I am reluctantly writing this as it is a very...
I am reluctantly writing this as it is a very personal journey, HOWEVER...there is very limited information for cases and scenarios like mine so perhaps I can help other women going through the same decisions.
I have had my Allergan 350cc moderate saline implants for 13 years (I got them when i was 19!) Since then I have had 2 children, nursed both and had no issues at all with the implants! ( I have to mention 19 seems young but I have been with my husband since I was 17... and we had our children when I was 21&22) In the past few years I have experienced some rippling in the implants, nothing serious but certainly knew the time was coming to either upgrade or explant. I had found a breast lump last month that showed up on ultrasound as "palpable valves" so once we knew everything was all good medically, I knew this was the time to re-do them, even though there are no serious issues. I met with my PS yesterday (he is 3 hours away but amazing!) and we decided that I would switch to Allergan Silicone HP 425cc... I am rather petite up top so I dont have the chest diameter or skin tissue to go up any more ( I think I would have liked 450 but its a minor difference with same projection)
For reference I am 5'8" and 142lbs with a little bitta hips and no tummy... I knew I wanted HP silicone implants because of the projection, and I would never want saline again. Mine now have great cleavage but from the side they are blah. lol
I am on a cancellation list for surgery so am hoping to have my surgery sooner than August, but I have had them 13 years: whats another few months ;-)
I also want to note that when I had found my lump my hubby and I had talked about explant with a lift, but after serious contemplation, I have to admit I love my chest, my surgeon was amazing and every day I am thankful I had them done, they are the best thing I had ever done for "me." I remember seeing terrible augmentations gone wrong, or people having them taken out for various reasons but for ME, there hasnt been one day in 13 years I ever took them for granted ;-)
I wanted to add a pic to my review for anyone trying to choose sizes
Mine are 350cc mod projection
(Mcghan not allergan as previously stated)
Im not happy with the projection from the side, but great look from the front. This is a fredericks lightly padded pushup bra.
I will update braless pics right before my surgery to compare.
Pre-Op Instructions: Surgery Four weeks Away
Well I talked to the Pro-op nurse yesterday (since I dont live in the same city pre-op is done on the phone) And she discussed the meds...
30tabs of antibiotic which I will start at supper the day before
1 anti-nausea pill which I take with me to surgery
Advil 200mg liqui-caps ....and thats it! :-)
She asked me a ton of questions about last physical, health concerns, if I smoke etc, and that was that...I had wondered if I would have to do any blood-work but nope! Did anyone else not have and pre-op blood-work? I know I didn't last time either. We discussed size and at the consult we had decided 425cc due to my chest wall size and my tissue apparently sucks. I wanted to go a bit bigger: I don't want noticeably fake just enough so I notice a difference, I also see a lot of women with SO many revisions and this I pray is my one and only revision so I am trusting my surgeon completely and not giving into any booby greed. I did ask her to make sure the 450cc are in the OR for me just in case because that's the size I wanted all along, and once he gets in there and sees how much repair etc needs to be done he can make the final call... I trust him :-) So I did feel better knowing they are a possibility! Now the waiting game begins. I am still on the cancellation list so we will see if I have any luck being bumped up again! :-)
Since my surgery is on a Friday we will be driving 3 hours that morning to surgery then once I am finished will be heading home after, I assume I will sleep or vomit the whole way home but would rather be home than in a hotel especially since the Dr. wont be in until monday anyway, I will talk with the nurse over that weekend and send pics etc, and then hopefully book a post op appt several weeks after.
Now to wait impatiently! ;-)
The dreaded pictures
This was terribly hard to do but if no one shared pictures this site would be useless so I cropped them for privacy and hopefully mine can help others :-)
These pics are my boobs that have been through heck and back over the past 13 years!
My Ps says he needs to release my capsule bcs after pregnancy and nursing the capsule changed and pushed my implant up thusly pushing my nipple downward (it can be described as the skin falling off the front of the implant as well) i thought I needed a lift but he said once the capsule is released and the silicones are properly placed: my nipple will be perky and higher up again (thank God!)
After taking pics and comparing them to my wish pics mine seem to look big for 350cc (not perky enough though and the projection is crap!!!!) but maybe they are all just running together! Lol
4 more sleeps ahhhhhhhh
Well, its officially this week! I have spent hours looking, speculating, second guessing, stressing, and dreaming about breasts and sizes and surgery and I cannot wait for this to be over. I am officially at peace with 425-450cc. YES I like bigger breasts on other women, but I also love when people "wonder" if mine are real, I never want them to be the first thing people see.
I also had a "booby greed ah-ha moment" that I am going to share:
I recently lost about 12 pounds and thought once I reached my goal weight everything in life would be rainbows and unicorns...WELL I got to my "goal weight" and guess what? I want to lose 5 more pounds. Isn't this how we have all become with ourselves? One day we get something we have always wanted (weight loss, breasts, promotion etc) and then its not enough.... it isn't "perfection"
So we want more... Just a little more: I struggle with this constantly and am focusing on "enough" and what that is for me... I am focusing on happiness from within instead of what I see in the mirror. At one time my 350cc were everything my dreams were made of, and now I am worried 450 wont be enough.
