A mother's priority is to focus on the children. When the children are grown and leave for college, you find you have time on your hands. What's a girl to do but look at herself in the mirror. So you gotta get real with yourself and pull yourself back together! That's my story, just like many others. I'm no different.
Still in recovery, but looking forward to seeing the final results...I remain positive because so far so good.
Updated on 16 Apr 2016:
I'm a fairly conservative kinda person. I take risks after some consideration of my options. Ultimately I'm the one who has to live with my decision. I never really looked at my body before having kids. When I looked back at pictures I realized I was a skinny kid. I'm on the petite side at 5'2" so a little 5-10 lb weight gain is noticeable on me.
I remember the moment I first started paying attention to my weight. It was when I got pregnant with my first child. I was exactly 100 lbs so any weight gained by the pregnancy would be extra. I had to shop for bigger clothes and at that time, a size 2 was big on me. I was a stick, even at 3 months into my pregnancy. I wore a 5-6 and sported a baby bump by my 6th month. Overall, I gained 36 lbs but was so consumed in my new love affair that I wasn't really concerned about losing those 36 extra lbs. I had my second child 2 yrs later. The only thing I recalled about my weight was that I didn't gain as much, but I don't remember how much the final weigh in was.
It wasn't until Fall of 2002 that I noticed I'd let my weight get out of hand. My weight was about 145-150ish. I was about to have to buy clothes in the double digits and that's when my pride stood up to say, "Uhh, No! This is too much!" I attempted a healthy lifestyle of whatever made sense at the time, but I didn't really know what I was doing. I got a cheap gym membership that allowed me to go 3 times a week. I knew nothing of workouts, but that something was better than nothing. A year later, I was down to about 115-120. I maintained that for about 12 years... up until a year ago.
Now I'm at 136-138 and my movements are feeling limited. I'm now 40. The kids are gone off to school and I hate the idea of things going downhill from here. There's no need for that. I've had the benefit of being a young mother which means it's time to allow myself to be a little selfish and get my body back. I'm having a harder time with getting my mentality in check to lose the weight like I had before. An opportunity came my way to do this surgery and I opted to explore it. I hate that every year I dread swimsuit season. Even when I was able to get my weight down to 110 (6 yrs ago), I still felt awkward in a bikini because of the stretch marks and pouch that I had no control over. That's what it boils down to for me. It's not the weight, because I've proven to myself that I can make that happen with serious hard work. What I couldn't do for myself, I had to hand over to doctors.
Updated on 16 Apr 2016:
I can't wait to get these drains removed. Hoping I can get in on Monday to see the doctor, but otherwise my follow up appt isn't until Thursday. I'm supposed to go back to work on Monday, but how do I get dressed with these things?
My back hurts a lot because I can't use my abs. Tired of sponge baths. It's hard to breathe with this binder which feels even tighter with the added bloat of not being able to have a BM.
The pain & bruising from the lipo on my sides is gradually subsiding on a positive note. Incision looks and feels just fine, but probably because I've barely removed my binder. I saw it once when they changed my dressings at discharge from the hospital and once more when my husband helped me to adjust the binder a couple nights ago.
I was instructed not to take a laxative and only to take the prescribed medications. I think I'm going to try some prune juice as I've gotten desperate enough after waking up in major discomfort today.
Can I get some feedback regarding what brands or websites to browse for a new binder or next stage compression garment?
Updated on 17 Apr 2016:
Thankfully didn't have to go the prune juice route because I had forgotten about something I already had in the pantry that would work...Dandy Blend! I bought it last year to substitute for all the coffee I was drinking, but it's great for helping with constipation or if you want to do a safe & natural detox. It is very gentle. Also thankful for the dried apricots.
We rewrapped by binder... now I can show a photo of my tummy in it's current state. I'm getting a bit worried about having creases. I ordered a post op abdominal compression foam board and some compression shape wear. Can't wait for the foam board to come in.
When I lay my hand over my belly, it feels so tight...a weird feeling indeed. Everything looks good so far. Hoping to get into the doctor's office soon except the weatherman is predicting flooding over the next 2 days; lovely. Otherwise, everything is under control.
Updated on 20 Apr 2016:
I'll hopefully get some answers tomorrow when I see my doctor for my first follow up appt, but I'm panicking a bit because I'm feeling hardNess along my flanks because of the creases from my binder.
They told me to do kneading massage 3 times a day which I do periodically throughout the day. I'm afraid I'm going to heal in a deformed way. Anyone have any feedback, please?!!
Updated on 23 Apr 2016:
So my instructions upon discharge was to call the doctor's office when my drains were at 35 CCs within 24 hours. I was discharged on a Wednesday so that unfortunately took place between Friday & Saturday. I emailed the doctor's office to see if I could come in on Monday, received a reply on Sunday to call in the morning. Cool, no big deal...until a historic flood decided to happen. Crazy, right?
So stranded at home for 2 days. My follow up appt was already scheduled for Thursday so I decided it's best to wait. There are still areas with high water so getting to certain parts of town aren't exactly easy.
