Happy ending to a terrible recovery -Toronto, ON

I grew up being teased on a daily basis. My nose was one of the things they pointed out, it is not only crooked, bumpy, but it has a very bulbous tip. Kids can be merciless.
As a result I have a lower self-esteem than I should, and I miss how small and straight my nose was when I was a little kid.
I don't hate my nose, but I would love to feel better about it.
I have had lots of people think I've broken my nose at some point- which I actually don't think I have. I have my dad's nose. I wish I had my mom's nose- small and feminine! It seems like having a pretty, feminine nose is a faraway dream.

I had surgery to fix my deviated septum at some point. The doctor said it was one of the worst cases he'd ever seen. But it's still crooked even after the surgery! I did not have rhinoplasty done at this time, and I'm sort of glad I didn't- there are no rhinoplasty specialists here.
I remember the recovery time and imagine that rhinoplasty will be similar, except they'll be breaking my face (Ouch) but I still have knots in my stomach, worried about the surgery.

I have always tried to tell myself that I didn't need plastic surgery and that I was beautiful without it...
The main reason I haven't considered the surgery until now (i'm in my late twenties!) is because I was afraid of my family's judgement, and felt extremely guilty about spending money on myself for aesthetic purposes.
I found this website and found I'm not alone in these feelings. I feel very grateful to have the opportunity to do something like this, and decided to share my journey in hopes of obtaining some support and hopefully helping someone as well.

As for what my friends and family think... I have told very few what I am planning and am receiving support and help from them, which is making the whole process a lot less terrifying.
My boyfriend thinks I'm beautiful and that I don't need the surgery, but is supportive of what I want for myself, to my great relief.

I have booked a consult with Dr. Rival in Toronto. I have done a lot of research and I love his aesthetic sense so I believe he will end up being my surgeon.
I will post how my consult goes (In January) and update as to when the procedure will be done (Probably May-June).

I spoke with Dr. Rival over the phone, (I am out of town) he was very friendly and helpful, and we seemed to see eye to eye on things.
His receptionist Nadia was very friendly as well.

I'll probably be booking my procedure tomorrow as I would like to go over some of the details with my boyfriend first.
There is a private clinic for an additional cost that I may end up paying for, as I don't really want a long drive after my surgery.
I've been given some dates, I'll be shooting for May.

I think the prospect of planning the whole trip and staying in a different city than my own is more anxiety provoking than the procedure itself!

I have booked my surgery date for the 6th of May. It doesn't feel real quite yet, and it's hard to wrap my head around...
I suppose it'll feel more real once I've booked the hotel and flights as well.
Guess it's time to start getting ready and doing my research!