It's over!! What a great feeling!

I am a mother of an amazing, beautiful 20 month old daughter. Since my childbirth my abdomen has never bounced back the way I thought it would. I am about 5ft 2" 120 lbs but I have an umbilical hernia that makes my innie if the past look like a button sticking out "weird" My muscle separation seems pretty significant and gives my belly that 5 month pregnant look. I am pretty petite and my daughter was 9lbs which I think was just too big for my body to recover. I never thought I would be brave enough to have an "elective"surgery done, but when day after day you are just so unhappy with how you look, it's pretty upsetting. I think I could have even dealt with never having to wear a bikini again, but when you feel uncomfortable in your everyday clothes it start to wear on you.. "Pardon the pun" :) anyway Im scheduled for feb 1! I am more nervous than I have ever been. I have feelings or worry about complications to pain management to my daughter not understanding why I won't he able to lift her and hold her. A million worries go through my head. I guess this is normal and par for the course.