I had a BA in July 2016, I was super excited and...
I had a BA in July 2016, I was super excited and following my post-op instructions to the T, I was waiting patiently for the implants to drop and fluff. Although I felt went too small and wished for bigger breasts. I even spoke to my PS about my wish and he told me he would give me a discount when I was ready for the exchange. I even planned, that after one year and saving up some money, I would go back and have my implants exchanged. But all my hopes and dreams fell to the ground when one day I noticed my left breast had shifted towards my armpit and my breasts looked disfigured. I knew something was absolutely wrong. I voiced my concerns to my PS but he also acknowledged that my left implant did shift laterally, but he told me I should wait for the implants to drop and they would look more normal. But I knew then even if the implant settled the left breast would not come back to the center. I became very depressed and going every where for an answer if some one could make my breasts look normal again. In the mean time I consulted a new PS who told me my original PS didn't dissect the pockets right and I would be needing Capsulorrhaphy to fix the displacement....so here I am now, decided to ditch my other blog about BA and begin this new blog about my journey to the world of BA Revision. I feel that crying or feeling miserable is not going to help me. No mater how depressed I feel and how much I dislike the hideous look of my current augmented breasts, I still have to wait 6 months before anything can be done to make my breasts looks descent again. Instead of feeling sorry for myself for my bad luck and going on and on about how much I hated my breasts, or how angry my PS made me feel, I just want to move forward and see my failed augmentation from a different perspective. I want to talk about my hope, my wish and my dream of having those perky beautiful breasts again within the complexity I have developed. This time I would like to believe I am wiser and I intend to do my thorough research before making any final decision. I hope this journey of mine will end with happiness and I will be able to find that surgeon who will be able to help me to make my dream come true...:)
Height: 5'8", Weight: 140 lbs, Age: 44, Pre-op Breast size 32A possibly 32AA.
Hoping for 32D without any further complications....
Please keep me in your prayers...:) Thank you...
Bra shopping for crooked breasts!!
The PS here advised me to wear a bra at all time ( I think) to support my injured breast so that the displacement doesn't get worse. So I went bra shopping today! All these days I was going bra less as advised by my PS, just wearing a cami for the implants to "drop and fluff"!! Unfortunately that didn't work, my boobs never fluffed!!
I have been always a VS lady ( not sure why) per VS I was 32C!! But now I have no idea what my current bra size is, and I was not going to shop at VS and spend tons of money on bra's if I am going to have a revision in 5 months time, so I went to Hane's outlet store! I asked the sales lady at the Hane's store to measure me, she did her stuff and told me I was 34B. I tried Bali wireless 34B, OMG I looked like a porn star with my deformed boobs sticking out of my tight B cups!! I ditched the B cup and tried on C cup which felt ok but my boobs felt too snug and was hurting, so I opted for 34D. They felt comfy to me, may be a bit loose around the cup but I didn't care, I was able to squeeze my left boob inside and I was happy! I came into the conclusion that its very hard to buy bra's when boobs do not fit inside the cups! As usual I started to curse at me PS while I was inside the fitting room quietly, sales lady must have thought I was a nutcase! Oh I also informed her I had a botched boob job! I know I lost all my shame..:(
So I will be wearing the bra's to try to keep some integrity of my existing pockets....I feel like I am formulating my own theories now how to preserve the boobs...lol I should just go back to school and study medicine and add the MD beside my name, then it will be all official..but I am too old for that stuff now, I should just remained focus on my current situation...my deformed boobs!!
Finding the properly fitted bra's with asymmetrical and deformed breasts with malpositioned/displaced implants
As I mentioned yesterday trying to find a properly fitted bra has turned out to be challenge for me with my laterally displaced breast. I did not have the courage to go to Nordstorm yet and get my bra's professionally fitted. Even though I would like to tell myself I am not shy about talking about my distorted breast augmentation but deep inside me I know I am super conscious about the way my breasts look. So I have been trying to utilize internet to educate myself about how to measure bra size properly. I just feel that those sales ladies in those regular clothing stores really do not know much about bra fitting. If they did I would not be advised to buy 34C bra's by VS prior to my BA ( they were way too big for me!) and 34B by the sales ladies at Hane's outlet store post augmentation ( B cup was squeezing the life out of my breasts!). So I came into this really great website that teaches you how to measure your bra size and what to consider when buying a proper fitting bra. Here is the link http://www.sophisticatedpair.com/bra-size-calculator
When you wind up having distorted breasts I think you really should not care about the look anymore, your priority should be the welfare of your health, ie maintaining the integrity of the remaining breast tissue, skin, and the pockets.
