Septo-rhinoplasty 2 months (most stressful experience ever!)

I can't believe it has been one year since my rhinoplasty. Actually 13 months. I'm still very unhappy and feel just so depressed with my results, looks like I will need a revision. It has been the most stressful year and my self esteem just completely plummeted. I was probably more confident before, something I would have never imagined. It seems I removed my pictures from the review, and I really don't feel like uploading them again. I know I need a revision but I am completely terrified to go through this again, I feel just so upset with everything. I was very hopeful about my results. I haven't even seen my surgeon since 6 months ago bc I feel way too upset. I have an appointment later this month. I know we will talk about revision bc I am much too unhappy with my current situation. However, I'm hesitant of undergoing surgery with the same surgeon. That is my crappy update. I'm not ready to start looking for surgeons though so, I will see how much longer I can try and keep myself sane. I'm just too upset.

It's been 10 months and am still upset about the results. At the beginning I had hope that it would get better once swelling disappeared but just got worse as all the problems/imperfections became more noticeable. Not only that but my breathing is pretty crappy, very congested and to make it worse I also have scar tissue on the inner wall of my nostril. The nostrils btw look more flared. The tip is crooked and large. It's very sad and disappointing am still not seeing certain family bc of it. I'm embarassed. Surgeon has propose a revision of which terrified. All in all it has been a horrible experience and I'm at an ultimate low which is affecting my relationship with closed ones... :-( would you trust your surgeon w a revision? Don't know what to do.

So I had another follow up with my surgeon- The dent is very obvious now...so I have the option of getting a filler. He uses Restylane but I will have to wait for that another 3 months. My other option is waiting a year and having another surgery where he will use some of my cartilage from septum (AHH) to build up where the dent is. I'm so sad about it and tbh I'm scared to go through with anything else. I have a long time to think about but even the fillers scare me. I really wish I would just have good results and never look back on this... I've taken off my pictures because it's not getting better...and it makes me more sad seeing the old pictures and remembering how hopeful I still was.... I'm still avoiding as many people that I can and I'm just really disappointed that the only thing I have ever really wanted, I didn't get. I don't want to fall in the revision loop. I'm such an emotional mess at the moment. I probably won't be updating too much especially if there is no good news. I'm even thinking of moving..yep. that crazy. That is my vent for now....I think I'm 2.5 months so it's early but at this point you know what's wrong. I mean I won't complain about the size and my nose tip bc thlat could still change. It's sad that only 2.5 months after I'm already having a discussion for further surgery. How can one wait 9-10 months? The worst thing is that I can't even regret my rhinoplasty bc there was no way of me knowing this would happen and it's the risk I took. It's really sad that growing up in this society being made fun for so long drives you to do such crazy things, risk your life, your emotional state. :( :( I hate this "beauty" image that we fall victims to... sorry for the vent. It's been a long day....