10 weeks out ~ Has it really been that long?!!
My story is a lot like every other. I was an...
My story is a lot like every other. I was an average weight my whole life. After having kids, I lost all the baby weight and kept it off for 10 years. Then I got lazy and ate. And ate. And ate. At my highest, I was 243. I am now 147, and 5'5. I lost the weight over a year and a half of working my ass off, but unfortunately, my ass now sits at the top of my thighs. :( I started saving for surgery the day I started eating healthy, because I knew I was going to need surgery for my stretchy belly.
I am getting an extended TT, BL, BA and lipo to my underbutt, butt, hips and outer thighs. For some reason, my right saddlebag is so much bigger than my left one. I consulted 6 local doctors. The price range was huge, ranging from $15,000 to $26,000. My first mistake was telling the first two docs that I was interested in a lower body lift. They were all over that one. I guess they expect all Scottsdale housewives to think it's a drop in the bucket...If I took that on, I wouldn't be able to get my breasts done this year. I would have a flat belly (and ass) and saggy, sad boobies. :( I was also worried about a lbl making my butt crack too long and my butt look even flatter. It's pretty flat already, but I'm ok with that. :)
I am going to get the tt and lipo and if I am not happy enough, will start saving for a butt lift next year. Really though, I don't need to be "bikini ready" when the only people who see me in a swimsuit is my family, and they love me at every size! I just want my clothes to fit in the waist, hips and butt, and not have to buy a size bigger so that I can tuck my belly in it. I wear a size 12 pant now, but the waist is huge on me and gapes in the back. Always.
My boobs were made for milkin' And that's just what they did. I nursed all three kids, and each one for two years. (My littlest nursed for about 2 and a half years) So I always viewed my breasts as utilitarian. Then they became long. I feel like I need to pull them out of the waist band of my pants. :) I thought I just wanted a lift, but all you ladies with your implants and pretty breasts made me start thinking..... I'm getting SMALL implants, like 275, because I don't want my breasts to get in the way of things, like running, exercise, etc. I also don't want my breasts to make me look heavier. But is 275 too small???? I am a 34 C now, but I'd like them to be at attention and high up on my chest. I don't know what you are all talking about with "high profile and moderate" and stuff. I know every doc I saw said under the muscle, and each one said silicon is more natural. I want them to be high and close together. What kind/size is that??? Yikes!
So after gettin' nakey in front of 6 of Phoenix's finest plastic docs, I believe I am going with Dr. Ward. I kinda fell in love with him at the first visit (in a father daughter kinda way) He spent so much time with me, even though I know he is super busy. When we were done, he asked me if I had any questions, and I asked him if he would tell me about his family, and he sat back, kind of surprised, and said "I'd love to!" and spent the next 15 minutes with me chatting about raising kids.
I can't thank you all enough for posting your stories and the support offered here!
There's no turning back now! Paid my deposit and...
It's funny how now I feel so much more confident in my body. I guess since I had the nerve to drop my drawers for all of the doctor interviews, I've lost inhibition. Or maybe it's just because I know that in two more months I'm going to have the "new" body that I will be in. Or even more likely, this website has given me the confidence I was lacking. At any rate, I'm super pumped!
As far as the breast lift and aug goes, my doctor will have me in no bra at all for two months, just a snug cami with no bra. He says that the scar will heal better without any pressure on it. I can't IMAGINE walking around at work or in public without a bra on. I wear an underwire during the day and a sports bra at night, and have done so for 25 years. Yowsers!
I posted a picture of my "tummy tuck jar." I made this jar over a year ago, when I started saving for my surgery. (Got the idea from the movie Bad Teacher, when she had a "new [RS bleep] jar." I am so lucky to be able to have this surgery, to have been able to save money to pay cash for it, and to have a supportive family. My mother has offered to come and stay with me, I'm not sure on that yet. I won't be telling people at work. I think I will tell my supervisor that I am having "female surgery" and leave it at that. If they want more details, I'll just say its below the belt or private.
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I am so disgusted with my body that I don't even...
Old habits die hard. I went shopping tonight and found a pair of shorts I like. I instinctively grabbed one of every color. In my fat days, if I found ANYTHING that fit and looked halfway decent, I would buy every color and call it a day. I still find myself in that frame of mind sometimes....Plus, I shouldn't be spending alot on new clothes now, because I hope to eventually to be down a size :) It's hard to think about what size sports bras to buy, not knowing how big of cans I will decide on :)
Things I wont miss:
1.Having to put deodarant under my belly flap in the summer.
2. Dreading clothes shopping.
3. Buying one of every color of anything that looks halfway decent on me.
4. Judgement.
5. Being out of breath coming up one flight of stairs.
6. Having my "fat pants" get tight on me.
7. Avoiding the scale.
8. My long boobs needing 24/7 bra wear.
9. Exercise class or running and worrying about how I look coming AND going.
10. Leaving the beach with sand on my thighs, them rubbing together and getting a nasty rash.
I don't want to forget what it felt like being overweight. I want to remember it so I never come back to it. I guess this journal might act as a reminder in case I start to get sloppy.
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