Mommy Makeover- almost 2 yrs PO- new pics, belly button touch up

I am 25 years old (will be in 2 days) and I have 2 children. My son is 4 1/2 and my daughter is 1 1/2. I am 5'10" and about 165lbs. Bra size 36B, Pants size 10, tops S-M. I have a curvy body, wide hips and thicker thighs. Ill post before pics soon as i get a chance.

I Had my first child when I was 20, and it took a toll on my body! I have always been tall and curvy but somewhat slim up top. I guess my skin didnt take well to carrying a 9 1/2 lb baby! And my boobs got HUGE (bought a nursing bra from a boutique in cup size F!! And I was a pre pregnancy B cup). After having my son and nursing for a little while I did the hcg diet and lost 30lbsd in 6 weeks going from 185lbs to about 155lbs and I looked and felt great! Except for the stretch marks and extremely loose skin! Ive hated my naked body ever since I gave birth to my son. Had my second baby 3 years later- she was also close to 9 1/2 lbs but no aditional damage to my body was done because i was already all stretched out :-) But I did gain all the weight back then.

I nursed my daughter for a while too and with her my breasts got even bigger than with my son, especially when I quit nursing! The size of my boobs after they became engorged was unhuman! HAHA it almost scared me to look in the mirror. Anyway I think my boobs turned out a little saggier still but i didnt realize it til i dropped the baby weight (which took alot longer the second time around) by doing low carb/whole foods and being patient. I lost 35lbs and my cup size dropped from a C to a B, leaving more loose skin. My daughter is now 1 1/2 and I am down to my normal weight of about 165lbs (Still trying to lose the last 10-15, but if not im very happy where i am). Ive been SO unhappy with my body for almost 5 years, finally got the money and made the appt.



Went to my consultation only yesterday! I was expecting the price of the TT and BA together to be much more so I was pretty sure i would only be getting the BA for now. Well to my surprise it was around $10,000. My husband had said if we could get it done for that amount then it would be fine. Otherwise Id have to choose one or the other for now. SO I was ecstatic to get the price yesterday! Came home immediately and showed my husband the paper work. I called this morning and scheduled my appt for surgery for January 19th!! SO SOON! YAY...

Post OP is scheduled for January 3rd. Cant wait to do the sizing and have my husband there to get all the info on the procdures and what to expect. He will be taking some time off work to take care of me and the kids, and possibly my mother in law if I still need help after he goes back to work.



I only went to one PS, but I LOVED him and his staff. They are awesome! SO nice and knowledgeable and they make you feel right at home and its a very comfortable setting. I didnt feel shy like i thought i might. My friend had went there and her boobs and body look great! He does good work and has a good reputation.



My reasons for doing this are: I dont feel comfortable even being naked in front of myself! lol... When I get out of the shower, I look away from the mirror until I cover up. I dont like my husband to see me naked and I feel SO self conscious even though he is amazing and tells me 10x a day how beautiful and sexy I am, and that he wishes I could see myself through his eyes (so sweet!)... I tell him thank you and I believe you when you say that, and it means a lot to me- but its me who is unhappy with myself. Im doing it so that I will feel good again and feel sexy. I guess im totally doing this for me. The way my body look and the way I feel about it has really impacted our sex life too. I think once I get this done, our sex life will be much better. Our sex life is good and a lot of times GREAT, but my self consciousness really hinders me at times! Sometimes I just have moments where I feel totally disgusted with myself and think HOW can he look at this mess of a body I have? I have come to accept it and be ok with it for the most part, but that doesnt mean im not gonna jump on the chance to change it!



Anyway I realize it wont take all my stretch marks or be miraculous. I do have realistic expectations and definately not striving for perfection here, just improvement.



My feeling about this are:

*Guilt! haha I keep having lots of feeling of guilt for spending so much money on myself! But hey we actually have it right now and this could be the only chance I have.



*Nervous- Im a little nervous of complication but really not too bad! Mostly Im worried about the pain and recovery time but i do have a high pain tolerance (had my second child at home, water birth- no meds! Thought it was relatively easy haha.) Its just I have two small children. But i also have an amazing husband! He even took 3 weeks off work when both of our kids were born and took care of everything while I recovered and nursed all day and night.



*Excited!! Im excited but im also not letting myself get too excited until the actual day is here and im waking up in the recovery room! Thats just my pessimistic side.



PS- Ive been stalking this site for a couple years now haha.. Its been very helpful!! So I plan on writing and posting picture throughout my journey, so maybe it will help others because ive definately enjoyed having stories to read of what to expect and pics of before and after.



Well that about sums it up! Ill post some before pics when I get my husband to take some later.

Got some befores to post.. Cant believe I actually had my husband take these! LOL I guess im ok because i know i wont look like this for long.. The one of me bending over is especially repulsive. THAT is why I cannot be on top with the lights on hehe all that skin just flapping around yikes.



*Question-- PS says he thinks I can get away with not doing a lift. Now that I see the pics they are saggier than i even thought! But hes the expert... Id like to get him to reduce the size of my areola and that would also give me a little bit of lift.. I wonder what the extra cost to that is. Anyone know? My nipples got HUGE when I had kids. With the implants i think theyll really look massive. Plus they got all misshapen, the pigment is really splotchy toward the outside of the areola..

Went to my Pre-op today! everything went good.. I tried on 500cc, 450cc, 425cc, and 400cc... We all talked about it and thought the 450cc looked good. But then the Dr came in and was saying that the largest he will go is 500cc and that he always fills them about 50cc over when placing it under the muscle- for corrective purposes.. I realize 500cc sound CRAZY right? My husband and I had talked after the sizing and both decided it would be ok to go down to the 425cc and maybe even the 400cc. So when the Dr said that, I said i'll compromise. Im not looking for a HUGE chest at all. So we decided 425cc filled to 475cc on the left and 460cc on the right. Im still thinking and Im gonna look around at some more pics and think about it some more..
Surgery is in 15 days!!! Yikes!
Got all my perscriptions written out. I have to give myself a shot of a blood thinner for 10 days, sounds a little scary to me! But he said its kind of a cautionary thing. Blood thinner can increase the risk of bleeding but it would be better than getting a clot because thats very very serious.
This tummy tuck thing has had me nervous all along! Im still nervous but just hoping it all turns out fine..
Im worried about my boobs turning out lopsided for some reason.. I guess its because they already are.. I have more rib prominance on the left but more tissue and sag on the right.. So gonna have to try to correct that.

Anyway. Thats all for now.. Im gonna go do some reaserach on sizes and things to figure out if i wanna go that high.. I AM 5'10" and I have very wide hips, so I know i can go bigger and still look very natural.