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How Could I Be Soooo Dumb???? - Toronto, ON
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At almost 44, and breast feeding two babies, my...
doopiesOctober 13, 2015
WORTH IT$2,500
At almost 44, and breast feeding two babies, my boobs looked deflated. They were ok in bras and with support, but unclothed , a bit sad.
So while visiting a plastic surgeon to explore possibilities for my cellulite, saddle bags and developing turkey neck, I began to consider putting some stuffing back in to my breasts.
I've never been one for augmentation. I've been very happy with my 34 Bs. I didn't want to be bigger, just have the contents restored to their former state.
In my mind, I thought of very tasteful ba's like some models or celebrities have...like Gisele, or Kate Hudson. I imagined perky breasts that perhaps might not even require a bra.
At the doctors office, when going over my options, the cellulite treatment, for which I had originally sought the appointment for, was deemed to be of minimal success for someone with my level 2 amount of cellulite. As for the turkey neck, the friendly and vivacious surgery booker (and my new confidante,) said, you're young, do your boobs. So next thing I do, I'm trying on rice sizers and getting carried away in the mirror. Ugh. Big mistake.
To fill up loose skin from nursing, and because of my thin chest, anatomicals were recommended. Thinking we were going under the muscle, I was told to go 30 ccs above ideal, to make up for loss.
In a nut shell , I choose them, paid for them with savings that had taken me six years to accumulate on my supply teachers pitiful salary, and awaited the new, youthful me that would arrive July 2013.
They were placed above the muscle , as it turns out, and the surgeon was fabulous, professional and very good at his job.
As I recovered and over the following two years, I've felt too large. I couldn't use push up bras without looking freakishly stacked. I kept the surgery a secret from everyone except my partner and my mom. I had expected to look pretty much the same in clothes, and just better naked.
So, long story short, they're coming out Thursday the 15th, and I've been like a kid counting down the days til Christmas. On Thursday I get ME back!!!
II can't blame anyone bit myself. Add insult to injury, now I must pay 2500 to get them out, and my turkey waddle is worse than ever! How could I have been so foolish?
I know alot of other people cite health concerns with their implants. My hair has fallen out, requiring me to go short. So miss my long hair!
I miss wearing snug t shirts and turtle necks without looking matronly and needing to hide chest behind scarves.
I'm so mad at myself for making such a dumb decision to get implants. My own boobs were just fine!!
Sometime plastic surgery can improve your life. Other times, its a massive waste of money and actually mars our natural beauty.
I'll be kicking myself for awhile. My old van is rusting and I'd like to buy a new used car, but guess what? All my money is gone. How. Could. I. Be. So. Dumb.
So while visiting a plastic surgeon to explore possibilities for my cellulite, saddle bags and developing turkey neck, I began to consider putting some stuffing back in to my breasts.
I've never been one for augmentation. I've been very happy with my 34 Bs. I didn't want to be bigger, just have the contents restored to their former state.
In my mind, I thought of very tasteful ba's like some models or celebrities have...like Gisele, or Kate Hudson. I imagined perky breasts that perhaps might not even require a bra.
At the doctors office, when going over my options, the cellulite treatment, for which I had originally sought the appointment for, was deemed to be of minimal success for someone with my level 2 amount of cellulite. As for the turkey neck, the friendly and vivacious surgery booker (and my new confidante,) said, you're young, do your boobs. So next thing I do, I'm trying on rice sizers and getting carried away in the mirror. Ugh. Big mistake.
To fill up loose skin from nursing, and because of my thin chest, anatomicals were recommended. Thinking we were going under the muscle, I was told to go 30 ccs above ideal, to make up for loss.
In a nut shell , I choose them, paid for them with savings that had taken me six years to accumulate on my supply teachers pitiful salary, and awaited the new, youthful me that would arrive July 2013.
They were placed above the muscle , as it turns out, and the surgeon was fabulous, professional and very good at his job.
As I recovered and over the following two years, I've felt too large. I couldn't use push up bras without looking freakishly stacked. I kept the surgery a secret from everyone except my partner and my mom. I had expected to look pretty much the same in clothes, and just better naked.
So, long story short, they're coming out Thursday the 15th, and I've been like a kid counting down the days til Christmas. On Thursday I get ME back!!!
II can't blame anyone bit myself. Add insult to injury, now I must pay 2500 to get them out, and my turkey waddle is worse than ever! How could I have been so foolish?
I know alot of other people cite health concerns with their implants. My hair has fallen out, requiring me to go short. So miss my long hair!
I miss wearing snug t shirts and turtle necks without looking matronly and needing to hide chest behind scarves.
I'm so mad at myself for making such a dumb decision to get implants. My own boobs were just fine!!
