I pray for an easy and fast recovery, so i don't have to deal with "i told you so" looks...
Having BA hasn't always interested me, even though it was a topic of many discussions since I was in late teens. But it was more like a discussion of girls with curly hair wishing their hair were straight. I was born and raised in Eastern Europe where it is a norm to be tall, slim and flat. So I've never felt inadequate. Plus, I've always enjoyed attention from boys and felt proportionate at 115 lbs. I am not sure at what point my interest in BA turned into an actual want, but it did. And in the past two years not only I haven't changed my mind, but started to have nightmares where I wake up looking for my breasts and getting scared not finding any:) Hence, this journey. I do need to add that in the past few years I started to exercise more with more weights (I'm up to 5 lbs, lol) and my arms and shoulders became a little bigger. I'm still 32 B bra, which is deceiving, since I am closer to AA than A, but cups in those are too close together. Lately my massive VS bras started to irritate to the point where I would wear them OVER a tank top (w/o them I'm too flat) my biggest satisfaction will be to purge "Miraculousness" out if my draws! I've always worn large bras, so unless I'm wearing a bikini, most will not notice the change.
My surgery is May 21.
My stats: 5'7", 120 lbs. 30-25-33. 37 mother of 2, breastfed both, but my chest size didn't change even during that, not a lot of skin to work with. Have my pre-op May 15. I'm starting with small A-cup and my goal is to fill C-D bra cup (breast size B-C) I haven't had my official "fitting", but the PS brings 6 different sizes into the OR to see what looks most natural. So far he recommended mod+, under muscle, periariolar incision and said that will bring in sizes starting at 275... I want to look natural, but don't want to go through this and wish I've gone bigger.
So far, I've seen girls that have a similar starting point as me end up looking amazing with 250's and with 400's, so I will have to trust my PS to make the right decision OR (Scary). I'm just worried that I didn't communicate my expectations clearly, or he heard a different story. I think I'm more scared to end up bigger, than smaller.
I work part time behind computer and not worried to go back to work, am concerned about the drive to/from which is 40 minutes each way. Just in case, I'm planning to take 12 days off.
My biggest concern right now is how to tell my two middle-school-aged-boys who express interest in breasts... So far I'm leaning toward not telling anything until the day of the surgery (no point of worrying them), and just tell them that I'm getting a "female problem taken care of"... Anyone has recommendations for me?