32 with 14 year old implants..

I have my first consult May 8th. I'm still...

I have my first consult May 8th.
I'm still undecided. In my head I'm doing this, and I'm doing this tomorrow... But then I'm scared of so many things. I don't want pain, I don't want to be put under, what will I look like after, will my husband still find me attractive, will I feel better about myself, most importantly will my health improve.
I was 18 years old, I saved my own money and went and got my implants. I was certain this is what I wanted. My whole life up to that moment I was teased for being so skinny, I would hide myself in big baggy clothes, wished I looked like anyone else but myself. The people who would talk with me and be nice would ask "wow, do you diet? you are so skinny?" and honestly that hurt just as bad as people telling me I looked like a bag of sticks. I'm 5'7" and 105 lbs, I do not diet, I do not exercise. It is me and this is how I am. I thought for some reason if I had implants then maybe I would fit in.
The past 14 years I've gone through a number of unexplained pains, body aches. I am now married to my everything, he's been with me before I even had implants and says he loved me before them and will love me after they are gone. I have two beautiful girls and want to be a role model for them. As women we shouldn't need boobs to feel secure about ourselves. This site has really opened up my eyes. Reading everyone stories and seeing how beautiful we really are without fake plastic inside us. It really is inspiring.
I am hoping by writing I can do the same. Also it looks like I will be needing general support through this chapter in my life.

Before BA

Appointment today

My husband is coming with me. I'm not sure if I can do this... And this is only to talk with the doctor!

My consult

Hi girls. :)
I went for my consult last week and just been trying to figure it all out in my head. It went very well, I saw Dr. Paul Smith and he was so understanding. I felt he really cared about what I want. I loved he didn't even try to talk me into any decision (replacement) I was ready to defend why I wanted them out and instead he just sat there and talked with me. I am hopefully going to use him this fall!
And I say FALL :( as much as I want these out tomorrow. My husband and I worked so hard to get out of and stay out of debt. We don't have the cash to do the removal yet. I set myself a goal to save the $ by October. Also I figure while I recover it will not be bikini weather.

Still waiting

I've told a few people that I have implants and want them removed. Oddly the two that didn't know I had them are shocked and said I look amazing and should keep them! Totally was not what I expected. I'm not keeping them! I want them out! Almost daily I imaging all the ways I can lay without bags in me... I can jog without holding my tits in my arms! I can cuddle with my girls without feeling my fake bags between us!! I hate having these big tits!

Question...

I'm wondering how hard the recovery is. I was barley 18 when I got these things.. I know I was in so much pain for weeks, but at that time I had an infection and SOO many complications.
This time it's just a removal.. Under the muscle.. Please let me know any thoughts on this. I have a 14 month old at home and I know I can't ignore picking her up for to long.

My dream boobies

14 yr old implants

My 14 year old implants

Sorry.. Photos.

So I posted a few pictures but keep getting cold feet and removing them. I'm embarrassed of my before pictures. I hate them. I keep telling myself this can help others but I hate them so much I don't want others to see... :(
I'm trying to get courage to post pictures and leave them.

Waiting...

I'm still waiting but now I have a removal date!!! August 28th!! I have 5 days off to recover before going back to work. I can't really think about much else at night. Before bed I lay there and sometimes freak myself out. I will go on some of the girls pages about having them removed and it helps me sleep. I need to post pictures again and not delete them!

These are not mine but my dream ones

So I posted then deleted this picture before. These are my dream ones!

Here we go..

17 days left till my surgery!!! Here we go.. My count down starts, I can't even sleep anymore. I hate the idea of surgery and recovery. I get more and more pissed at myself for even getting these fake bags in me. I wasn't thinking!

Before removal

16 days to go! I'm finally ok with posting pictures. I know it only benitfits others.
Thank you ladies!

Tomorrow!

Wow.... Tomorrow is my day of removal (8.28) I'm checking in at 9:00 am.. I'm so numb over this. I really don't know how to feel. I have no thoughts at all about what I will look like anymore. I just want the surgery and recovery to go smooth. All I'm worried about is how sore I will feel.

It's done

Going home to sleep. It's done

Day 1....

I'm not sure how to feel. I'm excited but I'm not looking down much.

Day three..

So I'm loving the way I feel without my implants in. I'm just not liking how I look. And I know it will get better but damn, I'm so mad I've done this to my body.

I know...

No change but here's day 4 :)

Post op today

I went to my follow up. I'm told everything looks great. I never said anything about my surgery. It went very well, I was up and holding my 18 month old daughter two days after. No pain, no drains, no stitches, he didn't even have me wrapped in anything when I woke up. :)

No change.

Almost been two weeks, I don't see any change but I feel so much better.

Hi girls

Been a few weeks, my boobs are getting better looking. They don't wrinkle as much. But I swear they are still shrinking. I do not even fit a 32A.
Oh well.. At least I feel better and I'm healthy. :)

Hi girls

Been a few weeks, my boobs are getting better looking. They don't wrinkle as much. But I swear they are still shrinking. I do not even fit a 32A.
Oh well.. At least I feel better and I'm healthy. :)

Photo

Trying to add a photo but it's getting stuck. I'll try this one more time.

Photo

Trying to add a photo but it's getting stuck. I'll try this one more time.

My first

Here's my first swim suit! I feel goodbut still nervous to wear it in front of people who don't know I had an explant. We have a big pool party this weekend and a bunch of my co worker (men) will be there.

No change...

I don't see any change yet but here's a peak at my girls. :)

My girls.

I'm not even a full A cup.. Not much change.

I'm a 32 B!

I went to VS and they sized me at a 32 B.. I bought two bras and loving life with my tiny tots.

Areola peeled

so I found it really odd... Last night before my shower, I noticed how dark my areolas were getting. I rubbed it hard and noticed thick skin coming off. I ended up spending about an hour peeling both sides. Now I wonder if it's happen to anyone else? It didn't hurt and now my nips are a pretty pinkish color... I also notice they don't look as wrinkled.
Tampa Plastic Surgeon

I loved my experience with Dr.Smith, he is very comforting and never pressured me into replacement.

5 out of 5 stars Overall rating
5 out of 5 stars Doctor's bedside manner
5 out of 5 stars Answered my questions
5 out of 5 stars After care follow-up
5 out of 5 stars Time spent with me
5 out of 5 stars Phone or email responsiveness
5 out of 5 stars Staff professionalism & courtesy
5 out of 5 stars Payment process
5 out of 5 stars Wait times
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