I only discovered Realself around 2 days before my...
I only discovered Realself around 2 days before my 2nd BA & I have therefore put off doing a review. I will start it now & hope that I don't miss things out or forget things. Please feel free to message me if you have any questions or if you would like to comment on my post you're more than welcome :) I have posted a pre-op photo of myself (the only one 'I' have - I'm sure my 1st PS has more of his own)
I had my first surgery done 6th January 1999 when my first born Son was 5 months old. Before my op I was 5f 8" & I weighed 7st 3oz (101 lbs?) I was very slim & I was around a 28aa in bra size. I didn't even make an A cup.
During my 1st pregnancy I went up to an A cup & I was able to wear my first adult looking bra :) Even though only an A cup, I was delighted. I remember my first proper bra well, it had a dogtooth print in a satin fabric, I totally loved it.
3 days after the birth of my first born, I went to bed an A cup & BOOM, the next morning I was engorged with milk (ouch) & I was a C cup, yay!! I remember walking down the corridors within the hospital in my dressing gown admiring my boob profile proudly in the reflection of the glass windows.
Sadly, after I stopped breastfeeding my Son, I went back to my original AA cup but I had also lost some elasticity, I wasn't too worried about that though, I was just disappointed to be flat chested again.
A few months down the line I noticed that my friend's Sister looked gorgeous in some professional shots she'd had done & she whispered in my ear that she'd had a BA!! Waaaahhhh, this made me 'NEED' to have an op, it was 'OK' to be flat chested if I knew someone else was in the same boat as me but now I felt I was left out on the shelf :(
I had my consultation with the same clinic she went through with the same surgeon. I waited until after the Christmas period because I assumed I'd be in absolute agony with these HUGE noticeable boobies!
On the day of my surgery I was in the clinic with another girl who not only had the same first initial as me, but she had the same surname lol but thankfully the staff were extra careful with our meds.
At the time of my first BA I was a smoker & while in the hospital recovering from my op I wanted a cigarette & I stupidly decided to lift up a sash window, yes after my op! D'oh! I started to bleed but not heavily & my surgeon ended up having to redress my left incision. I felt great after my op, I was walking around within 2 hours whereas the girl next door was laid up in bed in agony bless her. I wasn't as big as I'd hoped after my 1st BA but I waited 15 years until I had my 2nd surgery (to be continued.....)
The next part to my journey......
Hi Ladies :)
Here I am posting photo's of my 1st BA but unfortunately they're 15 years after my surgery. I only took these so I could compare against my 2nd surgery which I had on November 22nd with MR Fazel from Refresh.
I probably wont post any full frontal shots because I have some asymmetry which in my opinion is exaggerated immensely in photographs :(
One of my implants was also somehow 1cm lower on my right side. I should probably of gone back to my surgeon & asked for a revision but I didn't because I didn't know I could. I used to adjust my shoulder strap tighter on my right side so that they looked level in a bra.
Why did I go for my 2nd BA?
Ok, so I had been having some pain in my left breast for about a year which mainly used to happen around the time of my monthly cycle so I put the pain down to that. I used to get an ache in my breast which was more of a problem at night, I guess from leaning on that side or my breast leaning towards the other if I laid on my opposite side.
I pretty much missed all the hype about the PIP implants as I find the news upsetting & usually avoid watching it. My Brother did ask if PIP implants effected me but I said 'no' thinking that my previous surgeon would have contacted me if I was at risk or fitted with them.
It wasn't until several months down the line that I became paranoid due to my breast aching more & more during the month. At first it would ache for a few days each month but then it ached for 3 weeks out of every month. I decided to Google my symptoms & that's when I fully read the story on PIP implants. Of course I was very worried & the next day I phoned my first surgeons office & I was told later that day that I did have PIP implants :( I possibly had industrial grade silicone inside my body instead of medical grade! Could this be why I was experiencing a continuous ache?
I then contacted my GP. He sent me to a breast screening clinic & that's where I first met with MR Fazel. He talked me through my options before I went off for some screening tests to discover whether or not I had a rupture. Can you believe that on that day my left breast was on fire internally, I was so positive I had a rupture as was he but the mammogram & sonogram showed no signs of rupture.
Anyway, as a precaution & also the fact that I was in fact 5 years over due for replacement implants, I decided to get a 2nd BA. I also chose not to go back to my original surgeon.
