Athletic 39 yo mother of 5 full tummy tuck, Implant removal, breast lift, fat graph to breasts

Dr. Leber did my breast augmentation surgery July 2008. Through no fault of Dr Leber's I was dissatisfied from the beginning. I went from having no breasts (AT ALL) to 450cc over the muscle. I have always had big breasts, large breasts even, but then I got serious about my eating and exercise. I competed in a few figure shows (body building), and what I had left for breasts quickly vanished more and more with each competition. When I first went to Dr. Leber he had recommend 350 high profile over the muscle (over rather than under, because I lift heavy weights, so under wouldn't be ideal) with a possible breast lift and a TT because I do have a GREAT deal of mommy skin.(at this point I had 3 children) I didn't want to do the lift or the TT at the time because I was not 100% positive that my husband and I were done having children. (I did want them desperately!! but I thought it better to wait until I knew we were done in the kiddo department)
The day of the surgery one of my girlfriends convinced me that I NEEDED to bump to 450cc or I would be back and I would want them bigger. I seriously only wanted to have "some" boobs. I never wanted to have what I had in high school again. It is just to much baggage and wearing a double bra to go for a run, is not my cup of tea.
Immediately after the surgery, I was full of regret. One breast didn't want to drop into place, they were heavy, and I felt HUGE. They did settle into place and they look ok. (my husband LOVES them) BUT I still feel out of proportion and very unnatural. I hate the feel of them in my body. From time to time I have a burning sensation that is irritating. Since the birth of my last child (number 5) the rippling has been HORRIBLE. I can feel the bags and it seriously grosses me out. My only hesitation, the only reason why I have kept them all these years, is my husband. I have had no doubt that removal would mean a lift, which of course means BIG nasty scars. I am ok with that, I know they will go away and fade to almost nothing. He feels very turned off and disgusted by such imperfections. (he has a very weak stomach)
I know ultimately this is for me. I also know that he will come around. Men love a confident woman and this is exactly what my confidence needs. I want to be ME again. Even if that means small boobs. Dr Leber does an amazing job with his breast lift and TT work. I am happy knowing that even though they will be small, they will be cute and perky!
My surgery is set for 5/31 and I am so nervous. I am not sure that I have enough fat to make a fat transfer worth while, plus the horror stories I have read about lumps in the breast after a fat graft, scares me.
I really don't want to take these bags out, only to be left with lumps everywhere. :(

I meet yesterday with Dr Leber and his staff to do all the final paperwork for my surgery. The big day is fast approaching (1 week today!), I find myself scrabbling to get everything that I can done and handled taken care of while I am still able. I have a 2 yo, a 4 yo, a 10 yo, and a 14 yo still in the house. My DH will be doing his best to hold down the fort so that I am able to recover.
I have decided to go ahead with all as planned. Full tummy tuck, explant, lift (goodbye wrinkle sacks), and fat transfers to the breast. I am hoping that the fat will give me a little fullness on the top of my breasts. I am termed of have NO breasts after this. I am a very athletic person, and my body likes to attack breast fat first, then move on to my legs. (gerr!) I am praying that Dr Leber can work a small miracle and get me a full B cup. Perky B's would be awesome. :)
I am going to miss the gym terribly. I really hope that I bounce back quickly because it is very difficult for me to rely on people. Plus my dh is not the best at handling the sight of blood, drains, and stitches.
I will be posting pics of the rippling and a final tummy before shot soon.

No food, no water. :( I typically drink close to a gallon a day, so I am dying of thirst! I still have 3 hours before surgery. I can't wait to get an iv wirh some fluids. It is very strange to nor poor lotion on after showing. (Or face creams) I am anxious for it to be done with. I slept pretty good last night. For that I am thankful. I know it will be the last good sleep I have for a good while. Time to say goodbye to the kids and head to the surgery center.
See you on the flatside. (Tummy and chest...lol)