I have wanted a TT for 9 years (since my first child was born) my youngest is 2, that's 3 c-sections, over a 7 year span, and had my tubes tied with the last one. I work really hard to maintain my wt, and feel proud of myself for doing so, but I have this very unhealthy obsession with my bulging tummy. every morning I wake up and rub by belly hoping by some miracle it will just dissappear over night, but nope, always there. My husband tells me everyday how crazy beautiful I am and I know I am so blessed with my family and my health. But I haven't been clothes shopping in over 4 years, and my family lives on the river and have a beach house. Needless to say I don't look forward to the family get togethers, I am scheduled for my TT in 6 days ! I feel like my dream is coming true! Only I can't get over this fear of something happening to me and leaving my family without a mother over this vain, selfish, and expensive want. my PS said I'm a textbook candidate and my risks are minimal, I'm in great health, but I can't get over this fear, any comments, thoughts, input would be helpful please!
Updated on 23 Apr 2015:
I think I have changed my mind 500 times today, I have read every risk article I can find about TTs and death rates and DVTs and all, I'm a nurse, looking at my history I know my risks are low, maybe because it's not needed only wanted and I fear the worst I don't know if this is normal or not, I want this so bad, but so scared, and it's not helping that my bf, and mother are both telling me they wouldn't risk it, gerrrr!
Updated on 27 Apr 2015:
So tomorrow's the day, in so nervous, I keep telling myself I'll be ok, it's so hard though, I am trying to find the excitement I had in the beginning, I'm not a very frightful person and I have no clue why this is getting to me, prayers please!
Updated on 28 Apr 2015:
Ok I'm home now, the doctor said it was perfect, and I will love the results, I have 2 drains, cath, and girdle. I am having some numbness with my left thigh, don't know if this is normal, my docor on call hasn't called me back yet, and it's slightly hard to breath in the reclined position, and the pain is about at a 7, not fun, but remaining in good spirits. I'd actually more comfortable to stay standing and moving around, but about to rest for a while
Updated on 29 Apr 2015:
I'm hurting pretty good, but I think my doc did great! I had to cough earlier and thought I was killing myself! My hubby is being wonderful and not looking forward to him going back to work tomorrow... hoping I heal quickly
Updated on 30 Apr 2015:
So got to shower today, not so much a yay! Never had this problem after the c sections, but after I got out, I got extremely sick, felt that I was going to puke, cold sweat, and shaking, my BP dropped. I laid down and my husband got me some cold water and I felt better but wow, that sucked. I tried calling my doctors office today to ask if i am supposed to take the strips off the incision yet, but no word back yet. Very disappointed with the communication right now. Don't want a risk for infection, and don't want to take them off to soon. Anyone else know ? Will keep yall updated
Updated on 1 May 2015:
Well I feel a little better today, still can't walk upright at all, but the pain isn't bad. The drain tubes have been the most painful, I don't mind were he put them but it does make it hard for underwear or even the girdle. has anyone else had their's placed there. And I am so ITCHY all over my abdomen and sides gerrr
Updated on 4 May 2015:
Got my checkup today, got one drain removed and leaving the other in till Friday just to be safe. Still a bit swollen. Feeling a little better about my scar line today, I was freaking about it a little bit bc my undies weren't covering, but it's better today, and I felt my belly button was too low, but I think a lot of it is swelling and posture and a lot of it is in my head, either way I'm going to rock the 2 piece this summer scar or not :) ready to be able to stand straight!!!! And I am also off the pain meds :)
Updated on 7 May 2015:
Tomorrow I get my last drain out! so ready, and ready for all this to be over, I shouldn't complain, I haven't had a large amount of pain and no complications so far but im so bored! ! I want my life back! And still can't stand straight! I want to drink a beer with my hubby, and take goody power for my headache, and sleep on my stomach and take this damn girdle off!!!! ... rant over, sorry just had to get that out.
Updated on 8 May 2015:
K guys, I am now drainless and the doc took the tape off, still very swollen and can't stand fully straight, please guys take my advice, even though you are feeling and looking better, until the swell is gone and posture is back DO NOT GO SWIMSUIT SHOPPING! !! you're not there yet! I had to talk myself down after 2 swimsuits from a breakdown, I know I'll get there :) .....I hope
Updated on 19 May 2015:
I can't believe it's been 3 weeks but at the same time feels like longer, as you can see in my new pics not a lot of change, I can walk better, but the swelling is still there. Hope my scar heals well bc there is no hiding it. My doctor yesterday said to be patient that the swelling will go down in about 3 more weeks, and I will be able to get an idea of the final results nervous about going back to work Monday, but at the same time sitting at home is making me go crazy!
Updated on 22 May 2015:
So happy with my swimsuit, the bottom is slightly v cut so it covers the scar without cutting me off, I'm so short waisted every cm counts, its Seafolly Australia, love it!!!!! both pieces are from amazon!!!!! In so happy, it would have busted my mood big time if they didn't look good, I needed this!
Updated on 30 May 2015:
I got it from one of the discount china stores online, took a month to come in and it's a size large but it was only 20 !!!! Love it!