I've been researching augmentation for quite a few months, particularly on this site. It's been so helpful in terms of giving me real information on the procedure.
I've always been flat-chested, bar when I was in my child-bearing stages, and have always been envious of other woman who can walk into a lingerie store & buy any bra they want! You'll see from my photos that I have a reasonably sized butt & with my job being sedentary & getting thicker around the waist as I get older, the less proportionate I look than when I was younger & a beanpole.
Because I was skinny, I was never hugely affected by the fact I didn't have much in the chest area but it's something I've always thought about anyway. Frustration in needing to wear cami's under my clothes & cream fillers in my bras. I say 'needing' but really it's more of an insecurity I suppose that makes me feel that I need them. They bring me comfort now & I always wear them.
I got a new job this year, my husband & I are in a stable, loving relationship & our children are growing & very independent. Hubby & I were watching one of those Thailand surgery TV shows about a woman who was so happy with her new breasts & I said to him, "I want boobs". He said, "why not?". I've been a perve ever since. Lol.
I've never researched anything so much bar when I was pregnant with my first child!
I've read the negatives, the positives, the side effects, the tips and the tricks. I tried to put myself off (because this is something I would NEVER have considered at all before) but I couldn't shake it. So I researched doctors. New Zealand is a small country & we don't have an abundance of breast surgeons in my area so it was a reasonably easy thing to do.
I decided on smooth round, 260cc implants. The doctor uses Eurosilicone implants which are a French brand. I chose the size after bringing home some implants the doc let me borrow & this size is what I felt most comfortable with.
My procedure (sounds so much nicer & kinder than operation) is on Tuesday next week (13th December). Wow. It's real. I'm getting nervous. My new job is very stressful so I think it's taking my mind off it because I'm surprised I'm not more nervous than I am.
I've taken 2.5 weeks leave from work & told my husband all the things we should expect ie my recovery period & how much help I'll need etc. I am concerned about having this done so close to Christmas - people hugging me, the whole day being tiring, will I be able to cope...
No-one knows this is happening except my husband & my daughter. I have 2 son's I'll need to tell & to be honest, I'm more scared of telling them than I am of the actual procedure!Updated on 12 Dec 2016:
I finally told my boys on Sunday. They were get about it!
So after that relief was lifted, the nerves have really set in. It's 5am (I got up early to have a coffee before my food & liquid cut-off point) and I'm freaking out. Today's the day and I'm really scared!
Feeling emotional and wondering why I would do something like this?? I still want to do it but am nervous of the recovery and really concerned about the size I've chosen. My fear is not liking the outcome. What if I end up too small?Updated on 14 Dec 2016:
I did it! Well, the doctor did it but I showed up which is a pretty hefty feat because I almost backed out.
Doc said the op went well. 260cc dual plane round silicone in each. So I'll still have mild assymetry (which I'm fine with).
I must admit I found the recovery rough yesterday. I stayed overnight in the hospital which I'm grateful for as the nurses were lovely and kept a close eye on me. Getting out of bed and going to the bathroom was difficult. Every time I did I would overheat and feel nauseas. Laying in bed for such a long period was uncomfortable too. I think I got really sick from some of the medication I was given so I'm just taking panadol and I have an anti-nausea patch on my neck to keep nausea at bay.
My husband and kids are wonderful in helping me do the littlest things.
I slept on a recliner chair last night and use my legs and abs to pull myself up from lying down. Actually had a good sleep last night too.
I'm all bandaged up u til tomorrow when I see my doctor to take them off. I'm very curious as to how my new bobs look. They don't look very big to me but then I didn't want too big anyway.Updated on 16 Dec 2016:
So I'm on day 4 of recovery and am feeling pretty good. Have been suffering with dizziness and nausea though. I was taking panadol, tramadol, anti-nausea & anti-inflammatory pills. I think the tramadol was making me really nauseaus & dizzy so I've stopped those to see if there's much difference. Still feeling so foggy! I've been getting up & walking around the house & up the drive to try & keep the energy levels up. Feeling pretty fragile still.
