** THREE MONTH post **24 Years Old, 2 Beautiful Kids, 2 Sad Deflated Frowning Breasts. - Toronto, ON

Today is my consultation day! I've only booked it about two weeks ago. I havnt even gone for the consultation and already put the non refundable deposit for my surgery date! I just love his work and all the incredible reviews all over the net. I was originally told he wouldn't be available till July, which broke my heart because I really didn't want to go with another ps. But of course the wonderful Sarah from his office pulled some strings and worked some magic and got me in for June 4th. My consultation today will be with Kim, his assistant. Which I don't mind, I've met her before and she was amazing! I just hope we get a lot done at the consultation today like trying on sizes and stuff instead of just talk and suggestions since I only have about a month before the big day, I don't want to have to come back again. I still have to get the meds, pay in full once we decide what I actually want today, also have to look for a post surgical bra(not sure where)

So as for my vision and what I want. My torso is pretty big, being pregnant made my rib cages wider. I loved my breasts shape before pregnancy but now they're just deflated balloons. Even a double push up bra is useless because there isn't anything to push up but skin. Doing this in hopes of having my self confidence back. I'm so depressed. Everytime I'm out I try to look for a new bra that will make things better but there's never a happy ending so maybe this will be it. Anyways there I go getting off topic. I started with 34a and the biggest I got was 36d. I'm looking to get my pregnancy boobs back, but more volume. You'd think after everything we and our body had to go through to bring beautiful children into the world that god would at least let us keep out ginormous pregnancy boobs lol anyways, I'm aiming for a D. Which isn't too big. I'm really nervous about the healing process as I have two kids. A 2 year old and a 7 month old. I didn't breast feed. I originally wanted the incision at my armpits(sorry I don't know the correct term) but Ive been reading that it doesn't set at quickly and I need them to set as I'm in a wedding party for aug. I'm also worried about healing and not having as much mobility with my arms as I would if I went under the fold or at the nipples. I really don't want it under the fold, I will ask to see dr jugenburg's other patience who have had the incision at their areola.

So that's is my useless rant. I'm not sure if I'm nervous or anxious or just plain scaredx not so much for the surgery itself but for the recovery. If anyone has any tips and pointers please let me know. Anyone with younger kids who have had this done.. Serious, how hard was it?

My surgery day is in three weeks and I havnt even decided on the size yet. My consultation was great. A bit awkward and annoyed that I had to bring my whole family! My husband wanted to come and hear what they had to say and also feel the different implants so we had to being the two little ones as well. Kim was in love lol anyways at the consultation with Kim I originally went in there wanted silicone but she seen my breasts and said to go with saline becUse I have a lot of good fat(which I don't consider a good thing lol) that you won't even me able to tell or feel the dis serene. She says to save my money. we sort of decided on 540cc. It looked ok but it was on top of my breasts under the sports bra. And I've honestly read way too many stories about you beautiful ladies regretting not going bigger! This is scary I wish we were able to see what they'll look like BEFORE the surgery.

I feel so in prepared I have three weeks till the big day and I havnt done a thing! I've tried cleaning and organizing but that lasts for about a day before it looks like a hurricane hit my place. I havnt gotten my prescriptions, havnt bought a thing, I don't know what size post op bra or sports bra to buy. I havnt paid in full, havnt packed for the overnight stay. My 2 year old and 7 month old will be staying at moms for the day of surgery and the day after.. My surgery is scheduled for 8:15 am but I'm asked to be there for 6. You're asked to shower and shave before coming in so it looks like I won't be sleeping at all that night! I also have to pack the kids things, I have a mountain of laundry to do. I didn't realize how much needed to be done until I started writing omg I'm feeling really over whelmed.

I'm trying to lose some weight before I go in for surgery. My arms are disgustingly fat. I gained 63lbs with my last pregnancy!! I'm already top heavy so I don't want the twins to make it look even worst. I'm just ranting about nothing now. I'm really worried I'll regret the size so to take care if that I'll go a size up. I know when I first see them I'll burst into years of regret because if the way they look and how high they are, I already know that and I can't stop it from happening, I hope they settle in quickly and nicely. I have a wedding in aug, the brides paid dresses have already been ordered, I hope the new girls will still fit into them! Before my pregnancy I was a 34a. I went up to a 36d now I'm a 36c but all that's left is skin. If I were to wear a double push up bra it would just be pushing up skin.

I'm going to rush this now and stop rambling because I hear someone tossing and turning. Anyone in Toronto that's gotten BA if you can please tell me where you got your post op bra, the ones with the zipper/hooks in the front that would be great!! I can't beleive it's only three weeks away!! Im feeling pretty numb. No emotions not as excited as u was expecting to be, or nervous.. I guess more axiohs if anything. Here I am rambling again....

Beat wishes to the ladies who are about to go under and happy healing to all the lucky ladies who've already gone! Oh! And happy Mother's Day!!!!! Xox

Oh one more thing, between my breasts I don't really have a gap and the skin is sort of thick I can't really explain and you can't see it in pictures it's something you would have to feel. So I'm going to post a pic of what I'm scared could happen. I did bring it up at the consultation and was told that dr j would be able to sew that down.

I'm starting to get really anxious! I'm on this site religiously! Loving all the stories and all the progress :) makes me so much more excited! I still havnt done a thing. I sort of know what to expect but I don't think anyone can prepare themselves for the pain. I DID have two kids naturally with no drugs and that was pretty bad.. If the pain is like having a contraction in your breasts I just might kill myself lol anyways I hope everyone is doing well, time needs to hurry up and fly by so I can start posting progress pictures! I will be doing all my shopping sometime this week.

Xox happy healing ladies!