I had my first breast augmentation January 9th, 2015. I was technically an A Cup, but I wore VS 34B/C Push Up Bras my whole life. One day, a switch flipped inside of me and I decided now was the time to get a breast augmentation. I made an appointment and moved the process along. On January 9th, I received 500cc Style 20/High Profile Natrelle Allergan implants bilaterally via transquxillary incsion/armpit, with liposuction to the fat in front of my armpits. I almost immediately felling into a severe depression that lasted 2-3 months. I am aware many people can feel sad or depressed after surgery, but it was beyond what I would consider "normal sad" post-surgery. It was so out of character for me to feel this way. It was like a dark cloud was sitting on my brain and it felt induced. I could not understand it or shake it in anyway. I was emotional and just plain sad about absolutely everything in life. I was on a medication called Allocate, which is an asthma medication that was accidentally discovered to help prevent/aide in prevention of capsular contracture. At about 2.2 months on the prescribed 3 months of this medication, I read depression is a side effect. At that point, I would have done anything to lift the cloud that was sitting on my brain. I stopped the medication and within 2 weeks, I felt so much more like myself again. This is a total self-diagnosis, I have NO idea if the depression was directly related to the medication. After feeling more like myself mentally, I was still unable to shake the fact that my breast implants were just to plain big for my body/frame. I felt extremely top heavy and anything I put on my body made me feel 100 pounds overweight. Unclothed my breasts looked beautiful, meaning my surgeon did a wonderful job creating beautiful new knockers for me. I tried to look on the bright side for months. At about 5 months post-op I finally broke down and decided it was time to take my concerns to my surgeon. I was so nervous because my #1 priority was not to offend him. His work was truthfully really pretty. Thank the heavens, he was so kind and gentle when responding to my concerns about the size. He wiped my tears and told me he would fix me and give me smaller breasts. We decided I would continue to wait a few more months and heal from the first procedure. Also, hoping that maybe I could grow to like them. So, fast forward to today... 9 months later. My breast augmentation revision surgery is in 6 days. Throughout a few visits with my doctor, we got to the root of the problem:
1.) My right breast is larger than my left.
2.) My right breast is displaced laterally toward the armpit. It slightly falls toward the arm pit when laying down, causing it to feel heavier than my left breast.
3.) They are too big.
My doctor stated he places the implants in the center of the nipple. He showed me my before photos and it is easy to see my right breast flared out to the side toward my arm, my nipple followed. When he placed the implant, he placed it to the center of the nipple which caused the implant to face toward the right more. I have given him permission to place the new implant more medial knowing my nipple will be toward the right of the implant... because I would prefer the implant sits centered, only my husband sees my nipple anyway. It will not be off center by much anyhow, plus.. this nipple is the one that always sneaks out of my bra/swimsuit anyhow. It may be to my advantage so I can have cleavage without a "show". We are switching to a new implant that has been recently approved in the U.S. It was been used in Canada, Australia, and I believe Europe as well, for a few years now. This will help slightly minimize the side boob I have because the Inspira implant is completely filled/overfilled. The style 20 has extra space within the implant pouch causing the silicon to be able to slide to the left/right when you lay down and can give you more side boob while standing. The inspira implant should help keep everything pushed toward the center of the implant, I hope. Due to the fact that I have a larger pocket now to fit the 500cc in, he will be performing a capsulorrhaphy to close the pocket on the right breast w/ Seri, a silk mesh that dissolves and causes your body to form collagen in that site over an 18 month period. To sew in the seri mesh he needs better access, so we will be going through the nipple incision this time. He can only reduce the pocket so much without complications of mismatching arising. Our two options are:
1.) Left: 415cc Inspira SRF, Right: 385cc Inspira SRF.
2.) Left 385cc Inspira SRF, Right: 365cc Inspira SRF.
He is gong to place sizers to see what can fit and place the smallest of the three choices in. The left pocket will not be reduced with seri. It already seems to be quite smaller than the right. He will also place seri on the bottom of both of my breasts with no lift, only for support. My skin feels thin here and I asked him to place it there for the sake of planning ahead/reduce possible future bottoming out/sag due to the weight of the implants. I have confidence in his skills and believe I will come out looking the way we both are hoping for. If he could not achieve the proper result, I don't believe he would be moving forward with this surgery.
As far as the Allocate medication goes.... I told him I would like to still take it because my breasts are very soft and I had no complications. So, in my book that means I should do all of the same things I did on the prior surgery. Follow the same regimen. I asked him his thoughts on placing me on an anti-depressant. He is going to do some research and decide what to place me on to help keep my mental state better this go around.
SO... that's whats happening.
I did not post my first journey on real self. I have read over hundreds of girls experiences on here. I found the revisions blogs to be lacking and would have found it very helpful to have found a post like the experience I am having now to have been able to follow. Also, girls who have the inspiras and my stats are also limited on here. So, this is me trying to help others in my shoes... and also I hope to gain some followers who will comment and go with me on this journey to recovery. I need all the support I can get.
Thanks. K, bye!