My experience with Dr. Gillespie far exceeded my expectations. I sought her expertise to correct damage from a traumatic delivery that resulted in an emergency c-section which damaged my abdominal muscles and left an apron of misshapen skin. From my initial consultation to pre-op, surgery, and post-op visits she thoroughly answered all my questions, addressed my concerns, and set realistic expectations for my results and recovery. The results I experienced have left me in awe. I bounced back much faster than I anticipated and couldn't be happier. I wish I had done this years ago! I cannot recommend Dr. Gillespie highly enough.
I've wanted a breast reduction since I was in high school. After having kids and breastfeeding and then losing 70 lbs it was much needed. Surgery went great and everyone at the surgery center was awesome. I had surgery at 8:00 and was home taking a nap by 1:00. Very little pain other than the 1st hour afterwards I had intense burning around my incision area. The ice or pain meds didn't really touch the burning sensation. By the time I got home it had subsided though. 2 days after my surgery I unwrapped the ace bandages and surgical bra they had sent me home in and showered. Everything looked so good and better than I had pictured. Very little bruising. On day 5 the bruising started to show up, but I was expecting black and blue bruising and I only had yellow/green bruises so once again I was pleasantly surprised.
I can’t believe my breast are gone! I’m happy! I just pray I don’t keloid. I look smaller than expected especially with my big stomach but I don’t care! I rather be small than big! I can lose my stomach... any suggestions? I almost want a bbl and or tummy tuck... ????Anyway Great doc! Great nurses! I was so scared and they comfort me and assured me everything would be ok! I thank you all Jessica and her team/Anesthesiologist. I don’t like that patch for nausea. I felt dizzy with it and once removed I felt better. I don’t know could just been other meds. I will put up pics later from strips being removed.
My breast reduction could not have gone any better yesterday! Dr. Gillespie was super nice and knowledgeable about her work. I am so happy and satisfied with the results. She is definitely a perfectionist! I would refer her! I can’t stop smiling...I feel so much better.
I had my BA in 2012 and have regretted it ever since. My surgeon placed large implants in than originally discussed and different sizes that made my boobs uneven. I decided on Mentor High Profile Saline implants at 400 cc’s, but had 480 & 500 cc’s out in. I am 5’5 120 lbs and had a small B before the implants. After they were put in, I was a 32/34 DDD in most bras. I hated them! I always wore sports bras to hide them. Plus I got pregnant with them, so they sagged some too. I finally decided it was time to have them taken out and feel so much better! Here are pics of my DDDs! Updated on 4 Mar 2018: Had my original implants deflated in the office! Very quick procedure and not painful really at all! Unfortunately, my left side deflated completely and my right side is about 270! So I had to stuff my left side with a sock for a couple of weeks! Definitely would recommend this is if you have saline implants and are wanting to decrease the size! Updated on 14 Mar 2018: I am already so so happy with my new implants!! They are such a great fit for my body and the look I was going for! The pain was shockingly very minimal and I’m able to do most of my normal activities already! They feel so much better than the other ones... the gel is definitely worth the extra money over the saline!
Everything was great!!! The surgery went smooth and the staff are very professional. I'm so happy with the results. I would recommend dr Gillespie for anyone wanting this procedure. So happy with everything.
Exceptional, Her team was very informative with information that helped me stay on track for my surgical procedure. She was very helpful and attentive to my questions which alleviated any anxiety about my procedure. The day my stitches were removed you could barely notice the incision. This showed a true attention to detail and skill on her part. I am thankful for the skill associated with her approach as my surgical procedure was on my forehead/face. The minimal scarring I should experience considering the location is thanks to her exceptional work.
