41 and Finally Ready... - Toronto, ON
I'm finally too tired to think about getting my...
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I thought I was seeing several surgeons in order to chose the person whom I felt most comfortable with. I recently saw hacker and asaria to finish my search. Fortunately I liked them both. Unfortunately they had completely different opinions about the plan to fix my nose. One said open one said closed. One thought de projection was necessary and grafts were not. The other said no deprojection but certainly grafts. Argh! I can chose a person to like best, but I don't feel qualified to make a decision about which procedure is right for me. I'm going to email them about these discrepancies. I was hoping to book for January.
Booked and Ready
I'm still scared. I'm scared that it will make me look wierd. I'm scared I'll Criticize my new nose, even more than I do my current beak. I'm actually worried that it will still be a big nose AND that it will be overdone! Nonsence. What if it's nice from the side but then sucks from the front? That would be worse right? Now, I don't let people see my profile. But imagine how much worse it would be to avoid eye contact!!!
I keep telling myself that most people are happy with their results. 84% right? & I try to remind myself that my nose is a common one, and my surgeon has done loads of noses just like mine. I'll be freaking out as I'm going in. For sure. But my goal is to settle down and stay positive. I'm gonna try and work through the fears and just de-stress. I'm thankful for all the posts about how to prepare. Frozen peas are a favorite!! And of course the neck pillow. Well that's my update. Now I'll go back to reading and I'll type in again in a month. Bye!!
Who got a final appointment?
Should I call back and ask to book one? I was looking forward to it. I'm not sure it's really Necesary. Help!
Booked for a Pre Op visit
I'm in Dr hackers office
Its very busy. Im in no rush, and he's in demand, so I guess that is a good thing. By the looks of the crowd they are here for inner ear operations or something, because they all have perfectly fine noses. Some are seniors and some children. Call me a stereotyper, but I don't think the Sikh man is here to improve his look. Anyway, I appear to be the only patient in need of a rhinoplasty. And I've been thinking, and reading and it seems that tip work is the main point of contention for most real selfers. I'm thinking about keeping my tip. Any thoughts??
I know it's not perfect.
Shave the bridge?
But what about the tip? Should I leave good enough alone, in order to speed healing and avoid any of the many complaints I've read about here?
Or have it refined?
I'm having loads of trouble with updating and messaging too. Not sure why. It keeps telling me to try again then erases my typing. Argh!
Last minute tips??
Did anyone start taking anything early?
I did it. I made it. I'm ok.
Day 2. Feels like 3.
A few tips for you...
And thd next one, oh it's good! Ok, they tape gauze to your cheeks. It hurts like hell to pull it off. It makes your skin all red and irritated and the gummy part of the tape stays even after the ouch of tearing it away! Here's the gold: take a shower cap and cut the hat part away, leaving just the head sized elastic band with a little plastic for extra comfort ;)
Put it over your head and hold gauze drip pad in place while guiding each side over an ear. Voila!
I'm loving icing. I ice regularly. My hotel Mimi fridge has only one setting; Way Too Cold, and so I'm using nearly frozen baby mush to ice my pallet. I hold it to the roof of my mouth with my tongue. It's truly lovely. Please get baby food squeeze pouches. They're manditory for post op.
Bruising is going and swelling is falling from my eye sockets, to my cheeks more now.
I'm staying another night at the hotel. Because I can't imagine being more relaxed anywhere else.
Type in regarding nose cleaning. I'm scared.
Skin changes after swelling
Does anyone know if that's normal. Does it go back to how it was? Did I maybe over ice? Frost bite? Freezer burn? Oh boy.
Cast comes off tonight. I'm on the edge of tears when I think about it. Splint removal that is. So I'm not thinking about it. Guess I'll pour myself another virgin piña colada. I like the sound that 6 ice cubes makes in a glass.
Cast is off.
Dr Hacker gets another 5/5 from me for being so wonderful and caring and patient (while dealing with my tantrum). And when I FINALLY settled down and left his treatment room, he said, "don't forget, you've got my email. You can get in touch with me any time"
Who does that?? I'm very grateful to have found him. (Thanks ;)
The result: Yet to be determined of course. I feel like it's a bit of a scam to call it a reveal. Like raising up the curtains to find out it's still hidden under a blanket.
The one thing I know is my nose won't look like this!! Haha
What I know: The bump is gone and I'm happy with how I think it might eventually look. I'm sure it will be good eventually.
Now it's bruised and swollen and crazily broken out. Yuk.
It works: can breath through both side. I do look a bit like a 'who' but the upturn will fall and the puffy cheeks will shrink. Ok ok.. The photo... I'll get a good one if I can. Hold.
So I'm 9 days post op now and it's hard. I want people to know that this is not easy. You get through the various challenges of each day and we support and encourage each other here, but it's still tough.
Ive started massaging my nose and I don't like it. I don't know how hard or how long or how often. I feel timid and fearful and, to tell you the truth, I'm turned off by it.
It's sore. I know some of the pain is just crusty old stiches poking me from the inside but it still counts as an Ouch.
I found it easier in the shower, than at the bathroom mirror, because all the water splashing on my face creates sensations and distracts me. I'm cleaning it now too. I don't like that either. I don't know if it's scabs in there I should leave alone or debris to get off. Omg.