After having a nice conversation with him, I chose MR Fazel for my 2nd BA.
The day of my 2nd BA - 22 Nov 2013
By the way, I am still 5f 8" but this time round I am 8st 3lbs. I put on a whole stone in 15 years lol.
Ok, so this time I went for 425cc Anatomical, textured Gummy Bears (Cohesive Gel)
I was first in line this time! Boy was I in pain after this BA, completely different to my first BA. My surgeon had to break open my old scar tissue which was apparently very thick on my left side (this is possibly where the pain was coming from?) It is known that recovery from a 2nd BA is much harder, they're right there! My poor throat was in pieces & so so dry after the anesthetic , thankfully one of the kind nurses at the Highgate hospital gave me several chewing gum which kept my throat moist for the next 24 hours! An absolute god send.
It took me much longer this time around to feel normal enough to be discharged that evening. I only took the one photo after my op with clothes, I'm shy :D
3 days post op
Jeeeeez wearing any kind of bra was so sore :( I ended up wearing a JML Belvia & a crop top that my dear friend lent me. The photo is maybe 5 days after my surgery.
After my 2nd BA, on my left side at the top of my implant, it felt like I could feel the rim of the implant. (I am 4 weeks post op today '20.12.13' & it has now dropped enough that I can hardly feel it anymore!)
4 weeks post op
Here's a photo of me 4 weeks post op. They've definitely dropped but I can't really see that teardrop shape yet but they don't have that 'round' shape 'too' much either. I am praying that they settle further during the coming weeks & begin to look more natural - fingers & toes crossed anyway :)
Something I wanted to share with you
I wanted to share this with you because I believe it counts. A lot of first timers or even 2nd or 3rd timers probably don't realise that the shape of your ribcage really does make a difference to the result you get after your BA. If you imagine the pic above as a cross section of two of the three different shaped ribcages, you can see how a placement of implants over the two can give different results, I think I have the sloped ribcage as I have 425cc's this time & I still don't have a D cup.
Something I wanted to share with you (I forgot the pic, sorry!)
With the pic this time lol
6 weeks 3 days PO
I'm still not loving my boobs. They're still hard and in my opinion high. I had to have them re/done but I don't think i will ever be happy as they're not real :(
Boobs in an old bra
10 Jan 2014
2 months post
Bra sizes are sooo confusing, a 34C yesterday was too restricting but my old 34B bra fits?!?! Lol
I made it to a D cup, Yay!!!! :)
11 Jan 2014
2 months post
Hi, I measured myself yesterday to be a 32C but today in store they didn't quite fit so I tried on a D & it fit! I'm soooo happy! I didn't buy any of the bras I tried on though, I was literally just sizing myself & seeing which styles suited me best. I quite like balconette bras. I'm still wearing my post op bra at the moment because my surgeon recommended I do so for 8-10 weeks.
My 15 year old PIP (industrial grade silicone) implants
12 Jan 2014
2 months post
I bought my old implants home with me out of curiosity. I was able to study them for ages. I keep them in a suitcase & I had to sign a consent form to be able to leave the hospital with them. I was one of the lucky ones as they didn't rupture
I shall be posting photo's
21 Jan 2014
2 months post
Hi, just to let you all know, I will be posting photo's but it's incredibly hard when I've no-one to take them for me, if I hold the camera myself I end up looking all lopsided lol
Are these really anatomical?
23 Jan 2014
2 months post
I am finding it HARD to believe my implants are anatomical, I think they look very round & with no slope :/ I am however seeing my PS this evening so I can ask him then :) Here are some photo's 9 weeks post op. I do have a boob that twists out slightly but the last set did that too.....
10 weeks post op, wow that went fast!
30 Jan 2014
2 months post
It's a whole 10 weeks tomorrow since I had surgery! I saw my lovely PS last Thursday as I was having some pain which I was becoming paranoid about, imagining all sorts of bad things were about to go wrong but after an examination he said I am all fine & that these implants were much wider than my previous ones so my skin just needed to stretch :D He did say that my left boob has some catching up to do & he's shown me how to massage my skin in a downward stroke. I do actually feel much better a week later pain wise so that's encouraging. I did however wear a heavily padded bra which by friend kindly gave me but NEVER AGAIN... I swear when I took it off my boob was flat on one side! Eeeek. I went to bed so scared & I didn't even look at my boob the next day AT ALL :/ Not until the day after did I feel brave enough to look & it looked fine lol.