I also realized these bra's are helping me to reduce the nagging neck/back pain I was having on my left problematic side ever since I had the surgery. So all I needed is the support to hold my breast in place so that it would not pull my pec muscle to the side which is some how pulling my neck and back muscle and giving me the chronic pain ( well at least that's what I think, as I never ever suffered from neck/back pain before surgery and the pain is only localized on me left side). If the bra's can give me some comfort, may be I can attempt to wait full one year before the revision. I was questioning myself if 6 months is too early to go for pocket revision because I got this impression that if the capsule is not mature enough, the sutures will not be able to hold the implants in place and I may have displacement again. So I was wondering if waiting one year would be a better option for me. But if I continue to have this pain waiting one year will destroy me. I have many questions and I will be asking all these to my consulting surgeons as I see them the next few weeks!
Sorry for rumbling on and on...I just want to share with you as may be one of you who are facing the same challenges as I am now may find my thoughts useful! Have a blessed day...:)
I went to see Dr. West of Orange today. He was very professional and seemed knowledgeable. His staff were also very welcoming. His clinic did not look and feel like a mass producing boob shop! He spent a lot of time explaining to me what went wrong and how he could make it better. The part that I liked about him the most is that he did not make any derogatory remarks towards my original PS. As much as I absolutely dislike my PS and like to hear when other doctors tell me he messed me up and he is an idiot but at the same time I feel that all physicians should maintain certain degree of professionalism and not put down any of their colleagues regardless of their opinions of the shitty works that their colleagues have done, or at least not in front of their patients. He was very professional about the whole thing. He also gave me the options to fix my problems without any surgical interventions and also the choice of just fixing my left breast. I suppose he was trying to help me by cutting down the cost and the trauma? But I told him I hated my saline implants, so the only choice we had was surgery. He specializes in reconstructive surgery for breast cancer patients. So I feel like he knows what he is doing, if he can make patients with mastectomy look normal again, he can do the same to me. My issues are small compared to the issues the breast cancer survivors go through and I admire their courage. You also have to have some soft corner in your heart to deal with these patients, you can not be just doing it for the money. I still have few more consultations and lets see where it takes me. Have a blessed day...:)
Waiting is making me go insane!
This whole waiting game is literally making me loose my mind. Also the confusion and uncertainty are making me act like an idiot! I have already sent three emails to my new PS with various questions even though I am not even his patient yet officially! The first question was if I can resume my workout as I am fearful that I may cause more damage to my pockets, he said I can exercise! Today I asked him if I needed to take antibiotics prior to having dental procedure such as root canal since I read online some PS advise their patients to take antibiotics so that the bacteria from the gum doesn't migrate to the implants causing Capsular Contracture. My PS said I didn't have to. I feel like an overly anxious idiot! I swear if I continue to send emails with all these dumb questions my PS will soon fire me!! This whole experience has traumatized me so much I have lost all my confidence on anything and I am needing constant reassurance that I am doing everything alright and my boobs will not get damaged any further. To top it off this sudden toothache from my crown is driving me even more crazy. I see my dentist tomorrow. I can't wait for February to come so that I can have my revision successfully and move forward with my life and not be so paranoid about doing anything wrong and stop being so obsessed with my stupid boobs!! I honestly need to stop reading about BA online, the more I google and read, the more confused I get!! I feel really bad for my new PS, he has to deal with my nonsense!!
Oh Btw I retained Dr. West for my revision and ditched my original surgeon!
I forgot to mention I have retained Dr. West to be my surgeon for my revision. I have delightfully left my original PS and canceled my 3 months appointment, as going to his clinic makes me more depressed! I have been pestering Dr. West with all my stupid questions! He has been kind enough and replying back to me with an answer!! I am scheduled to have my surgery on February 2nd 2017. It will be 7 months after my original BA. I honestly can not wait for 2016 to be over and have my boobs fixed so that I can move on with my life. I am a very impatient individual, I feel like good Lord is testing me by making me wait the next four months!! I was supposed to be going bra shopping at this point, now I am still shopping for boobs!! lolol ....This is the consequences of immediate gratification!
How to get fitted for a bra after breast augmentation
I was browsing and as usual I am still pretty much obsessed with boobs! I came across this website where it teaches you how to measure your bra size post BA, apparently it's done as the same way as some one with natural breast tissue!! Oh my, I never knew that! So here is the link: http://www.herroom.com/measure-bra-size-with-implants,904,30.html
May be we are not measuring ourselves properly and that's why we are all getting confused about our post augmented bra/cup size.
I copy pasted a portion of it here, just to give you an idea!!
