39 Years - A cup - Getting 260cc unders - NZ

I've been researching augmentation for quite a few months, particularly on this site. It's been so helpful in terms of giving me real information on the procedure.
I've always been flat-chested, bar when I was in my child-bearing stages, and have always been envious of other woman who can walk into a lingerie store & buy any bra they want! You'll see from my photos that I have a reasonably sized butt & with my job being sedentary & getting thicker around the waist as I get older, the less proportionate I look than when I was younger & a beanpole.
Because I was skinny, I was never hugely affected by the fact I didn't have much in the chest area but it's something I've always thought about anyway. Frustration in needing to wear cami's under my clothes & cream fillers in my bras. I say 'needing' but really it's more of an insecurity I suppose that makes me feel that I need them. They bring me comfort now & I always wear them.
I got a new job this year, my husband & I are in a stable, loving relationship & our children are growing & very independent. Hubby & I were watching one of those Thailand surgery TV shows about a woman who was so happy with her new breasts & I said to him, "I want boobs". He said, "why not?". I've been a perve ever since. Lol.
I've never researched anything so much bar when I was pregnant with my first child!
I've read the negatives, the positives, the side effects, the tips and the tricks. I tried to put myself off (because this is something I would NEVER have considered at all before) but I couldn't shake it. So I researched doctors. New Zealand is a small country & we don't have an abundance of breast surgeons in my area so it was a reasonably easy thing to do.
I decided on smooth round, 260cc implants. The doctor uses Eurosilicone implants which are a French brand. I chose the size after bringing home some implants the doc let me borrow & this size is what I felt most comfortable with.
My procedure (sounds so much nicer & kinder than operation) is on Tuesday next week (13th December). Wow. It's real. I'm getting nervous. My new job is very stressful so I think it's taking my mind off it because I'm surprised I'm not more nervous than I am.
I've taken 2.5 weeks leave from work & told my husband all the things we should expect ie my recovery period & how much help I'll need etc. I am concerned about having this done so close to Christmas - people hugging me, the whole day being tiring, will I be able to cope...
No-one knows this is happening except my husband & my daughter. I have 2 son's I'll need to tell & to be honest, I'm more scared of telling them than I am of the actual procedure!

I finally told my boys on Sunday. They were get about it!
So after that relief was lifted, the nerves have really set in. It's 5am (I got up early to have a coffee before my food & liquid cut-off point) and I'm freaking out. Today's the day and I'm really scared!
Feeling emotional and wondering why I would do something like this?? I still want to do it but am nervous of the recovery and really concerned about the size I've chosen. My fear is not liking the outcome. What if I end up too small?

I did it! Well, the doctor did it but I showed up which is a pretty hefty feat because I almost backed out.
Doc said the op went well. 260cc dual plane round silicone in each. So I'll still have mild assymetry (which I'm fine with).
I must admit I found the recovery rough yesterday. I stayed overnight in the hospital which I'm grateful for as the nurses were lovely and kept a close eye on me. Getting out of bed and going to the bathroom was difficult. Every time I did I would overheat and feel nauseas. Laying in bed for such a long period was uncomfortable too. I think I got really sick from some of the medication I was given so I'm just taking panadol and I have an anti-nausea patch on my neck to keep nausea at bay.
My husband and kids are wonderful in helping me do the littlest things.
I slept on a recliner chair last night and use my legs and abs to pull myself up from lying down. Actually had a good sleep last night too.
I'm all bandaged up u til tomorrow when I see my doctor to take them off. I'm very curious as to how my new bobs look. They don't look very big to me but then I didn't want too big anyway.