Sometime plastic surgery can improve your life. Other times, its a massive waste of money and actually mars our natural beauty.
I'll be kicking myself for awhile. My old van is rusting and I'd like to buy a new used car, but guess what? All my money is gone. How. Could. I. Be. So. Dumb.
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October 13, 2015
Right there with ya. At least you didn't ruin your nipples for life! So please look at that bright side, because j was even dumber lol! That's what I'm dealing with. I did a benelli style lift without knowing what I was getting myself into. Can't believe I let a surgeon hack up my boobs, can never change or hide that. I wanted to be a D or DD at the most (that's the size I've been all my life and nursing and stopping hormonal birth control left me deflated) I ended up a G instead. Yeah. I didn't even know that size existed. Hate the shape, saggy but now a weird unnatural way, I have lateral displacement, ugly nipple scars, permanently disfigured my breasts. I'm 7 months post op. Wasted 7,000. Could have taken my family on a Hawaiian vacation instead. Made my back and neck problems worse. Don't know where to go from here. Wish I didn't have breasts anymore. Looking at a lift regardless when I do a revision. All I can see when I look at photos are ugly scars. Hate that my breasts will never look normal again. Never. Lol I also never thought I could miss my old saggy boobs! So much better than my new saggy scarred humungous ones!! Had to respond to, how could I be so dumb? Because I ask myself that question every single day. I am so depressed and no idea where to turn. Just entered my 30s and hoped that I would feel more confident naked with new breasts and other ummm endeavors in life that maybe in my mind sucked with my old saggy boobs. Ughh.
October 13, 2015
I am so sorry to hear about your awful experience. Sometimes we think surgery will improve ourselves, and jump in without considering the possible outcomes.
Neither of us expected to regret it.
I hope your doctor is committed to making things right for you. Your still very young and your skin is the most forgiving.
Hugs and thanks for sharing with me .
Neither of us expected to regret it.
I hope your doctor is committed to making things right for you. Your still very young and your skin is the most forgiving.
Hugs and thanks for sharing with me .
October 13, 2015
Hi again Hopedfor, I peeked at some of your pics, and your nipple scars should fade over time. Honestly, they didn't look bad, at all!! Other than displacement, that can only be seen when you're lying down, I think you look pretty great.
We are always hardest on ourselves. I hope you can find some peace with this. Hugs.
We are always hardest on ourselves. I hope you can find some peace with this. Hugs.
October 13, 2015
Thank you so much for your kind words and support. My doctor wouldn't even acknowledge the lateral displacement when I went to see him, told me it was normal w large implants and brushed it off. I emailed the office manager with pictures and he then offered to see me again and wants to make a whole new incision and just place "a couple stitches" to fix problem. But unfortunately the amount of sag I have and the shape look so deformed that just fixing the lateral displacement isn't going to be a fix all and I would rather find out what options I have before getting chopped up even more and still having funky boobs. Doc is very dismissive and not sensitive to my concerns at all, I honestly don't know that I want him working on me again. He does not seem to have any desire to help me or listen to what I have to say. A revision is something I really can't afford either, but I can't imagine living this way forever. Considering explant w with a lollipop style lift, but even that is so much scaring it will not look normal again. And I'm worried I have too much extra skin for that. I'm at a loss honestly.
October 13, 2015
Doopies, thank you for the kind words, the nipple scars are white but I have an area that's starting to spread now and just became irritated. The permanent suture hasn't stopped the Areola from spreading, but is palpable and feels and looks so fake! The nipples pouch out and stay spread and just look glued on. The shape and sag of breasts is really bad. I will PM a pic if you would like. I haven't had any help from my doc and feel like I'm on my own. Even if he offered to cover revision I would be afraid Bc I don't want to end up worse off-if that's even possible lol. You can't see in the laying pics the shape. Have you guys heard of anyone with explant after benelli lift? Wondering if they will continue to spread.
October 14, 2015
I also didn't tell friends and family I was having the surgery in the first place, so I don't really have anyone to talk to to confide. My sig other is supportive, but he doesn't know what to do or tell me other thing being sympathetic. This forum has been really helpful to me to see other women going through different experiences, positive and negative. Can't help but wish it was a positive for me- need to come to terms with this.
October 13, 2015
How could I be so dumb? I think most of us will have the same question. I put my boobs trough hell in the pass 4 months. Depression is off the roof. I feel so much guilt for spending so much money on a stupid decision, I have 3 kids 11, 9 and 18mo. I could off done soooooo many things with them for them with that money. But sadly we can't go back in time. Thankfully we all found RS and each other to share our journeys together. Good luck, better days are coming.
