I regret ever getting surgery - confused and depressed

I am still traumatized about my surgery. I am probably never going to get surgery again and just try to live and move on with this body at this point. I came into consultation having very minimum expectation and goals. I requested to have fat transfer to the flatter side and came out with an uneven, bumpy, and even more noticeable flatness to one of my cheeks. My stomach was not too big to begin with and now ended up with weird, disfigured result. I should have kept my body the way it was but now I have to live with this.

I recently had a tummy tuck/bbl revision Dr.A and I'm pretty disappointed with my results. I'm honestly confused and depressed to see the body i came home with. My 2 goals in getting these procedures were to achieve a flatter stomach and to fill out the areas of flatness in my butt with a bbl. However, I came out of surgery with an even more noticeable flatter right cheek, bumpy surface on my butt, and a stomach that looks like everything was squeezed to the middle leaving me with a fatty, sagging skin in the center of my tummy. I really regret ever getting surgery. Now I am stuck with a botch body and I'm more than ever body conscious. I'm embarrassed to show my stomach, to wear body fitted dress, and even leggings. The dent on my butt is so noticeable that when i wear hugging pants or leggings it will show a big bumpy dent on my right cheek. I am stuck with going through the healing process due to both bbl and tummy tuck being very major surgeries at same time but counting each day knowing my body is messed up. My ribcage hurts and it's hard for me to breath due to the tightness of my lateral side tummy skin being pulled together , but the center of tummy is bundle up with fat, uneven saggy skin. I honestly want to die at this point. Imagine paying money and going through surgery having to go through the healing process dealing with difficulty breathing, pain, body consciousness but just to get a BOTCHED body at the end. At this point if I get hit by a car and die ..it is better than living like this.