29yrs, 5'8, 120lbs, 32A - got silicone 385cc full profile Natrelle Inspiras, under muscle, thru fold, in Toronto

A little about myself...
I've been researching on RealSelf for a couple years now, and I'm finally starting my own journey. I am a small 32A, about 125lbs, and 5'9 so I'm fairly tall and skinny. My chest size has bothered me my whole adult life. I've been thinking about getting this surgery for over ten years, but wanted to make sure I felt ready to make the decision. Now that I'm about to turn 30, I feel like it's time. I would like to go to a full C cup. I've been mostly considering silicone cohesive gel, under the muscle, with infra mammary incision.

Now for the exciting stuff...
I booked my consultations back in January, but there was a bit of a wait and this week was the earliest I could get. So on Monday I saw Dr Jugenburg in the morning, and Dr Edelstein in the afternoon annnnnd I'm excited to say that I just booked my surgery with Dr Jugenburg!! It was a really tough decision, way harder than I thought it would be. Both doctors were great, no complaints. They're also quite different from each other. I had to sleep on it a couple nights before I could really decide, and I went back and forth a lot. I think either of them would do fantastic work, and I'm guessing I would probably be just as happy either way. Anyway now that I've made my choice and booked my surgery, I'm super excited. My date is just over a month from now, on April 29.

For any ladies that are looking into these doctors, I can tell you a little about my experience with them...

Dr Jugenburg's office is in the Fairmont Royal York in downtown Toronto (breast augmentation patients are able to spend the night after surgery at the hotel to recover, cost included in the procedure). When my husband and I first went in, we met with Kim who's the RN. She is very pleasant and easy to talk to. I've read many reviews on Dr J and they always mention Kim for this very reason. She started out by getting my history and an idea of what I might like - silicone vs saline. I told her I was thinking about silicone but wasn't sure. We had a discussion about that and I appreciated her input. I'm still deciding on what I want for sure... After a few minutes Dr J came in and went over my history before taking photos and measurements. He looked at my "wish boob" pics and talked about my goals as far as shape and size were concerned. He was pretty detailed in going over my measurements with me, talked about what would work best, and made sure my expectations were realistic. He was straightforward and to-the-point. He was attentive, answered all my questions, and most importantly: I felt like he knew exactly what I wanted and how to achieve it. I think it was this discussion about my goals (combined with Kim's amiability) that stuck with me and ultimately made me decide to go with Dr J. Next I tried on sizers with Kim's help. They gave me a couple options and they were pretty much exactly what I had in mind. I liked the Natrelle 330cc moderate profile cohesive gel implant. That was it for the appointment... Probably close to an hour long in total. It cost $200 that comes off the cost of surgery. I should also mention that a couple days later I had more questions... I emailed Kim and she responded within the hour. She offered to have me come by again (as many times as I would like) to speak with her or Dr J and try on the sizes again.

Now for Dr Edelstein .... His office is located in uptown Toronto near Avenue Rd and Lawrence. My husband and I first met with Dr Edelstein. He took my measurements and went over my medical history. We then went into his office and had a detailed discussion about the surgery itself - incision options, silicone vs saline, textured vs smooth, possible risks, etc. He was friendly, knowledgable, and answered all of my questions. It was very relaxed, we covered a lot of info and never felt rushed. Additionally he helped to put me at ease (I've been nervous about having surgery and anesthetic). As he said, "I've never had anyone not wake up"... I laughed. Next we met with his nurse, Heather, to try on sizing. Heather was very nice, and she was good to talk to because she has had the procedure done herself. They didn't have the Natrelle 330cc implants I had tried earlier, but I tried on many in that general range. That was the end. This cost $113, applicable to surgery fee. Overall I really liked Dr Jugenburg AND Edelstein, which made my decision really hard!!

Well that's all for now.... I finalized my surgery booking today with Dr Jugenburg's office, and I'm going back next week to try on sizing again with Kim. I've already booked my appointment with my family physician to have my physical and blood work done. Sometime this week I'm going to pick up a bra and make myself some rice sizers... Pretty excited!!

I will be sure to add photos soon.

This week has been an emotional roller coaster. I've had a few conversations with my family about the surgery, and they're very upset that I'm doing this. I come from a very modest family, and my father cannot understand why I would want this. He says it's all about vanity, and I should just be happy being natural. My mother is a little less vocal about her opinions, but she mostly agrees with my dad. Also she has this way (like moms do) of manipulating me into feeling bad when I do something against her wishes. My parents haven't done any research whatsoever on this surgery, but they've read all the horror stories in the news, and see that as the reality behind plastic surgery. They think I haven't adequately considered the risks, but they're wrong. I know about the possible complications, and they really do scare me. But I also know that implants and plastic surgery in general has come a long way since the 80's and 90's, and I've carefully chosen a surgeon that I think has the ability to give me a good result. My parents won't even look up the doctor online to check him out. They just refuse to be any part of this.

On the topic of complications... This week I've been researching nonstop... It's so hard to sort out valid information from skewed statistics and websites with their own agendas and biases. Some of the things I find online about complications are very anecdotal, and it's difficult to find solid information -- like the rates of capsular contracture or bottoming out over different time spans. I've gone back and forth whether I want silicone or saline... I'm leaning toward silicone, but I've read articles that say that even the new cohesive gel turns to liquid once in the body and will leak and spread through the body if the shell is ruptured (not sure I believe that, but how do I know what's true?!)... Then I've read that saline can grow mold?! UGHHH... I go from being super excited about my surgery, to absolutely dreading it.

On the other hand.... My husband is very supportive. He won't encourage me in either direction, because he wants it to be entirely my decision whether I have a BA, but he's actively involved in my research and comes to appointments with me. He's helped to calm me down a bit when I get really nervous.

I went back to the surgeon's office yesterday to try on sizers again... During my previous visit I liked the Natrelle 330cc moderate profiles, but after trying them again yesterday, I'm thinking about a little more profile. So now I like the 385cc high profiles. There's not too much of a difference but I like that they have a little more projection. Still thinking about what exactly I want to do.... Lucky I have lots of time before my surgery on April 29.

Well anyway here are some before pics, and a couple pics of me trying on sizers (330cc moderates and 385cc HP).

My surgery is one week today. This morning I had my last appointment before my surgery date. My husband and I met with the nurse, Kim, and went over sizing again. I have now decided on the 385cc Natrelle Inspira full profiles. I am very excited about my decision... I think the 330cc moderates would have been too small in the end, and I wanted a little bit more profile. Anyway Kim assured me that I wouldn't be going too big (I was nervous about that), and I think she's right. It's really not a huge difference between 330 and 385 anyway so I can't go too wrong! Over the past couple weeks I had somehow gotten myself more confused over different kinds of implants than ever before. Reading all these reviews online there's so many different terms for the same things (I guess depending on what manufacturer you go with) like full vs high or ultra high profile... lol how do I know what the difference is?! And I had learned that there are two different gel options for the round silicone Inspira implants. Anyway Kim helped clarify this all for me so that made me feel a lot better! Dr Jugenburg came in to answer any final questions, but Kim had already answered them all for me so I was just like "umm I'm good" lol. But I really appreciated that I had this last opportunity to meet with both of them and ease my anxiety. Right now I'm just super excited (but I'm sure I'll be nervous again closer to the day!!)