Tummy Tuck With Lipo

I'm five foot 2, 34 years old,and I weigh 189 to 195 pounds. I had a c-section in 2004 after a ten month pregnancy and a huge weight gain. I've lost almost 74 pounds since my daughter was born. I am not having any more kids as I have 4 step kids already besides my daughter. I work full time and I have tried everything I can think of to lose another 20 to 30 pounds and it will not budge....clean eating, paleo, juicing, kettlebell, total gym, running, and cardio. My body just won't respond! I have this huge gut that hinders everything. It moves up and down when I jump, it's uncomfortable when I run, and I am just over it. I took the plunge and decided that enough was enough and called around to see who could help me out. I ended up finding Dr. Peterson in St George Utah and me and my hubby are driving the 811 miles on the 20th of April for me to have the surgery on the 22nd of April.

My thoughts are this when I hear oh your too overweight to do this.....

Butt out....if you don't have anything nice to say then don't say it all.

What I know is this....I was content between a size 10/12 and weighing 170 pounds prior to my daughter being born. Even then my tummy wasn't flat, it never has been. I'm currently wearing a 14/16 and that's because I have to wear that size to accomdate said skin apron. I know that if all of this fat, and skin were gone, I would feel alive and whole again and honestly that's all I am shooting for.

I don't have a thigh gap, or an overly exposed clavical, my face is fatter than I would like it to be, and my arms are not as skinny as they probably could be but all of those things I can contine to work on with vigor once this surgery is completed.

Honestly, right now I am miserable and I need this and I have never been one to put myself first. I do know that I will be a better mom, wife, friend, and co-worker once I feel more comfortable in my own body.

I realize there will be medical professionals in here that are going to say your wrong, and your not going to heal well because of your weight. Well if that was the case then why at 250 some pounds with a c-section did I feel like I could run a marathon the day after I had my daughter? I never had any complications, and was cleaning my house, and tending to my daughter with little help 12 hours after my surgery. My incision healed beautifully and I was tending to a beautiful new soul while waiting for my body to heal.

Now.....

I don't smoke, I drink as much water as I possible can in any given day (100 ounces most days), I don't have high blood pressure, no thyroid issues, and I don't take any medicine at all. We eat clean at my house....no soda, lean protein, lots of vegetables,and we juice eveyday. I know in my heart of hearts that I have done what I can to try and reclaim my happiness. This surgery is the culmination of all of this.

With that said I hope that if there are other women out there getting beat down for wantng to have this done because they are not at their ideal weight that you of course look at your whole senario and see what you can do to help your situation be the best it can be but that you take into consideration what you know is right in your heart and make the best decison for you with realistic expectations.

I am without doubt nervous that I will die.....I am not overly concerned about the pain or discomfort....but I am concerned about my ability to keep my booty in bed resting after the surgery.

I will do my best to try and update as much as I can.