. And at the end of the day, they really are Just Boobs. A lot of people didn’t notice, an even larger amount wouldn’t approve if they did notice, and any man who considers bigger boobs a ‘must’ isn’t worth my time. BUT! At the same time, now that I’m starting to feel somewhat back to normal again, I’m pretty happy with my decision (at least when my areolas/nipples aren’t actively stinging for no apparent reason like they are right now...). While I didn’t need them in the first place, I enjoy them for the most part. I fill out clothes better, I look more feminine, and I feel a tad sexier in and out of clothes just like I wanted. So if money is a non-issue, I’d 100% say go for it. But since most people don’t consider several thousand dollars pocket change, I’d highly suggest considering Both statements: all of the things that you could do instead, AND the fact that at the end of the day, they’re just boobs- and it is a major surgery with real risks. I thought about the first one, but I just rolled my eyes at the second and glorified the aspect of having boobs so much leading up to my surgery. I really wish someone who specifically went through it would’ve sat me down and said all of this to me. I might’ve waited until I was out of college or at least paid off a few small things first. If nothing else, make sure you’re doing it for You Only! I would’ve been devastated if I didn’t already realize that it wouldn’t make much of a difference at all in the way other people see me. I still highly encourage it as long as you’re aware- there’s a reason most women say it’s worth it! Just my thoughts. I got several new Victoria’s secret wireless sports bras in 32C and one bralette in size Small and I love them all, though I think a 32D might be my true size for comfort and tee-shirt bras. We’ll see! :)
Updated on 18 Nov 2018:
I can’t believe the girls are a month old already, but here we are! I got professionally sized at Victoria’s Secret a few days ago, and... I’m a 32D! Eek! I danced around for the rest of the day, lol- which brings me to the fact that I can finally do that! I was cleared for everything at my 1-month post op appointment. Yesterday I actually hiked a mountain, and later felt like I had pulled a tiny muscle near one boob (the older right one surprisingly) afterwards but it was minor and went away by the next morning. I don’t think twice about lifting most things, and it still feels odd to really stretch my arms back but reaching normally is 100% back to normal. Sleep wise, last night was the first night I comfortably fell asleep on my side, and though I did frequently return to my back and woke up that way (because it got uncomfortable/slightly painful) I was thrilled with the progress. By week 6 I should be back to side-sleeping for good. My asymmetries no longer concern me much, as now they just seem like the same ones I had before.
As for scars, I haven’t really mentioned them because they look amazing and so unnoticeable! It was really hard to get a picture where you could see them, and my once- hideous left scar (that was reopened for a second surgery and is actually three weeks old today) is very surprisingly looking A Lot better. I was told that scar creams won’t do much (but that massaging the scar will), so I settled on buying a tube of Mederma just for kicks- if my scars looked this way forever, I’d be fine with them. They’re still bumpy feeling but look thin and flat.
Lastly, I have to say that in terms of self confidence, I am honestly a new woman. I cringed while reading my past reviews, because now I couldn’t care less about what other people think! It must have been the stress of it all. I’ve been seeing so many posts about telling others or other people finding out about their BA, and I have so been there. The first time I had to change in front of a coworker/friend I was so uncomfortable, and I didn’t even really know what to say.. I think my exact words were ‘so um, surprise! I didn’t get back surgery...’ lol, but at the same time I just kept thinking to myself, “you saved for ages, paid thousands of dollars and went through things most people couldn’t imagine to have these. Own them!” It takes time, but I got there. I’m not perfect by a long shot, but I’m back to feeling sexy now- inside and out. :)
Updated on 10 Mar 2019:
And just like that, the girls are almost 5 months old. I have very mixed feelings on my results, but overall I’m glad I got the procedure done. They’re not as soft as natural breasts by a long shot despite , and I have moderate rippling whenever I bend over without a bra on thanks to being convinced to have them placed under the muscle, which is definitely not the ‘more natural’ option. Dr. Larsen made one pocket much larger than the other, so every time I lie down, jump or do yoga one implant slides up to my collarbone. When I brought up my concerns with him they were brushed off with a smile. There were several other issues, but long story short, I would never go back to Buckhead Plastic Surgery or recommend them. On the other end, my boobs look great in a bra and have dropped nicely-though I would’ve preferred the moderate profile look (which I was told I couldn’t have.. also false). I started sleeping on my side for good at about 3 months, and my scars are fading as expected and are well-hidden. If I could go back and choose a different doctor I absolutely would, but I’m happy to finally have boobs!