I have read a few stories so far and I am so happy I did! I saw my surgeon for my pre op appointment today. I found out that my breasts are too large for just a lollipop but she will do an anchor with a lollipop nipple procedure. ( I'm sure I'm getting phrasing confused but she drew what she was going to do and it made perfect sense. ) I'm still apprehensive as to what my breasts will look like after the surgery and in a year after they are totally healed. I hope that I still feel like myself and that my husband will approve. ( He does now and will afterwards) I'm just paranoid. Looking forward to a newer version of myself and one that can do Zumba and not be in pain anymore. Play golf, fold my arms under my breast, jog without pain, fit into clothes that fit my frame instead of my breasts. I could go on and on. Until next time... Take care ladies! Blessings and prayers your way throughout your journey. Updated on 18 Jan 2016: Well I'm trying to get house in order before my surgery. I'm the only female in my household so I'm going to be pretty much on my own during recovery if you know what I mean...???? I had one breakdown on Sunday trying to wrap my head around what I will look like after my reduction. Happy then sad, excited then scared. Mixed bag of emotions at this point. I will post again tomorrow. Praying for a healthy recovery. Updated on 24 Jan 2016: Just tired and sore. My incisions are still oozing just a tiny bit. I think I'm a lot smaller than I thought I would be. I'm not complaining just surprised. I wish I would have shown my surgeon a picture or two. It's ok though. I haven't healed yet or anything so I'm not sure what they are going to Look like. I do have fat under my arms that I wished were lipo-Ed out. I will post a picture tonight. Updated on 25 Jan 2016: Felling a lot better. Just taking Advil now and still using ice packs. I can say that ice packs are the way to go. They have kept the swelling to a minimum and hence slowing down the pain. I have added a picture. I think my right breast is smaller than my left. But who know at this moment. I will have to give it time. Getting ready for my post op appt. Updated on 25 Jan 2016: My appt went really well. I found out that my doctor took out 1400cc's out of my breasts. She said that I will most likely be a Large C or small D. She said that the ice has been my friend and to keep using it for a couple more days ( it doesn't help much a week after surgery). I have fluid in my breasts that I can hear sloshing around. Weird. My doc said not to worry that she prefers to let my body reabsorb it. If it becomes hard or painful then she can remove it with a syringe. Most likely that will not be necessary. I asked why she doesn't prefer drains and her reply was that they can become Infected which can cause more scaring and a slower recovery. She said a good diet and lots of fluids will help it to reabsorb more quickly. I also had gained 10 pounds which I thought I would at least be 3 pounds lighter. Haha. She said its normal and that the weight will come off when the fluids reabsorb. thanks for all the nice comments. I'm so happy I was able to finally feel like a normal person. Updated on 27 Jan 2016: Well I worked from home today and it kicked my booty. I pushed myself and shouldn't have. My surgical bra is driving me crazy and every other bra I bought for after surgery is either too tight or rubs my incisions. Im taking Benadryl to ease the itching of my nipples. My doc was right, it does feel like my "milk" is coming in. Tightness and fullness. Sorry for the rant. I'm still so happy I did this. I'll post pics tomorrow. Updated on 28 Jan 2016: Day 6 and feeling better. Still tired but getting a handle on it. I just want to start working out and getting my body healthy. My old breasts held me back but no more! Im so excited to be able to exercise and breathe at the same time. I'm going out tomorrow and look for new bras tomorrow night. Symptoms for day 6 Itching nipples. OMG Tightness along the top of my breast No Advil. yea! Some of my steri strips are getting loose My bruises are turning yellow. It's really a pretty color. Lol Still retaining fluid in my breasts Sloshing. Weird. Updated on 29 Jan 2016: I'm one week post surgery and this has been my best day thus far. My husband took me to find different bras. I found two that were comfortable for me right now. They were both 36 Ds. One is an Anita sports bra Anita's the other is a Champion. I'm kind of surprised, I thought I looked more like a C. I have come to grips with the fact that this is a dial and not a switch and that I will be buying new bras every month or so. Happy healing! Updated on 3 Feb 2016: I've been super busy and exhausted. All I want to do when I stop working is sleep. Overall I feel much better. I only have an irritating feeling under my breast where the tape and glue are on my stitches. My steri tape around my nipples is starting to come loose which leads me to believe that they are healing very well. Does anyone else feel like you arms still won't lay flat at your sides? I'm wondering if I'm wearing the wrong kind of bra? Help please. Updated on 18 Feb 2016: Nerve rejuvenation is the worst part of recovery! But it's worth every sharp pain. So happy with my new me;being able to feel normal and look normal. This is my last picture with my steri tapes on. I still have a lot of swelling and my PC said it would take a good six months to a year before I see my final results. Updated on 23 Feb 2016: Has anyone had the itchy nipples? OMGosh I've had it all day around my nipples mostly. I feel like I have ten mosquito bites on each nipple. I'm going to try hydrocortisone if the Benadryl doesn't kick in soon. Loving my new me and the itchies won't bring me down! I've been walking a lot and just started back sleeping in bed. My PS suggested I try to sleep in the recliner as long as possible so my breast will have a good shape. Hope everyone is healing nicely. Take care.