My bruises are going. Going south that is. I have a blue, green, and yellow jaw line where the blood has moved into my jowels. I'm looking pretty yellow around the eyes and nose, and even my cheeks now. Follies of fair skin.
I'm going to rest today. Real rest. I've been acting like sitting on the couch chatting and texting is rest. But it's not. Not the healing kind i need. I'm putting my device away (after I get this dang website to post this) and reclining into my pile of pillows. Bag of frozen peas on my bedside table. Big water. Check! Oh I was reading that green leafy stuff, apples, citrus and capers are all good to reduce swelling. Sounds like a salad to me!
I've stopoed the perks and backed off the Tylenol a bit too. I'm not waking up in the night for a pill, or mouth breathing, so that's made for a much better sleep.
Even with the obvious improvements, Week 2 is giving me more grief than week 1. I'm not sure if it's because life is supposed to go back to some muted sort of normal routine or because I'm not high on perks, or what. In my head I know things are getting better and everything will be ok. It's just that I'm not "feeling" very good. no pics today. I'm a lump.
I remember reading on here about swelling, and how swelling is so crazy, and how it goes up-and-down throughout the day but what I didn't read on here is exactly what that means. I thought people were concerned about the way they looked but swelling is not just about getting bigger and smaller. What it really means is that one minute you feel good and the next you may need to sit down. It means there's a lot of things that you want to do that you can't, and then there's the emotional reaction to that reality. Sadness. Frustration.
I cried today for the first time since my surgery. I've been holding it in since split removal day. I wanted to cry then, but I couldn't because it hurt. It Hurts to laugh too. The nose squishes up and I've been in 'worry mode' about about how much movement and pressure the new nose can take. But today I bawled. It sounds like a sad story but it's not. I got it out. I'm learning that takes patience to be a good patient. I miss lying down flat with the side of my face on the pillow. I miss laughing and playing with and snuggling my kids. I miss my tasty food. People in my life want to plan for March break but I guess I'd better wait and see.
All that being said, and completely true, I'm actually doing pretty good. I'm eating well, I'm getting good sleep at night, my breathing is fine, I'm hitting all the marks as far as cleaning and massaging go.
I ice. I tape at night, just one steri strip across my bridge where the tip starts. I've learned that the massaging doesn't so much hurt, as it does just feel foreign. It's almost like a 'holy crap oh no help me it's going to hurt' type pain. Pre-pain. But I'm getting used to the sensation now and I'm doing okay. I'm happy with the result and I would do it again (if I hadn't already!) to get to the point Im at now. The only thing I'd do differently is booking a month at a chalet. Yes. That's my advice!
I enjoy coming in here to see how others are doing and is share more of it wasn't so frustrating to type it all in 3-4 times.
But I type test first to make sure things are uploading so forgive that. Bye for now.
I'm going to keep sleeping sitting up but I'm going to stop taping. I'm upping my arnica intake and staying on bromeline/turmeric. I'm juicing again. I've started a liver cleanse to counteract the internal effects of weeks on Percocet and Tylenol. I'm back!! But that doesn't mean I won't be whining about the hard parts ever again. I will. And I appreciate it friends. I'm keeping it all happy at home but when I start to crumble a little, I come straight here. It's been awesome.
My nose looked crooked yesterday. Today I noticed that my upturn, that is quite extreme for me, isn't dropping.
I quickly wipe the slate clean and refocus on my chores. Through my mind runs, "It's only a nose, who cares, it's only been 2 weeks, I'm not fixing it again, it could be worse, everything will be ok (repeat)
Two months post op.
Ok I'll just put up some pics and keep on choring. Next month I'm gojng full out and doing hair and make up for my close up. Great to pop in and check on you ladies. Keep it real.
Another month under my belt!
I Love it!!
And it's a good thing.
Since my finger doesn't got up my nostril any more!!! Hahahaha
4 1/2 months now I guess...
I hard bumped my nose thismorning and thought of all of you came rushing to mind!
Thank god these months have gone by to buffer me from the pain!
One Year (&1month) Update
2 YEAR UPDATE
Dr. Hacker is wonderful. I never had to wait, I was offered extra appointment time if I needed it, and his communication by email goes far above and beyond anything I have ever heard of. I found him to be caring, professional, and extremely knowledgable. During my initial consultation he spent more time going over the details of my case than was spent in all othe consults combined. He complimented the work of surgeons whom I had seen, and was scheduled to go and see. Dr. Hacker gave me a very realistic idea of what I could expect to achieve with rhinoplasty. What I appreciated most was that he listened. He asked me. He wanted to know what I liked about my nose and what I wanted to change. I'm grateful to the ladies on here that pointed me in his direction. Although I have nothing bad to say about the other 3 surgeons I visited, I will say Dr Hacker is in a different class. I'm hopeful about my results, which of course won't be fully revealed until a year from now. But I have a lot of faith in my choice of surgeon. I accidentally posted a star for aftercare, and it won't let me remove it. I will leave the info about payment and staff, until I go through that part! Best of luck to anyone, in any city, who is looking for a good surgeon!!