By the way, has any one heard of myfreeimplants.com? Are they kosher?
14 Feb 2014
3 months post
I can finally sleep properly on my front, Yay! I have been able to do this from week 11 (today is week 12)
I am still getting an odd pain behind my right implant but this comes & goes. So far today it's not been there at all. It's towards my sternum but under the implant & even if I take ibruprofen & 2 paracetamol it still niggles away. I just hope the implant isn't on a nerve. I have gone back to my ugly support bra for now as I also started to get an internal stinging sensation in my right scar which I'm praying is ok (I had my pocket stitched higher because my last implants from 15 years ago dropped too low) I should call my surgeon but I don't want to trouble him unnecessarily, I'm not sure If I'm just being paranoid :/
15 Feb 2014
3 months post
Well, I didn't use kelo cote yesterday or today and I've had no niggly pain what so ever! So I'm now wondering if I was aggravating something inside whilst massaging in the gel. Wow, I hope that it is just because of that because I can then FINALLY stop worrying on a daily basis. These last two days have been heaven because I've previously had the pain on & off from week 4 - 12 which is the whole time that I've used kelo cote (please note, I am not blaming the kelo cote, just the massage over the scars on a daily basis) eeeek, fingers crossed :)
Almost a year on & I am seriously unhappy with my results. I have ripples and bubbles & breast pain. I am soon to be going for another consultation with a different surgeon. I can't bare to touch my breasts & look at them & I keep my bra on where ever possible. My friend is going for a breast augmentation soon and she avoided my surgeon. I went back on several occasions to my surgeon and can't help but feel like he was unsympathetic and just wanted to fob me off, who tells their patient that they don't need a push up bra? Everyone needs or should be given the option to wear one if they desire to. My right breast looks permanently pushed over & I believe I have a twist in it. I recently had a scan & I can see a kink in my implant but I was fobbed off with 'that's "normal" (sorry but no, I didn't pay 5 thousand pounds to feel like a freak)
I have good news, for me of course but I'm so relieved that I thought I'd share it with anyone that's interested. After asking my Dad if he'd load me the money for another op to remove these horrible boobs he said yes!! I have to pay my car off first but at least he agreed to it lol, for me this is amazing, I better stop spending and pay off the car asap :)
I would LOVE to hear from people that were a similar size to myself frame and bust and find out which size, make and profile you had because I can't do this again, this has to be researched to every finest point to make sure this time that I am happy with everything. Here's to pain free bubble free boobs, clink!
I was an AA cup prior to my very first surgery, not even an A. Maybe a 32aa. I'm still slim but prefer a 34 band nowadays. I'm 5f 8" and I weigh 52kg. Currently roughly a 34D Topshop or 34C in Newlook bra's. Would like to think I can stay that size because of the stacks of new bra's I have that are still unworn lol. What is the best profile to go for? Tips very welcome :)
I've done it!!
I've finally booked in for a consult with another surgeon! So excited to do this and talk over my issues, I am preparing better this time and I've even requested my before photo's from 15 years ago with my first surgeon. I guess it's now time to start a brand new review :D
Info on my current implants
So last night I read my implant info.. they're SiliMed and made by the company Sientra (I think)
I have 425cc Ref 20637xxxHI
Next time I'm hoping to have Natrelle by Allergan unless the new Surgeon recommends something more suitable
Eeek, my original before & after photo's from 16 years ago
So there's no frontal snap :( I called the office again and they said these were the only photographs on my records so I'll never know if I truely had asymmetry before my very first breast augmentation or if it's where the two different surgeons placed the implants :'(
Anyway, please notice the position of my left implant (on your right) after both surgeries these look in a different position to the other one/side (although I must add, my left implant was 1cm lower than my right & the 2nd surgeon did his best to sew up the pocket to make them level, maybe the next surgeon will undo that and lower the other to make them even? who knows) Anyway, I've never met anyone that was as flat as I was ever lol, I had a curve under the front but no boob to put in even an A cup hence the first surgery
(photo in blue is of 2nd surgery, posted to show different position to other side)
I've waited for what seems like forever to get a view from above of my right breast, the one I think has rotated even if only slight. This is the view I see when I look down, it's twisted right? :'(
A photo laying down
If you look at the left breast there is a curve to the outer left but on the right breast it's straighter with no curve
Let to let you know.....