I took the surgical bra off this afternoon to see how the boobies are doing. They looked huge to me. Which is good because I was fretting a bit that they were too small.
It's such a weird feeling to have big lumps on my chest after so many years. I get scared every now & then that I'll do something that'll cause them damage.
I'm sleeping in a recliner chair. My travel neck pillow is my new best friend! I'm also using a chest strap that my doc wants me to use at night.
I know the recovery period can be long, but I can't wait to have this foggyness clear & be able to do more with my days.Updated on 18 Dec 2016:
Ice ice baby.... Swelling + 2 baby bags of baby peas = heaven
I'd be lying if I said the recovery isn't getting me down a little bit. I do love my new boobs but as I've read on here with so many other women, it's really easy to get paranoid. "Are they supposed to do that?", "OMG", "aargh", "why did I do this to myself?" "When will it all start getting better?". So many concerns or downright fear floating around my foggy brain at the moment. The fact I can no longer sleep in an upright position doesn't help my mood.
Oh and my assimmetry is weirding me out. My right boob was always a bit saggier than left but I didn't realize how much bigger it would end up being by putting the same size cc in each one. I know one is generally more swollen than the other after surgery. Please Lord let it be true in righties case!
My plan of action for today is to try & get some sleep & practice deep breathing. Perhaps try some meditation. Hope you ladies are all doing well ?Updated on 19 Dec 2016:
Hard not to worry..
I had a great sleep last night. The best yet and I got up feeling really good! So I went in my bathroom & took my bra off to check things out & now I'm depressed. My right is like a full cup size larger than my left. And it's really noticeable. It was larger before the op but I didn't realize it was by this much!
Do you ladies think this will look less noticeable when things settle? I'm trying really hard not to be upset by its but it's not working....Updated on 27 Dec 2016:
Swelling be gone!
I have been fretting about this swelling. I went to see my doc & he said it looks as though I have fluid on both breasts but more so on my right one which is why it looks so much bigger than the left. He said it's normal swelling, no sign of heamatoma or seroma. But the next day the right breast swelled up even more, was tight & I had trouble breathing. This was all happening when in the car while my husband took me Christmas shopping.
I called him & he said I needed it drained. So I called the clinic he suggested & it took 3 phone calls & all afternoon for them to let me know they couldn't see me for 2 weeks & it would cost over a thousand dollars to have the breast drained.
So I called my docs assistant. She was amazing. She told me to take the surgical bra off for a little bit & wear a crop top for a couple of hours. She was very specific for me not to do anything while wearing this bra. She also advised me to ice the breasts & undo the bottom 2 hooks of the bra when the swelling became uncomfortable. She explained what to look for in the event I would need it drained urgently and I would need to go to A&E to have it done immediately.
We spoke about the way I've been sleeping. I hadn't thought about it, but I'd been sleeping the previous couple of nights on the couch on a bit of an angle. This meant my right breast was being squashed a bit. So she suggested I sleep in my bed, on my back, with the strap on to keep the boobs down. Whaddya know - the swelling hasn't got that bad since. I still have swelling, every day throughout the day my boobs will just swell up. But not as bad as that day. I thought the size of them had evened out too, but either it hadn't, or the right one has swelled again.
So today, on my 14th day post op, I'm feeling pretty darn good, all things considered.
It was my first day back at work today. Driving was uncomfortable when turning tight corners, but I don't seem to have strained anything. The tiredness is real. But I made it through the day!
Pain-wise, I'm not in pain as such, but the feeling is coming back in the nipples as well as the boobs. It feels like it does after getting numbed at the dentist and the feeling starts coming back. But in the boobs. It's achy & oh so sensitive!
I've gained weight since the operation. I don't feel sexy yet but am looking forward to when my new additions are feeling normal & part of me & I can let my husband enjoy them! He's been so supportive.
Does anyone else get the swelling too? It happens quite often. The best way to describe it is it feels like my milk is coming in. They swell up for a bit, then it eases.Updated on 27 Dec 2016:
I've been researching augmentation for quite a few months, particularly on this site. It's been so helpful in terms of giving me real information on the procedure.
