It's over!! What a great feeling!

I am a mother of an amazing, beautiful 20 month old daughter. Since my childbirth my abdomen has never bounced back the way I thought it would. I am about 5ft 2" 120 lbs but I have an umbilical hernia that makes my innie if the past look like a button sticking out "weird" My muscle separation seems pretty significant and gives my belly that 5 month pregnant look. I am pretty petite and my daughter was 9lbs which I think was just too big for my body to recover. I never thought I would be brave enough to have an "elective"surgery done, but when day after day you are just so unhappy with how you look, it's pretty upsetting. I think I could have even dealt with never having to wear a bikini again, but when you feel uncomfortable in your everyday clothes it start to wear on you.. "Pardon the pun" :) anyway Im scheduled for feb 1! I am more nervous than I have ever been. I have feelings or worry about complications to pain management to my daughter not understanding why I won't he able to lift her and hold her. A million worries go through my head. I guess this is normal and par for the course.

I can't believe that I have 3 days to go before my surgery. I keep getting butterflies when I think about the surgery. I keep getting emotional about my daughter... She is 20 months old and I just love her more than anything in the world. I have never even slept away from her since she was born. I have to stay over night and even that is getting to me. I keep trying to get excited but the nerves just get the best of me. Im generally a worrier so this is no different. I'm glad to be on this site because there is so much information and its comforting to share experiences. I think the most surprising thing I have learned on this site us how very long peoples swelling seems to last. That I am not looking forward to. I know the recovery is going to be rough, I just pray for the strength to endure it and get through with no regrets. Thats what I wish for all of you ladies.

Also, I plan to post pics after surgery so I can have s before and after comparison :)