40 YO, 2 kids, want to stop hating my body - Katy, TX

A mother's priority is to focus on the children. When the children are grown and leave for college, you find you have time on your hands. What's a girl to do but look at herself in the mirror. So you gotta get real with yourself and pull yourself back together! That's my story, just like many others. I'm no different.
Still in recovery, but looking forward to seeing the final results...I remain positive because so far so good.

I'm a fairly conservative kinda person. I take risks after some consideration of my options. Ultimately I'm the one who has to live with my decision. I never really looked at my body before having kids. When I looked back at pictures I realized I was a skinny kid. I'm on the petite side at 5'2" so a little 5-10 lb weight gain is noticeable on me.
I remember the moment I first started paying attention to my weight. It was when I got pregnant with my first child. I was exactly 100 lbs so any weight gained by the pregnancy would be extra. I had to shop for bigger clothes and at that time, a size 2 was big on me. I was a stick, even at 3 months into my pregnancy. I wore a 5-6 and sported a baby bump by my 6th month. Overall, I gained 36 lbs but was so consumed in my new love affair that I wasn't really concerned about losing those 36 extra lbs. I had my second child 2 yrs later. The only thing I recalled about my weight was that I didn't gain as much, but I don't remember how much the final weigh in was.
It wasn't until Fall of 2002 that I noticed I'd let my weight get out of hand. My weight was about 145-150ish. I was about to have to buy clothes in the double digits and that's when my pride stood up to say, "Uhh, No! This is too much!" I attempted a healthy lifestyle of whatever made sense at the time, but I didn't really know what I was doing. I got a cheap gym membership that allowed me to go 3 times a week. I knew nothing of workouts, but that something was better than nothing. A year later, I was down to about 115-120. I maintained that for about 12 years... up until a year ago.
Now I'm at 136-138 and my movements are feeling limited. I'm now 40. The kids are gone off to school and I hate the idea of things going downhill from here. There's no need for that. I've had the benefit of being a young mother which means it's time to allow myself to be a little selfish and get my body back. I'm having a harder time with getting my mentality in check to lose the weight like I had before. An opportunity came my way to do this surgery and I opted to explore it. I hate that every year I dread swimsuit season. Even when I was able to get my weight down to 110 (6 yrs ago), I still felt awkward in a bikini because of the stretch marks and pouch that I had no control over. That's what it boils down to for me. It's not the weight, because I've proven to myself that I can make that happen with serious hard work. What I couldn't do for myself, I had to hand over to doctors.

I can't wait to get these drains removed. Hoping I can get in on Monday to see the doctor, but otherwise my follow up appt isn't until Thursday. I'm supposed to go back to work on Monday, but how do I get dressed with these things?
My back hurts a lot because I can't use my abs. Tired of sponge baths. It's hard to breathe with this binder which feels even tighter with the added bloat of not being able to have a BM.
The pain & bruising from the lipo on my sides is gradually subsiding on a positive note. Incision looks and feels just fine, but probably because I've barely removed my binder. I saw it once when they changed my dressings at discharge from the hospital and once more when my husband helped me to adjust the binder a couple nights ago.
I was instructed not to take a laxative and only to take the prescribed medications. I think I'm going to try some prune juice as I've gotten desperate enough after waking up in major discomfort today.
Can I get some feedback regarding what brands or websites to browse for a new binder or next stage compression garment?