At only 25 I was told I had to lose weight (a lot of weight) or I was going to die young... So I did what any person who is scared would do... I changed my whole life. and much to my surprise this time it worked and I lost over 150 pounds in 1 1/2!!! I have been able to get it off but have never been able to get my skin/tummy flat. I will now have a tummy tuck to finally reach my dreams!! 12/2/14 can't be here quick enough!! Updated on 5 Nov 2014: I'm pretty excited.. Nervous... Emotional about my surgery being less than a month away!!! I have tons of pre-op stuff next week and I think that will make it even more real. Still sitting at my normal weight and have some stuff ready for the stay with my grandmother and aunts after surgery! Anyone who has real advice please feel free to comment! I know it's going to hurt so I have my self thinking the worst so I'm ready for it. Thanks for following my journey! Updated on 3 Dec 2014: We I've now been home for about 12 hours but yesterday I was sleeping and in pain so I couldn't update you. First when I woke up in recovery I was in so much pain I was crying. That was pretty scary for me as it make it hard for me to breath. I was in recovery where U can't see your family for over 3 hours and normally it's 30 mins. My wonderful nurse figured out it has a lot to do with them laying me completely flat.. Once they put a pillow under knees it stopped the worst pain and then it got to the point where I could stand it. I had my tummy tuck for medical reasons so mine was at the hospital I work at and they took top notch care of me. They were thiniking about keeping me a night in the hospital but I fought that because I really didn't want to stay. I thought I would do a lot better if I went home and could be in my recliner. The only other time I was on terrible pain for walking from the house and sitting down. I've been able to eat a drop of my grandmas wonderful chili and other than that I'm not hungry at all. So for the question most ppl have been asking... Pain levels. If I stay on my pills every 4 hours it's like a dull ache. Staying up and sitting down is very painful but it's short lived. Over all at first it's very painful.. More than I thought but then it settled down. Coughing hurts too but that's normal. The only other thing I can they you is HOLD YOUR DRAINS TIGHT OR HAVE SOME HOLD THEM FOR YOU!!! I dropped one and it pulled out a bit. It is still bleeding and mad oh man it hurts!!! Updated on 4 Dec 2014: This has been my worse day.. I throw up for an hour this morning which really hurt. And after starting my period I had to have a bath.. Taking off the compression made me feel much more pressure then I've felt.. At a few mins I started to feel as if I was going to black out again so I had to be rushed to a chair and dressed. Making me feel so helpless and then emotional.. Thinking maybe I made the wrong decision but I'm sure I will be happy soon! Updated on 5 Dec 2014: It's deff getting better everyday. Today I've had much less pain and been able to move around pretty easily. I went to the store with my family for 29 mins and then slept the rest of the afternoon so it still takes it all out of me! Finally had a bowel movement and that has made things better too! So far so good! Updated on 7 Dec 2014: I'm starting to feel pretty good. It's very annoying to not be able to do what I want. My family has taken such great care of me but I'm ready to be on my own again! I took my second shower today and it went 100 times better! It made me feel tired but I did fine. My only issue now is being soooooo swollon every night it's just an odd feeling. Tight and sore. I hope everyone is getting info from my updates I'm trying to help others. I want others to know while it's scary and painful it really isn't that bad! Pics included! Updated on 11 Dec 2014: I missed a few days but nothing had changed so I didn't really have anything to say. Today I finally got my drains out! Yay! That really really hurts but I'm so thankful they are gone! They took the stitches out too but I'm still numb there so it didn't feel like anything. I'm putting up pics. I am very swollen in them since I've been up all day and out for my appt. I can't wait for the swelling to go down so I will feel better about my results. Updated on 31 Dec 2014: It's so hard to believe it's been a whole month. What a roller coaster ride it's been. I've had all the normal emotional moments and joyful moments that most people report on here. I went back to work after 10 days so I've haven't been able to post much because that's been killing me. I work and sleep. I hurt after about 5 hours but I can totally make it 8. My incision looks AMAZING!!! I couldn't have imagined it looking like a tiny little line. I did get a spot of infection that hurts like crap but it's healing! So far I'm happy! Updated on 6 Feb 2015: I had the plan to update this more because I wanted to help ppl but life goes back to normal pretty quick and I've been overly busy! I am 8 weeks out now and felling almost normal. I still have pain after a long day or after doing too much. Also still hurts super bad to cough or sneeze. As for swelling I look good in the morning and not so great at night. Still not loving the way my sides look but I'm praying the continue to get better. Other than that things are good. Updated on 24 Feb 2015: I am.. Almost 3 months post tummy tuck and man I am still in swell hell 4 times a week! I'm kinda over this at this point! It makes it hard for me to stay motivated fitness wise because I look huge to myself. :/ still have the sad days. Updated on 28 Aug 2015: Everything is going well. I still hate the way my side incisions look but I don't regret my surgery one bit. I will taking my first vacation since next week and I can't wait to wear my ???? still have swelling sometimes but I'm told it will happen.
