Breast Reduction...Toronto, ON

I went from being a skinny kid, maybe 60 pounds in June of grade 4, to a 100 pound D cup in September of grade 5. Needless to say, the transformation was traumatizing to me (although all the boys seemed to like it). Two kids and many years later (I'm 45), my breasts are a DDD (or F I guess its called - 36DDD/36F). I'm 163cm (5'5") and 70kg (160lbs). I am very muscular, and exercise (run, boot camp, step class, other aerobics) every day. These boobs have made me crazy over the years, and more than once I've thought about a reduction. The first time I *seriously* considered it, was about 5 years ago. I then had a breast cancer scare, and decided to keep what God gave me. Slowly but surely, the idea has crept back into my mind, and now I find myself thinking about the pros and cons day and night. I have an appointment with the PS (I've learned the lingo reading all your wonderful posts!) next week. I'm a nervous wreck. For now, I'd love to have a list of questions ready. Can you suggest a question that maybe you wish you had asked, or something that I should definitely ask? Thank you so much! I'll add more pictures at a later date. Sorry this one isn't clear! And yes my nipples have always been flat. Huge boobs, small flat nipples - go figure! :)

Well, another tick....consultation - done! I feel sick from nerves!

PS was nice enough, albeit seemed busy and a bit nonchalant. Or perhaps that was just my perception given that I was through the roof with nerves! He went over all the pros and cons, said I'd do great, and that I' be thrilled with the results, and then dropped a bomb - mentioned casually that he is conservative when removing breast tissue to ensure breast shape isn't compromised. I have aired my concerns to the patient coordinator - just waiting to hear back from her. My husband says I'm overreacting to his casual comment, that I don't want to be small anyway, after my whole life of being used to being so big, being small might be a huge shock and I may not like it. I don't know really. I don't want to be small but I definitely don't want the problems I have now - NO THANK YOU. I'll keep you posted....

And of course, the nerves...I am not a fan of surgery. Had three in one year a few years back, and feel guilty having elective surgery. But this isn't really elective, is it?

Lastly, here is a pic of me in my beautiful soft white cotton tshirt, that, after picture was taken, was promptly covered up by a giant scarf. I know you all understand...

I have told very few people about my plans. Most are very supportive - go for it, you'll be so much happier - that sort of thing. But my best friend is not being supportive at all. She says she is playing devils advocate, but the things she is saying I don't need or want to hear! I'm mostly upset by the "why would you take this risk (the risk of anesthetic, infection, etc etc) for something elective?" And then I spend all night obsessing....what if something happens to me, my kids are young and still need me, can't I just suffer with these?, maybe if I lost 20 pounds they'd be more manageable,....and then I think I'll not do it, I'm being selfish by wanting this....and finally fall asleep.

And then this morning, I put my mammoth sports bra on to go for a run, a measly 5km because any more and my bra rubs my skin raw, and I think, Lord, this is so uncomfortable, so wrong to feel this way, maybe i need to do this, or even just really want to. I just don't know what to do....