23 Year Old Considering Rhinoplasty - Argh Should I Do This? - Chatswood, AU

Just a before and after photo of me that I did myself based on what I'm looking for..hoping this is possible and not too far fetched.

The appointment I've been obsessing over for the past long couple of weeks was this morning with Dr. Shahidi. He is a lovely man and I can tell he does care for his patients. I am just surprised how it all unfolded, completely opposite to what I expected. I walked in there super prepared with all my questions and such. He sat me down and asked me what I did for work and if I had discussed my motivation to get rhinoplasty with anyone. He then went on to check my nose externally and internally and then took some photos. While the photos were uploading to his computer, he looked through my questions and said the majority of the answers are available on his app. He then went on to tell me that he rates my nose a 7/10 at the moment, and at best he will only be able to make it a 8/10 (10 being perfection and he said there is no such thing)..so based on this he does not consider me a good candidate for surgery as the risks outweigh the benefit. I've had a good few hours to digest this..and I still cannot understand. To me my nose is big, and I thought it could be improved. I'm so deflated and disappointed and..well I dont know what to do :( I never thought I had a big nose until I realised after some time that the comments about it had reached about 5 since high school. One from a friend, 3 from family members, an ex boyfriend..so it's not entirely all in my head. Dr Shahidi said that people will always talk and I need to learn to shut the comments out. He even suggested I talk to a psychologist :(
Am I going crazy guys???? Can you please look at my photos and tell me??