I am posting this after it occurred. I started writing on POD 5 and added some previous information as well. I have had back pain and nerve compression (resulting in numbness to the thumb and first 2 fingers) on and off for years and I finally had the time to take care of this. I was measured at 38H but I can wear a 40DD (equivalent to a 38DDD) without too much spillage, so I think I am more of a 38 DDD to 38DDDD. I would like to be reduced to a 38C to D, anything smaller will probably look bad on my frame. My BMI currently is 27, I just lost about 20 pounds (over 8 months) and hope to shed a few more pounds. My main exercise is riding a FitDesk, I can get in 10K steps a day with it while watching Netflix or doing computer work. Wednesday November 4 Day of surgery, up early and my weight is up 1.6 lbs. above what I am normally. What can I say, I had a pre-op Chinese buffet trip yesterday! I am sure some of it is sodium retention. At home, I couldn’t find my post-op medications (naproxen and tramadol). I finally just grabbed a bottle of Tylenol (8 hour) and took that with me. I let the nurse know that I had forgotten the meds and she said they would give me something before discharge to carry me over until I found them. The doctor came in to mark me up with a Sharpie, and asked if I wanted to go bigger or smaller. I said, “Definitely a C, maybe a D, so bigger, I just don’t think I would look right with too much off.” Then off to surgery. I had a great anesthesiologist, she may have been just a little liberal with the Dilaudid though! I don’t remember waking up until maybe 2 pm, and I was still dizzy at 5 pm when they kicked me out of the Same Day Surgery suite. I got a little nauseous with movement (the pink bucket is my good luck charm). They did not give me any narcotic pain medication before discharge since I was dizzy. As planned, we went to Holiday Inn for my first night. I did nothing, just held onto the cart (still dizzy), and stayed in bed for a bit, then walked down to watch the others in the pool. I have only taken OTC Aleve (440 mg) and 8-hr acetaminophen, no narcotics were taken or needed. We had Jimmy John’s for supper, no nausea for me although I am keeping the pink bucket close for good luck! Just a hit of nausea occasionally but no real pain, no vomiting. In bed around 10 pm, and it was a restless night. I don’t sleep well in a reclined position, even with 4 pillows! I woke up on my own around 2:30 am to take more Tylenol, and then about 6 am for more Aleve. I am sore, but no real pain, And tired still. Thursday November 5, POD 1 Post op visit today, got up finally about 8 am (awake since about 6 am) and took my turn in the shower. I got a first look at the incisions, and even let my friend take a look at them. Everything is bloppy, not smooth and I can see my fluffly abdomen – not a good site. It seems like I am much less than a C size. No pain, just stiff, achy, and sore, I am taking my OTC medications when due even if I feel well. At the post-op visit, I asked about how much had been removed. Pre-op visit, I remember her saying something about 600 grams. She took off 725g on one side and 750g on the other – over 3 pounds total. (My weight with clothing this am was about 3 pounds up from pre-op). And she said that I am less than a C. Not sure why she took off so much when she didn’t need to? Something I didn’t think to ask then but will at the next visit. I feel great – really just sore. I have been told that I have a high pain tolerence, so YMMV. She said that I can drive, so I drove to meet my friend for lunch, and then drove home. It is good to be back home! I got in 10K steps today, trying to stay active but not raising my heart rate much. I am walking and riding my exercise bike (which she OK’d). My weight is up 1.8 pounds (not really accurate since I weighed with clothing at the doctor’s office after eating breakfast) Friday November 6, POD 2 I took a picture today, and I hope to take one daily for a while to show the changes. I am still wearing the sports compression bra (I have 4 that I alternate) and with them on, I am almost totally flat. There is breast tissue under there, but it is compressed flat. It helps me to look at the images and know that I am not really flat! I know that I am still swollen, and I don’t know how much more I will reduce, but I think that I may be between a B and a C cup. Hopefully I don’t go below a B, I can’t even find bras that are a 38A. Weight is down to about pre-op, 0.2 lbs above my pre-op (post buffet) weight. Saturday, November 7, POD 3 I went to the free clinic today (I volunteer), did no lifting but I did see two patients. I was there to shadow more than anything but I did do