Breast Implant Removal: Stories

Hi,
first I want to say that my english might be not perfect, but I will do my best.
I got my implants in, May 2010.
425ml Silicon under the muscle.
I used to be a 32C, now I am a 34E, some bras 34F.

I am not sure why I choose to get them in, probably to make me feel better, I went through a difficult time.
I never did feel better, just big and fat, and heavy.
Just weeks after the implant I started not liking them, I was allways trying to hide them. It was hard to join the fitness classes, I was used to join, so I gained weight.

All I want is to get them out of me, this feeling of having them moving inside me is aweful. I am at a point where I can say, I am hating them. I want them out.

I am very scared what I am going to have left, but I know for sure, i don't want to live with what I am now.
I know now, that I just want to be me, and like myself as I am.

I had my pre-op on the 6th this month, and the removal is planned for the 22nd of November.
I have chosen to do it with just local anaesthesia, does anyone have had it done like that?

So today I talked to the nurse, she had a few questions and did let me know a few things....and it made me even more nervous.
We talked about having it dome with just local anaesthetic, and insured me that it will be Ok, even if I am awake. So thats good.

Its now 9 days before surgery, and I get more and more anxiety. I wake up at night asking myself what people will think and say. Not that it should matter, because its my body, but I still do think about that.

Especially what my husband will say. He was against them in first place, but probably more because of the huge amount of money that it cost...well i am not sure he ever liked them, but I don't know. Asking him now, he just sais that it is my body, thats all on answer I get, which makes me feel lost.
And that is why it is so good to stay connected with you all, and so helpful. I don't think I would have had the courage to remove them, if I wouldn't have found all of you...thank you for every one of you, you all are so strong and brave!
When I found this side, I started crying, went down to my daughter (20 years old) and said: I am getting them out!!! I was never so happy and sure about anything in my life, I said I am not the only one, I thought I am the only.

And here I am just a little over a week away form it, and each of you, have helped me! Thank you!

Its now only 3 days away, and my emotions are up and all over the place.
This morning my husband said to me, soon there going to be small again...and I had so much joy in my heart visualizing me like that, so much that I smiled full of joy.
I don't think he meant it as an compliment, because he also said that they will be stretched out, but I couldn't care less at this moment, all I want is this pressure and movement of this bags out of me.

I don't know how its going to turn out, because I let my PS remove some of the fat in my left breast ( how stupid of me) the left breast was bigger, so he said well I will remove a little of the fat there, and I thought its OK, I wish I wouldn't have, he remover 60cc, thats I think a lot, and I am very scared that its going to show, but I still want to be brave and go for it, because it is what I wish for myself out of the deepest of my heart :)

Less then 24 hours left, and I have all those thoughts going trough my mind, and the anxiety ist very high.
I feel happy and nervous at the same time.

I am so thankful that I found this side, and all of you. And so thankful for all the support I get, it helps to know I am not alone.

Thank you for all of you that posted pictures, I hope I will be brave enough to do that to.

Hi Girls,

its the day after surgery, and there OUT and I am flat as a pancake, but couldn't be happier.
My girls look so wrinkly and ugly, but I don't think I was ever so happy, because there are mine, and soooo soft, I keep touching them.
For everyone out there thinking about removing them...DO IT!!!
Its like having a ton of something removed from your chest. I woud like to hug you all for being brave and putting up the "after" pictures, that gave me so much strength to go for it, I don't think I would have done it without you beautiful and brave women!

I am took pictures too, for all of you that are not sure, I only want to say: GO FOR IT, its worth it.

I am so happy!!!
:)

My surgery went very well, I had only a sudation, so I was awake all the time, and had chats with my anesthetist, I didn't feel any pain though during. It was much easier to not to "wake up" after a full anesthetic, so for all of you who consider that, it is definatly worth it.
I am not taking any pain meds, I guess my happy hormons are helping me to not to have to much pain, its very good manageable.

Just posted pictures, but all upside down, Don't know why that happened, put them in the right way. Don't know how to change that...sorry

Its been over 2 weeks now, and I am posting two pics. I am still very happy I got those things out.
I think the looks is improving.

I have a lot of trouble with my muscles thou, when I move my arms, the lower part of my breasts gets so squeezed up, that feels weird, and it looks even weirder. looking at it, it looks like the lower part of my breast is missing and all scrambled up on the top.

My PS said I have to go back to surgery, and he will cut the lower part of my muscle and separate it from the upper part. That has to e done under full anesthetic. So if I have to go back, I was thinking to get fat grafting, so fat taken from my body and put it into my breasts, so I can fill out the empty space.

So my questions are.
Did anyone of you have the same problem with there muscles?
Has anyone of you have had the fat graft done?

Thank you

I am going back to surgery on thursday the 10th of January.

The reason for it that my muscles are lifting all my breast tissu up when I make any movement. It feels very uncomfortable, its what I didn't like about having implants in, and now 6 weeks later it still does that.
It not only feels weird, it also looks akeward...I added a photo to show what I mean, its the last one that I posted....lol

The lower part of the muscle has to be cut apart from the upper part, as much as I understood my PS.
I am sad that I have to go back, but now that I am going back, I have choose to get fat grafting done on my breasts as I am going to be under full anesthetics anyways, I thought I might as well try it as now my surgeon does offer it.

I had the reconstruction of my breast muscles, on both sides, done yesterday, the surgery was almost 3 hours, but that included the fat transfer from my upper legs to my breasts. All together there are about 10 small cuts where the fat was harvest from, and that is where the most pain also comes from.

My breasts are swollen and have a funny colour, my legs are covered in dark purple.

I am in a lot of pain, and have to take meds, where I didn't have to take any after my BA removal, over all it looks good, but big after being so small again. But they will get smaller , its the swelling right now.

I will try and post pictures tomorrow.

Today is a good day, I don't take pain meds, walking hurts, but its OK. I have put up an picture, its very swollen, and I know I have to wait about 6 months for the final result, but just wanted to share, in case someone is interested.
I am not quit sure how much fat my PS put in, but I will ask him on tuesday when I have my follow up appointment.