October 13, 2015
Thank you for sharing your story. I know that guilt very well. The money is gone, so now all we can hope for is a positive to come out of this experience. As in, greater self love and acceptance.
October 13, 2015
Wow, I really want you to know you are not alone. In fact I'm not sure I've read even one explant sister's story who did not feel regret. Sometimes profound regret. I know I felt regret for nearly fifteen years. You are NOT dumb. Before we have BA we can only imagine what it will be like to have lovely bigger boobs but the truth is they almost always feel foreign and many of us hate them from day one. How many stories have you read where the woman wakes up with much bigger breasts than she wanted? I've read plenty. So hang in there. You will have your beautiful, soft, warm breasts back very soon! It is entirely possible that you will love them in a way you never did before. At least that has been my experience. I truly wish I had left mine alone. But you can't go back, only forward. You are so young and haven't had your implants very long so you will spring back quickly. Wishing you all the very best and a quick recovery!
October 14, 2015
With a gentle smile, I completely understand. But looking back, you were not dumb. Like many of us, me included we need to take these "moments" as gifts to who we are now. How our journey made us get to this exact point. Do you know how happy you will be to be naturally you? And accepting of you? You probably were not there when you made the decision to do your ba. In your mind maybe you thought, ok, now I can feel sexier, intimacy will be enhanced, I can buy a big girls bra..etc. and then you get to this point where you begin to love yourself, and others, for different reasons. You stop judging yourself on your breasts, your butt sagging now, your chicken arm etc. and begin to find a lightness in realizing how much more a YOU and others around are, not matter the outside shell. The people in my life now are my best friend who is strong, almost 60 and so comfortable with her body, male friends who struggle a bit with their body image but I love their company, humor and friendship and I support them too. I am pretty much blind to body image. Well let's be honest and say not completely as I still have days of hating evey sag, cellulite and aging facts, but I then say grace for my beautiful self, who loves yoga, has all working body parts. Can go out and run, swim, bike, hike on any given day. A home, friends, a job, the virtual Internet of answers, so much to be grateful for.
I wish you a very successful upcoming explant. You are brilliant, to know what you want and why you want it! And you have worked hard to financially spend your money on your health and well being. Good on you!
Vgirl
I wish you a very successful upcoming explant. You are brilliant, to know what you want and why you want it! And you have worked hard to financially spend your money on your health and well being. Good on you!
Vgirl
October 15, 2015
What a beautiful attitude to have! Truly admire you. I haven't gotten to an acceptance point yet with everything that has gone wrong and how bad my body image is now. I hope one day I can and be in a good place like you are. Thank you for the beautiful thoughts!
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October 13, 2015
I had to remove my implants because they're too big too.
October 13, 2015
It's such a waste of money! I have friends that love the attention their boobs get them. I admire people who love to show off their curves. I'm much more conservative, and I look forward to looking 10lbs slimmer, come Thursday.
October 14, 2015
you must be so excited for your upcoming explant! Your boobs look great here, but I completely understand everything you've said. The high-neck shirts are the worst, aren't they? All I see is giant boobs when I wear a crew neck or turtle neck, even more than when I wear a v-neck!
UPDATED FROM doopies
Day of treatment
(No) Thanks for the Mammaries! They're out!!!!
doopiesOctober 15, 2015
Arrived at 11:45,_took ativan and Tylenol 3s, entered operating theatre by noon, where I was given local anesthesia in each boob at the incision site. I preferred not to see, so was given a little set of goggles to block my vision, and a marvelous tube that dispensed laughing gas when I inhaled from it. It was still odd to feel the sharpness of the scalpel , and the pressure as he pushed out the implant. It felt like it was torn from my body, and perhaps healthy breast tissue was coming out as well? They assured me not, only the implant. Then a quick suturing, and a repeat on the other side. I inhaled from the laughing gas tube in huge pulls, lol. All in all, it felt a bit surreal as if I was hallucinating. I was out, dressed and on my way with my ride by 12:30!! I'm feeling great, so happy to be little again. Snapped some pictures last night and today before explant, follows by some of how I look now. I'm deflated but thrilled to be all me.
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October 15, 2015
I am in disbelief you look so great! I am really struggling with getting mine explanted. Your photos are incredible. I mean you look ...perfect! Congrats to you. Thank you for sharing this story. I keep feeling up and then depressed. Women like you really help for extra reassurance. Bless you. Vgirl
October 16, 2015
Wow you look amazing already, and they will only get better. What a great size. Congrats
July 25, 2016
You look awesome!! Must be so freeing... I was wondering if your surgeon took the capsule out?
Thanks for the encouragement, and a reminder regarding anxiety. I've been waking hours before the alarm for the past week, and perhaps it's anxiety to blame. Feeling a bit ragged, but very excited for Thursday.