a pap (no lifting) and a annual exam. No twisting, no lifting, and I felt fine. Just taking the Aleve now. Sunday, November 8, POD 4 Feeling good, my weight is down to 2.8 below my pre-op weight. I figure this is about what she took off, so anything from here is my loss! Only walking and riding my exercise bike, but trying to stay active. The compression sports bra really flattens me out, so I wore two bras today. Not a bad look. I justify it by saying that the second bra actually fits (it does) but I need more compression right now. So the look is the same as what I hope to be later, about 38 B-C. I am trying to embrace the “less is more” athletic breast size. My stomach doesn’t stick out as much, or maybe I have better posture? Either way, not too bad. I still can’t sleep reclined, and actually laid down for a few hours last night. Very achy still today, still taking the Aleve. And I slosh. No kidding! I was reclined, and when I scratched my upper breast, I sound like a drum. When I rub there is a definite sloshing. I guess I have more water weight to loose. Monday Nov 11, POD 5 Today started out well, I was down 5 lbs. on the scale (pre-op weight), to a weight 1.5 pounds below any pre-surgery weight! I was expecting this because I was diuresing a lot yesterday. I am still having trouble sleeping well because I do not sleep well sitting up. I drove to the office, just to check on something and to do a little shopping. Nothing vigorous, mostly just walking about. And no lifting of anything heavier than 5 pounds (my handbag). I bought another sports bra. After I got back home, I took a nap. No pain, I just feel so achy, I am not sure if it is because of the problem with sleeping (my back hurts) or if I am just achy from healing. I am tired still, even after my nap I am sure that I will not have any trouble getting to bed tonight. Maybe I should just chuck it up to healing. And I have just a tinge of nausea hanging down in the depths of my stomach. I plan to make my own scar cream soon, using Vitamin E oil, lavender oil, and a coconut oil/beeswax base. Tuesday November 10 POD 6 I don’t remember taking Aleve last night, this morning I am only achy, mostly my upper back (probably from trying to sleep upright). I will take it this am, for the anti-inflammatory effect mostly, I am in almost no pain, my shoulders ache like they did pre-surgery at the end of the day from carrying the weight of the breast tissue. I have no incisional pain. I do have decreased sensation, left is more sensitive than the right side. And I am very itchy! This is definitely tolerable and I think it will improve when I am able to sleep flat. Weight is down about another .4 lbs. I am only walking and riding my exercise bike (which she said was OK, I really am trying not to over-do it even though I feel well). I am trying to eat more protein to assist with healing. I did pick up some yerbal mate to try instead of coffee in the morning. It is supposed to also help with mental clarity, and weight loss. We’ll see. Updated on 12 Nov 2015: Wednesday, November 11, POD 7 One week! Yeah, I can start sleeping flat! Weight is down, 6.2 lbs. below pre-op weight (which is about 2 lbs. above what I normally weigh, so actual loss of 4.2 lbs.) Since she only took off about 3 lbs., I consider this to reflect a weight loss!! I have been experimenting with bras, and I think that I am currently between a B and C. C fits a little better since I have that side boop, and the C cup covers that a bit better. My breasts are small but wide, it seems to me. And a little perky from the side – something that I have never said about them before! I am usually a 38 but bought a few 36 sport bras for the compression. But a 38C does mostly fit now. I know that I am not done changing so I expect this to change in the future. But it is nice to know that I am at least a 38B (you can’t buy 38A in a store, I guess I would have had to buy on-line. Even 38B is harder to find). Feeling well, still taking Aleve for the anti-inflammatory effect and the aches. Not so achy this morning but I will confess that I cheated a little and slept flat for at least 2 hours last night. Today is the first day that I have had almost no serous drainage on my bra from the nipple area. The steri strips on the nipples are still intact even though I bathe every day or every other day. There is also a clear dressing on the incisions under the breasts, these are every itchy. I have an interview for a new job tomorrow! I tried out an outfit that was always a bit too tight in the chest and it fit very well! That will be one nice thing, having blouses and tops fit right. Thursday November 12, POD 8 I almost forgot to take my Aleve today, I