"enough" ....I have to remind myself constantly that I myself am enough, at any weight, with any job with any size breasts. Sorry for my rant but maybe other women can relate to this feeling.
Back to surgery: I am TERRIFIED!! I have to be at the office Friday morning at 8:30, and I start my antibiotics Thursday at supper time. Not much else to update at this point: just waiting! :-)
All Finished :-)
WOW! Well, we were up yesterday at 4am, left the house by 5 for the 3 hour drive to the PS office. Arrived perfectly for our 8:30 appointment. Sat with Carol (amazing nurse) She went over paperwork and instructions etc and she gave me my anti-nausea pill and half a percocet (Im a terrible puker after surgery so she said half would be better) She told my hubby to take off and pick me up between 11-1130 (I was shocked it would be that fast yay!) She whisked me away to an amazingly comfy hospital like bed with a duvet and the whole room was just comforting and beautiful. She gave me a gown and some thick comfy socks to change into and then she started my IV. I waited a short time and was met by the anaesthesiologist and then was walked into the OR. Dr Perron marked me and measured me again, and confirmed the size and that was the last I saw of him. The OR table was amazing, looked like a high-tech massage bed, there was padding on it and I was covered with warm blankets and a duvet! This felt like the Hilton! I was given meds through IV...no gas mask only oxygen and it was easy peasy! I HATE when they say count down from 10. I didnt have time to panic, and I appreciated that :-)
I awoke amazingly peacefully, the only thing that hurt was my upper lip where he taped the breathing tube rubbed my lip terrible, the nurse noticed it too but what can you do. I remember her telling me to sleep for a little while longer and to quit peeking down my gown! lol
It wasn't very long and she was back and removed my IV, and then brought me a warm cup of tea with honey in it, a glass of water and a fresh berry salad. I ate it all. I was not sick, nauseated, confused, in pain or anything. I felt like I was at a resort!
Not long after this Carol got me up, I went to the washroom, and she dressed me and I was off! It was literally THAT easy. I cannot say enough about this surgical suite and the nurses and staff. FANFRICKENTASTIC!! (thats a word right? lol)
And so we began our 3 hour drive home. We stopped at Booster juice and that really hit the spot. For reference I left the surgical suite at 11:30 and took my first Advil around 1:00 as a precaution. I am on zero narcotics, simply Advil 200 liquicaps (yes regular strength!) . I am taking ONE advil every 5 hours, its honestly amazing to me compared to the first surgery. Anaesthetic has changed a lot because my first surgery I puked and puked and puked, it was horrible! Ok, Im rambling! SO last night I slept propped up a bit and was uncomfortable as I am a side sleeper but I slept ok. This morning, its 11:30am and I have taken one advil so far. I went for a short slow walk with my kids and I did have some light chest tightness but I want to remain mobile. I am drinking A LOT of water to help beat the bloat and I honestly am not swollen anywhere except my boobs and I am not even exactly sure how swollen they are. Pictures at this point wont help, I will post some tomorrow night because right now I am in the underwire bra I have to wear for 2 weeks day and night and it has gauze packed in the front which they said to leave until Sunday when I shower so I am listening to them. I had periareolar incision so have the tapes front and centre and I havent even had a good look at them yet... they are perkier, I do love the projection they almost look too big! They are spaced farther apart and I will have some side boob finally! I absolutely love Dr Perron and would highly recommend him to anyone. I tried to be thorough here but if anyone has any questions, feel free to comment! And I will post pics asap! :-)
Oh and most importantly : Allergan High Profile silicone 450cc I think they are going to be perfect!
Day 1 post op
This is my surgical bra I have to wear for 2 weeks day& night. I think I am going to be reallly happy when things settle.
Holy Belly Batman!
I only have time for a quick update but I thought it was worth noting! I was not swollen very much post op until day 3! Then oh LORD! My tummy looked like it was smuggling twins! (I told my husband maybe the Dr put my old implants in my tummy! lol) This was soo hard on my mental state because not only do your breasts look smaller when your tummy sticks out, but then you feel terribly about your body. I did read on another amazing forum site that this was normal and would go away in a few days, but it is a mental roller coaster. I have been spot on for my nutrition and calories since my surgery day (even though my hunger has been increased) and that was reassurance as well that it was not me it was fluid moving out of me! I also was very plugged up after surgery which is something I have never had to deal with. I did take metamucil on Monday, then a half of an Exlax yesterday morning and another half yesterday before bed and this morning I am feeling and looking WAY better. A lot of information: but I wish I would have been mentally prepared for this more, so hopefully this will help other women in the same boat or prepping for surgery. Other than that I am feeling great, havent even taken an advil since yesterday morning at 7am (advil 200mg). I will post pics soon however it so hard because my incision is around the nipple so I still have tape on: once the tape is off I will share :-) Hope everyone else is doing fantastic! xo