A surge of heavy rain hit about about 2 hours before my appt. I was not going to chance it so I left my office early to account for traffic & detours. It took me an hour to get there and I did run into some scary high water...chanted the whole way through "please don't flood my car". Success, car came through like a champ!
The surgeon's assistant came in to remove my drains. She has such a calming voice, very sweet and gentle woman. She warned me that as she pulled the drains out that it would be a weird sensation and indeed it was!! Creepy! I could feel the ends were up along side my belly button and of course they are inserted down by your hairline. That's a few inches! Haha and you feel it being pulled out, ew. SO glad that's done & over.
Had a list of questions for my doctor but forgot to ask what the total duration would be to continue wearing my binder, ugh. Happy to be cleared for a full shower, yay, no more sponge bathes!! I purchased some very handy waterproof bandages & tape. The adhesive on the tape was very gentle so no issues there. It's also very flexible. Enjoyed my first full shower in almost 2 weeks...feeling like HALF a million bucks ;)
My doctor wanted me to wear a tank top under my binder so the incision wouldn't be irritated by the binder. That wasn't very comfortable for me. Everything seemed to get bunch and I'd like to avoid creating more lumps. Decided to use some non stick pads and paper tape. Applied some neosporin to my belly button and drain sites. Everything is in place & secure now, yay. Now if only I had more clothing options haha
Everything is healing nicely. Bruising is going away slowly but surely.
You know what's funny though? The doctor showed me my before picture and I totally forgot I had a mole on my tummy...not anymore!! Haha it's kind of surreal. On a side note, I need to get a copy of those pictures.
Updated on 3 May 2016:
All the bruising from the lipo is gone now. Luminescent seems to be smoothing out. Still feeling numb in certain areas. When did y'all start noticing the numb areas get feeling back? The area between my belly button and incision is still tight. That's the area I feel the most numb. It's such a strange feeling when I touch it to clean, even more so when I don't look. Shaving is awkward since my drain holes are still healing. I don't have the courage to take my razor to it so I trim with these super small pointy scissors. Gotta do it ever so carefully so I don't accidentally stab or cut myself. Feel like I've gotta buy stock in those waterproof Band-Aid pads that I use for showering. I don't have to rush through bathing...ahhh...
I'm getting antsy to start working out but doc said I couldn't until 6 weeks post op. Are any of y'all doing any kind of exercises?
Started taking 500mg of Bromelain twice a day. I'm still quite swollen too. If you're taking Bromelain, how much & how often are you taking it? How do you know if it's helping?
Updated on 10 May 2016:
I'm anxious for my 1 month follow up appointment with my doctor on Thursday. I really am hoping he'll tell me I can get my incision wet. Waterproofing my incision so I can enjoy a full shower is time consuming and those bandaids aren't cheap. It basically costs me $12 per shower. And in 2-3 more weeks I'll be cleared to start exercising again! Part of me doesn't want to push my recovery too hard and the other part of me thinks I'm babying myself too much. All I know is I don't want to have to redo this experience haha
So, the stabbing on my belly button is slowly starting to clear up. The drainage holes are pretty much healed; one has healed faster than the other.
I have this fear of being resentful from the residual numb areas, like regret because I'll never be completely normal again. Or I'll be forever uncomfortable & weirded out because of the numbness. How have some of y'all coped with it? I mean, how awkward is it really?
Updated on 31 May 2016:
A couple of weeks ago I learned from my aunt that she and my cousin were both really sensitive to medical tape. That made a lot of sense for me because I have also been irritated by the tape I've been using. Not sure if anyone has noticed the pinky irritated skin in my pictures. I usually try to put the tape in a different area when I change my bandages. Sometimes I'll get a blister from it. I don't like wearing a shirt between my skin & the binder because it rubbed more that way whichever caused more irritation and blisters. Call me crazy, but keeping the bandages on for this long has been like my comfort blanket...until my incision is pretty healed up, I'll be keeping it covered mostly to protect it from getting irritated when my clothes or binder rub up against the incision.
My doctor suggested that if the surgical tape wasn't bothering me to just keep it on which would help my scar to heal better. So I haven't been in a hurry to remove it as it hasn't bothered me at all. The only thing that has had me concerned was right in the center there has been some kind of liquid leaking out. It has a sweet scent to it oddly enough. It's not red or warm and since I'm still pretty numb in that area, I can't tell if it's hurting so I can't decipher if it's infected. I decided I should remove the surgical tape to finally see how the incision looked. I put some neosporin on it and put fresh bandages on. Is it weird that I feel vulnerable without the surgical tape on? Haha like I'm going to bust open because the protective tape isn't holding me together anymore. My imagination is getting crazy haha.
I'm still swollen so even though the doctor says I'm clear to remove the binder, I'm still wearing it. I've decided to buy a new waist cincher with the 3 rows of hooks. It will probably work better than this velcro one. I have to have my husband wrap me up. I shouldn't need him so much once I've got the new waist cincher.
I'm starting to feel a little more normal these days. My skin is feeling less and less numb which is great! I'm trying not to measure my progress against others here because I know everyone heals differently. I just hope I'll feel comfortable enough by July to run around in a bathing suit because I'm expected to attend a beach weekend Bachelorette party get away.