am feeling that good! I do get very tired after about 6 hours of anything, so I nap. I slept a little better last night, but I must have been a little too comfortable because I woke up with a crook in my neck. Weight is up slightly but I always fluctuate. I’ll see how I average out tomorrow. I found a great price on some sport bras at Walmart, so I got one in each color at $2.50 each, so I have plenty in large to use now. At that price, it was worth getting 3-4. My breast size may still change but I will get my moneys’ worth out of these in the meantime. The only thing is that they are slip over, but since I am now allowed to raise my arms above my neck, it shouldn’t be a problem. I got the job! It was not the part time one (2 days a week) that I was wanting but at least I got a prn (as needed) job! And I made it clear that I would take a part-time job as soon as one opened, and she said that she would consider it. Updated on 13 Nov 2015: I took photos this am but here is no discernible change, so I will be posting periodically instead of daily. Weight is down 4 lbs. total, 2.4 below my baseline. I am also eating more fiber in the last few days, which retains water so some maybe related to that. So far I am happy with my loss. Less tired today, I put this down to a better sleep. I was able to side-sleep last night and finally got some quality sleep! Still taking Aleve, and I will do so until this Saturday. I will stop at that point since it is doubtful that it will be needed. The steri strips are starting to peel off on the nipple area. They don't bother me so I will just leave them. The drainage is also less. I like the new sport bra that I purchased, it fits well without under-wires and I think it is helping to shape my breast tissue better. It is also more comfortable, so better all around. I got two requests today for interviews for positions, both for the same day, Nov. 23, which is when my post-op visit is scheduled. Updated on 14 Nov 2015: Back is feeling so much better now that I can sleep flat. I have no pain, just achiness, soreness, and a little tightness with movement. I held a little baby last night and did feel some discomfort when burbing him. But no other pain, maybe I have a high pain tolerance? I forgot to take Aleve last night, and took my last scheduled dose this am. NSAIDs do cause water retention, so maybe I'll start loosing some fluid now. My breasts still slosh when I lie down so I know there is some serous fluid yet to be absorbed. Updated on 19 Nov 2015: The steri strips around the nipple wore themselves off while bathing, I still have a few but the nipples look good. I have some shooting pain in both breasts, I think this is nerve innervation, and it is just a quick sharp pain. Otherwise, only stretching pain. Right breast still sloshes. Weight - down 6.2 lbs. from pre-surgery weight. Updated on 13 Apr 2016: The positive: I seem to have less shoulder and neck pain. I notice that I don't have to soak my shoulders in the tub every day like I used to to get rid of the achiness that was constant. I still have numbness but I have not had a constant episode since surgery (but I only had the constant episodes that last 2-3 weeks every year or so so it is too early to truly evaluate). The negative: - dog ears (which she did not even address options to fix at the last visit) - the SIZE, really I do not have a BMI of 18, I do not look good with an A cup size on my 26 BMI body. As a plastic surgeon, this is one thing I expected of her - an appreciation and pursuit of aesthetic proportion. - the lumps and bumps, which I am told are fat necrosis. I have an extremely abnormal and deformed breast contour (look at the photos, these are the ones from her office). From my research, this amount of fat necrosis is often technique related, and to say that I have multiple pockets of necrosis speaks to her (lack of) expertise. My breasts are now almost entirely made of fat necrosis. Her response, "Massage will be your friend". I did NOT expect to come out looking like an 18-year old beauty queen, I expected to come out looking like the pictures that they showed me at my office visit. I expected to have smaller (C to D cup), proportionate breasts - just like the photos she showed me. I honestly feel that I was falsely informed, I don't think she did any of the surgeries on the women of the photos that I was shown. I WOULD NOT RECOMMEND THIS SURGEON, Dr. JESSICA GILLESPIE. I am still ambivalent about the surgery itself. If I did not feel so deformed I would probably feel better about the surgery. But as it is, I now need reconstructive surgery, which is over $8,000. I cannot afford that so I am stuck with living with her mistakes.