Flat AA Cup getting 400cc natrelle style 20 unders :)

Hi everyone! I decided to start a blog to document my experience with breast augmentation surgery. I can't believe this is really going to happen!! I've always been unhappy with my small chest, but its gotten so much worse after having 3 kids. Its very frustrating that I now have a post-pregnancy mommy pouch, bigger hips and butt, but still no boobs. My belly actually sticks out further than my so-called boobs. They have somehow gotten smaller after each child. They filled out to a wonderful C cup during pregnancy, and probably a D cup after birth with nursing, then of course deflated once all was said and done. These days I don't even fill out an A cup, I am more like an AA. My body image has become something that really depresses me, and I just don't like what I see in the mirror. My husband has been extremely loving and supporting all along, but he could tell it was really weighing on me. Since we are pretty sure we are done having children AND in a good spot financially, he has agreed that now is the perfect time to go for the boobs. We've gone to the consultation and pre-op appointments, and now he is just as excited as I am! Okay, I'm probably WAY more excited. I've become obsessive with browsing the forums for before and after pictures, trying to imagine what I may look like after surgery. Which is why I'm reaching out to you all!

I decided to post a few before pictures, even though I find them super embarrassing. I'd like to hear some input on what kind of results you ladies feel I may have with my chosen implants. I am going with: Natrelle style 20 (high profile) silicone implants in 400cc placed under the muscle. I have a fairly small BWD at 13 - so I was told the style 20 would be the best width and projection for my frame. Style 15 would have been too wide, and I felt that style 45 might have looked too fake. I feel that style 20 is right in the middle of the two, and a safe choice. I'm completely indecisive and a worry-wart -- so having my husband involved in these choices really helps -- but there a few things weighing on my mind that he can't seem to talk me out of:

1. Will the chosen implant create a large gap between my breasts? I don't think I have a large gap to begin with, so this should stay similar with the implant placed, right? (maybe this is a question for my surgeon -- I just feel like it's not worth the hassle to ask since the style 20 was the best option for my size!)
2. Since I am an A/AA cup before, what size should I expect to be afterward? Again, could be another one for the surgeon, but seems like they won't commit to sizing promises since all brands size differently. I'd like to be at least a C cup.
3. Given that I have very little breast tissue to begin with, I was told I may experience some rippling at some point. Have any other small chested ladies had this issue with a similar implant size?
4. I don't want it to be very obvious that I've had a boob job. I always wear very padded bras to give the illusion of a B or C cup and never wear anything very tight or low cut, so I am hoping to be able to play down the boobs in situations where I don't want to draw attention to their size. Could 400 cc allow for this?

WOW, didn't realize I had so many questions! I really appreciate anyone who has taken the time to read this and could provide any input. 2 more weeks!!!

I can't believe I'm almost coming up on one week until the big day!!! It is slowly starting to feel more real to me. As I get closer (and of course I read more and more reviews) I am starting to worry about my childcare situation post surgery. I have 3 wonderful kiddos, age 5 (in half day kindergarten), and ages 3 and 1. I work from home, and have a nanny that watches my 3 and 1 year old while I work, and I transport my 5 year old to and from kindergarten myself and then she hangs out at home after school while I continue to work. My husband could only take the day of surgery and day after off, so by day 3 post-op I will be on my own. But, the nanny will watch the kids while I'm recovering at home. (I took days 1-3 off work, "returning" on day 4 since I work from home, I figured I could make it work since I'm not physically going into an office.) I'm just worried about driving my oldest child to and from kindergarten, as well as the others to the nanny all on my own on day 3. I don't want my oldest to have to miss too many days of school over this. Has anyone been in a similar situation and made it work?? My nanny cannot do the driving for me because she has 3 young children of her own so she is confined to the house while nannying. Anyone who can give me advice on this matter would be super appreciated!!!!

Unrelated to boobs, but could potentially complicate the surgery. I am having a LOT of abdominal/lower back pain for the past week. Today I have developed a slight fever of 100.4. I have an IUD device for birth control, and I believe all of this pain started after my husband and I had intercourse about a week ago. I have also been very constipated, which happens to me quite often, but does not bring on all this other pain. I am worried that I have developed some sort of complication from the IUD and might have developed something like PID? I wasn't that concerned until I developed a fever, which lets me know my body is fighting off some sort of infection. If I am not better by Monday, I will schedule an emergency visit with my OB GYN that inserted the IUD (almost a year ago). I am just super worried if I will need some sort of antibiotic treatment that I will have to delay the surgery.... which could be a while until my husband can get more time off work. He works in surgeries for a small company and it is RARE that he can get one, let alone multiple days off. Ugh, that would just be my luck. I'll keep you posted...