Inactive Account - Did not go forward with procedure

Hiiii everyone!

So I've decided to make an account on here because ever since the payment was made to reserve my surgery date, I've been freakin out and this site has been very helpful to me so I thought why not create a Rhinoplasty Diary of my own :]
Here's a little bit about me to start...
I'm 20 years old and I will turn 21 three days before my scheduled surgery...
I live with my boyfriend of over a year and we have a cat who we treat like a child, haha... I'm almost completely financially independent from my parents and my family has always been a mess so I've been quite independent for my age for awhile...
I'm a performing/recording artist getting my foot in the door of the music industry...
I work a full time job that I hate, all the while recording and performing my music at various shows...
I model/act and do makeup artistry occasionally as well...

I've been wanting a rhinoplasty/septoplasty since I was 10 years old, I'm pretty sure I broke or fractured my nose at that age - pretty sure meaning, my little brother did a flip on to me while I was under water in a pool on vacation and I cracked my nose off of the bottom of the pool, it bled and was swollen, I also got the black and blue eyes, but my Mom said it didn't look broken so I never went to the hospital or got an x-ray... -

Regardless, it was never the same after that. A small bump appeared on the bridge (from the injury or just growing...? I'm not quite sure). It became harder to breathe out of the left side of my nose and I also began having more sinus issues and infections/head colds than ever before. Besides the health issues, I was teased in school like many before me, for having a 'big pointy nose like a bird'...
The dislike for my nose became hatred, and then it became a full blown obsession. [BTW~ for the zodiac lovers out there, I'm a Virgo, which have the tendency to be super OCD about things and are the most hopeless perfectionists]
Every time I look in the mirror, it's the first thing I look at and all I can see. I supposedly 'imagine it to be much worse' than what it is... but it has bothered me and effected my self esteem for years now. I had been to 3 previous consultations spanning from 2008-now, so it hasn't left my mind and remains a problem in my life.
Now, when you see my pics, don't get me wrong, I think I'm a pretty young woman, and I don't mind at all how I look from the front, its any other angles that perturb me...
When I shoot music videos or have photoshoots done, I'm painfully aware and anxious of my angles which makes the shoots way less fun. Often times I require that certain scenes be cut or pictures deleted because I hate how my nose looks so much. A lot of my projects turn out great...but most of the time b/c I stress out and make sure no photo/video gets in to anyone elses hands before mine, and I'm tired of that anxiety.
Remember, pretty girls are people and have insecurities too, whether you find a reason for us to have them in your mind or not :]

Basically, my idea is to have my bump shaved down and put a very slight curve "swoop/slope" whatever, in the bridge, and then possibly make the tip less pointy and more rounded so it doesn't project out as far. [The tip I am still very unsure what I want to do with yet] I hope to gain self esteem when it comes to my profile, breathe easier, and overall be happier in doing my work.
I've asked a bunch of close friends and some family members their opinion, and almost all of them said they don't think I 'need' it and 'it's your face, if you think it will make you feel better about yourself, go for it'...overall very indifferent... which has been driving me crazy because I'm indecisive as hell! I really wanted input.. and ideas about the tip since I really don't know what exactly I want to do with it...
My best friend and boyfriend said to keep it pointy because 'having a pointy nose is just, you' ...but what if I don't want to be 'just me' forever..? UGH !
I don't want to look very different from the front, just a little more feminine and less 'sharp' from angles and the side profile...
I had digital imaging done at my consult with Dr.Chiu and I liked it but something about the super rounded tip just gave me the 'I don't know about that' feeling when I got home and started really worrying about the whole thing since I signed the papers and now the procedure is a reality for me..
I'd love to hear your thoughts on my situation though, thanks to whoever started this site, and I'll be updating with text and pics as my surgery approaches !
My preOp visit is on Aug 4 so I will have to make a decision about the tip that day!

There is a before and after pic that I will post {which was made by ME on an online pic editing site that now no longer exists} and that's an example of what I think I really want...
I don't want my nose to look 'fake' and the changes will be subtle.. I do think it is what I need to feel confident about my overall facial appearance..
AHHH decisions, decisions.