I tried to get 2 photographs printed off today with an old negative but 'Boots' said they couldn't do them from that type of negative anymore so tomorrow I will go to 'Snappy snaps'. The photo's show me days after my first augmentation front on so hopefully I'll be able to see if my boobs were once level lol
Photo's from 16 years ago
So I finally got these printed out today, highly embarrassing because it was a 'MAN' printing them off lol. I wanted to take a closer look at these to see how 'off' centre my nipple was if at all immediately after my first surgery, the implant placement seemed level at this stage, shame it didn't stay that way
2 days to go!!
It's just 2 days to go & I'm so excited to meet with Mr Adrian Richards. I'm taking all my photo's with me and a list of my problems.
My consultation with Mr Adrian Richards
To put it blunt, it was horrible & went like this....
I arrived early despite getting lost. I was asked to fill in a double sided form with all the standard Q's you'd expect to be asked. Whilst I was filling in the form another lady stated at reception that she was seeing Mr Richards 'AT THE SAME TIME!?'
Unsure as to whether one of us had made a boo boo about our appointment time I asked out loud, "how does that would work if we're both seeing the same surgeon at the same time" to which she replied, "you'll be seeing a nurse first".... :/ (that didn't really explain much but....)
The other lady was called in first and walked off with a nurse and moments later I was called through with another nurse named Aggie. As I was alone in a room with Aggie I began to briefly explain to her about my issues but then Mr Richards walked into the room and introduced himself. I was so nervous talking to him. I really wanted him to be the understanding man I thought he'd be considering I had read so many good reviews about him & seen him correct so many bad surgeries or PIP implants but I felt rushed and unheard. He spent just minutes with me before asking me to get undressed and he left the room....
I had just enough time to take off my clothes and put on a gown before he returned again....He looked at my breasts and said "they're not perfect but expected them to look far worse from my explanation and that If any surgeon was to operate on me that they'd only be doing it to get my money. He said I'd be putting my self at risk of complications so I asked him what these would be and he said 'infection' (weren't those a factor in my previous surgeries too??) What about the pain I'm in DAILY?? I have to sleep with a big hair clip in the back of my head so I can't/don't roll over onto my back or I get horrendous pain under my right implant. I can't sleep on my front or I get pain in my left implant, I am constantly reminded EVERY day that my right breast has had an op, I have to extend my arm high about my head in the hope to adjust the discomfort in my right breast, sometimes when I lean forward it feels like the implant is tipping forward slightly & I have bubbles that I can bounce up & down in both breasts and my left breast is hard like a tennis ball. Why didn't he listen to everything??
BECAUSE HE WAS TOO BUSY GIVING A DOUBLE CONSULTATION WITH MYSELF AND THE OTHER LADY, **AT THE SAME TIME!!**
I was told to get dressed and that he's send Aggie back in to 'chat' with me & he then asked her if she'd go with him 'back' into the other lady's room.
I left in absolute floods of tears & I cried the whole way home. I wanted him to do my op and now I don't know who or where to go to, I didn't even wait for his nurse to come back in to speak with me, what was the point.....
I have finally discovered why I get pain when laying on my back
Well, it's taken a long time to work this out but it's hard to discover things when you wear a bra 24/7 due to the uncomfortable tugging feeling I get which actually hurts when I lay on my back. I noticed this as I was drying my hair. I was stood up leaning over to my right side & there they were...ripples on the inside of my right breast on the upper pole despite the implant being under the muscle, seriously, this has to be why I constantly feel a tugging sensation when I am braless (which isn't very often due to it feeling AWFUL) When I lay on my back (which I avoid at all costs) I have an uncomfortable tight pulling sensation in the same place, if I forget to put my big hairclip in the back of my hair to stop me rolling onto my back before I sleep I roll onto my back & it's this pain that wakes me up! I can't wait to get these horrible implants replaced. One thing is for sure, I wont be going back to that surgeon seeing as he dismissed my concerns every time, yeah they look okish, but all the other things have ruined my life & put it on hold, I haven't dated since having these inside me, time to move on! Shame he didn't put things right, after all, I was his walking advert but my friends have all gone elsewhere for their surgeries....