I've always been flat-chested, bar when I was in my child-bearing stages, and have always been envious of other woman who can walk into a lingerie store & buy any bra they want! You'll see from my photos that I have a reasonably sized butt & with my job being sedentary & getting thicker around the waist as I get older, the less proportionate I look than when I was younger & a beanpole.
Because I was skinny, I was never hugely affected by the fact I didn't have much in the chest area but it's something I've always thought about anyway. Frustration in needing to wear cami's under my clothes & cream fillers in my bras. I say 'needing' but really it's more of an insecurity I suppose that makes me feel that I need them. They bring me comfort now & I always wear them.
I got a new job this year, my husband & I are in a stable, loving relationship & our children are growing & very independent. Hubby & I were watching one of those Thailand surgery TV shows about a woman who was so happy with her new breasts & I said to him, "I want boobs". He said, "why not?". I've been a perve ever since. Lol.
I've never researched anything so much bar when I was pregnant with my first child!
I've read the negatives, the positives, the side effects, the tips and the tricks. I tried to put myself off (because this is something I would NEVER have considered at all before) but I couldn't shake it. So I researched doctors. New Zealand is a small country & we don't have an abundance of breast surgeons in my area so it was a reasonably easy thing to do.
I decided on smooth round, 260cc implants. The doctor uses Eurosilicone implants which are a French brand. I chose the size after bringing home some implants the doc let me borrow & this size is what I felt most comfortable with.
My procedure (sounds so much nicer & kinder than operation) is on Tuesday next week (13th December). Wow. It's real. I'm getting nervous. My new job is very stressful so I think it's taking my mind off it because I'm surprised I'm not more nervous than I am.
I've taken 2.5 weeks leave from work & told my husband all the things we should expect ie my recovery period & how much help I'll need etc. I am concerned about having this done so close to Christmas - people hugging me, the whole day being tiring, will I be able to cope...
No-one knows this is happening except my husband & my daughter. I have 2 son's I'll need to tell & to be honest, I'm more scared of telling them than I am of the actual procedure!Updated on 2 Jan 2017:
I've been feeling soon much better the past couple days!
My boobs had been super sensitive and made them feel quite achy but it's definately eased. The swelling has also eased off. They still swell every now & then but it doesn't get near the point of them feeling like they're going to burst!
I've started wearing a Carefix post surgical bra during the day. It's pretty comfortable.
Leftie hasn't dropped as much as rightie. I'm pretty sure it is dropping slowly though.Updated on 11 Jan 2017:
Nipple + nerves + seat belt = Ouchies!
It's officially 4 weeks since my operation and I'm almost feeling my normal self! I can reach my arms over my head with just slight pulling on my chest muscles (more so the left one).
I'm working, driving and doing my normal daily routine but still being very careful not to hurt myself. Still no heavy lifting and I haven't even attempted vacuuming yet because my kids have been doing it so thought it best to leave well enough alone. Lol.
I still get pains in both breasts and the nipple are very sensitive. All of this is very bearable though.
I like them. And I'm growing to love them. I think my fear of things going wrong stopped me from accepting them at first but now that I'm more comfortable I'm starting to feel more confident with them.
I'm pretty sure Leftie is starting to drop. What do you think?Updated on 19 Jan 2017:
Feeling almost normal now. I still feel discomfort when doing various things like driving (turning the wheel & looking behind when reversing), washing my hair & cuting things in the kitchen. I love baking and cutting a block of butter straight out of the fridge is not nice. Neither is using any strength to clean the kitchen bench down. It's a very strange feeling to have the muscles flexing in their new positions.
I have very occasional pain and I must admit, after the initial discomfort, massaging is very relieving as they tend to ache during the day. I'll get sharp pains every now & then and my nipple & underside of the beasts are still very numb,
I'm so pleased with how they look though and they're starting to feel like mine! I'm not acutely aware of them every second of the day now.
I'm pretty sure Leftie is dropping too..