"Band Size with Breast Implants
Breast implant surgery should not change your band size. But, calculating your band size with implants is performed exactly the same way described in “Step 1” of our Bra size calculator where we explain how to measure for your bra’s band size.
Cup Size with Breast Implants
Measuring for your new cup size is not the same method as the measuring system for normal breast tissue. With your tape measure parallel to the floor, measure your breast from where your breast begins in your cleavage, across your breast apex, then over to where your breast ends near the armpit. With this measurement, and your band measurement, use this table below to determine your cup size:
(See measurement instructions above) 32" band
(27-28" ribcage): 34" band
(29-30" ribcage): 36" band
(31-32" ribcage): 38" band
6.5" FULL A
7" B A
7.5" FULL B FULL A
8" C B A
8.5" FULL C FULL B FULL A
9" D C B A
9.5" FULL D FULL C FULL B FULL A
10" DD D C B
10.5" FULL DD FULL D FULL C FULL B
11" DDD DD D C
11.5" FULL DDD FULL DD FULL D FULL C
12" DDD DD D
12.5" FULL DDD FULL DD FULL D
13" DDD DD
13.5" FULL DDD FULL DD
Additional Note: One possible side effect of implants can be permanently erect nipples. HerRoom has several products known as “nipple concealers” to hide this "caught in the headlights" look. Additionally, contour bras where there is a thin layer of foam in the cups can have enough padding to eliminate this look as well. "
Check out their website to get more detail of it, quiet interesting!!
How much do the silicone implants weigh?
Found an interesting formula while googling!!
Silicone Breast Implant Weight
1cc weighs 0.0375 oz.
To calculate the weight of silicone implants, use the following formula:
Weight for a set of 300cc breast implants
300cc x 2 = 600cc (for both implants)
600cc x 0.0375 = 22.5 oz.
To convert ounces into pounds, divide the total of 22.5 oz. by 16 (there are 16 ounces in 1 pound)
22.5 ÷ 16 = 1.40625 lbs. which can be rounded to 1.41 lbs.
A shorter way is to take the weight of both implants and then divide by 426.67. Example:
300cc x 2 = 600cc
600cc ÷ 426.67 = 1.406 lbs.
Going back to my staying fit and healthy routine after hiding in a hole with depression!!
Well after four long months I have decided to pay a visit to my gym! Prior to my first surgery I used to run, dance, do free weights, and occasionally go hiking if I found a partner. I was a very active 44 years old lady! But after having BA I had to put my active life on hold and it got even worse after I found out I had to have a revision. I stopped doing any physical activities with the fear that my boobs will get damaged even more!
After getting much needed reassurance from Dr. West I felt confident to do the things that I used to enjoy. Today I ran for an hour, I felt pretty good considering the long break I took! Now I am so sore I feel like I got ran over by a truck!!
I wore a maximum support sport bra made by Champion to encapsulate my boobs so that they would stay in place and would not wobble!! The bra did an excellent job!
Another reason I wanted to go back to my routine, it's not only because I wanted to come out of the hole of depression but also to get myself fit and my muscles strong so that they can support my new heavy boobies!! I feel that one of the reasons why many of us get back pain after BA its because our muscles are not toned enough to support the implants. I have four months to get myself some what toned to support the 500cc/550cc girls!!
I am sore but feeling really good and positive....:)
Having a bad day....:(
This waiting is getting on my nerves. I wish February would just show up quick! I have been looking for jobs, came into the realization that I can not advance my career unless I take further educations, as the job market is very competitive nowadays. The more degrees you have the better chances you have in advancing. So I was researching about going back to school, but I can not even think about enrolling because of my up coming surgery in February.
To make mater worse, I am telling my hubby not to go out of state for work purposes because I have no one to care for me after my surgery. I will be restricted to what I could do and he is the only one I have who can care for me.
Its like my whole life in on hold because of these stupid boobs and this stupid surgery. I am also holding my hubby back from what he wants to do. I could have been enjoying my life now and do the things I want to do if my incompetent ex-Ps did not f*** me up with his shitty work..( sorry for cursing)...Or if I did not trust him....Oh I am so mad....why did I go to him...:(
One wrong decision can screw us so much....I can see it will be a miserable winter for me....sigh
3 months post op ( the first surgery) picture... its as good as gonna get... :(
My implants dropped more but It seems to this is as good as gonna get.... cant wait for my revision. I absolutely hate these boobs....:(
Some more pictures I took today to give you a better idea of the awesome work done by my first PS!!
My sad boobs are saying hi to you!
Trying to stay away from thinking about boobs, talking about boobs or looking at boobs!!
I have been so preoccupied with my botched boob job, I feel like these days my life revolves around only boobs! All I think about is boobs, when I will get my two perfect boobs! To make mater worse I am completely addicted to RS!
So today I was trying to take an oath, I would not think about boobs, talk about boobs, dream about boobs, and would not open RS until January 2017, one month before my surgery, but do you think I was able to keep my promise?
Noooo I havn't , I am here again typing away nonsense....Dear Lord have mercy on me! No more boobs!!!
Unbelievable! What a nightmare I am going through....
The lawyer of my first surgeon sent me a letter threatening to take legal action against me if I did not delete my reviews of that surgeon from RS and another website!! He said I was lying and he did not do anything wrong, but the pictures of my breasts are the proof of his not so admirable surgical skills!!
I know its absolutely wrong how he was threatening me for expressing my opinion and part of me want to fight but I am so exhausted and traumatized I really do not wish to deal with any litigation, so I have deleted all my reviews pertaining to him. I know another patient of him who also wrote negative reviews about him has deleted her post. Her situation was worse than mine. I have this hunch she was also threatened by him.
I just want to have my revision surgery in Feb and move on with my life. I absolutely can not wait for 2016 to be over and I hope and pray 2017 will bring me some hope and happiness.
2 more months to go, doing some preparation with the anticipation of my upcoming surgery!
Just wanted to share with you all the ladies who are preparing for their BA surgery. I saw this types of device was being used by another Realselfer here, I can't exactly remember who it was! I thought it was quiet amazing how it works, specially if you don't have a recliner to sleep on during the first few weeks after surgery, when you are asked to sleep up right on a sitting/reclining position. During my first surgery I used 7-8 pillows to prop myself up, it was very uncomfortable. So today I took advantage of the Black Friday sale and ordered this from Amazon!! I got $3 off...lol
Happy New Year!! One more month to go before my big day!
2017 is finally here! It felt like forever to get here but it is finally here! I have one more month to wait before my breasts are fixed and made descent again! Oh boy what a journey it was, I never ever thought BA would bring so much grief and misery in my life and destroy me both emotionally and physically. I feel like my half of year 2016 was ruined because of the poor workmanship of an incompetent arrogant and uncaring surgeon. I thought 2017 would never come, waiting 6 months before having a revision seemed forever to me. But it's over now and I am here!! Thank you God!! From this day forward I just want to be optimistic and happy and savor the excitement that one usually feels before her BA or any body modification surgery.
I am debating on if I should buy some post op bra's. But I absolutely have no idea what size to get as I don't know what my post op breast size will be. I certainly will send a email to my new PS. I just want to be prepared. I will be busy the next few weeks finishing up my lab works, getting my prescriptions filled, going for pre-op appointments.
Part of me is super excited and other part is somewhat afraid, I am not afraid of the surgery itself, I am afraid of the anesthesia, going to sleep and not waking up or feeling the pain of every incision my surgeon makes on my body!! ( Don't lough now, I know I know I am just a very overly dramatic person!!) No mater how many surgeries I had in my life ( I think it's only three!!) I can never get used to the thought of going under and getting cut up!! I hope they give me an Ativan before strapping me down on the table!!
Anyway I wish you all a very happy and prosperous 2017. Please pray for me. I will keep you posted with my journey. Cheers...:)
Today I had my lab work done, also picked up my prescribed medications... Valium, Percocet and an antibiotic. Also ordered some Fruit of the Looms front open sports bra's as advised by some good RS friends here!! Filled up my pantry with Premier Protein shakes, they are on sale in Costco. I learned protein boost the tissue healing, so I will be adding protein shakes in my diet while I recover. I am also trying to keep my self healthy, wearing a mask at work the whole 12 hours so that I don't catch the cold/flu. Also practicing my hand hygiene vigorously. Swallowing all my multivitamins and minerals along with Emergen C and Airbourne supplements to boost my immunity!! The unit is filled with patients and staff members who are ill with the seasonal cold and flu like symptoms. I certainly can not afford to get ill three weeks prior to my surgery. I have to organize my kitchen so that all my food, drinks and medications are easily accessible and I will not have to raise my arms up to reach them! Oh boy its getting closer!!
Today I had my pre-op. Signed whole bunch of consent papers. I was cleared medically by the PA. Both my Doctor and the PA gave me whole bunch of information. I thought I got it all but I can not remember a thing!! Am I the only one who is going lunatic two weeks prior to the surgery? I feel like I have butterflies in my stomach. I do this and do that, nothing seems to settle my overly hyperactive nerves!! I must say this time I got more detailed post op instructions which I appreciate. Now I am just counting my days and keeping my fingers crossed I don't get sick.