Finally feeling a sense of happiness

I have just had the first revision procedure done last Wednesday 3/9/16, so I am a week post-op today. This first revision procedure included placing the new implant under the muscle, so that I have a fullness at the top of my breast, where my natural breast had flattened out. (In the previous breast augmentation procedure the implant was placed over the muscle.) For this procedure, the doctor encouraged using a smaller implant so that I could have the "pertness" without having the weight of larger implants and to maintain fullness on top over time. During this procedure, Dr. Malek performed a considerable amount of internal breast pocket revision in order to raise my breast fold internally, as well he internally narrowed my breast pocket with stitching so that my implants will not fall to the side (under my armpit), which also helps to maintain a more natural cleavage.

I apologize that I cannot recall the exact size of my new implants. They are definitely Mentor and the size is possibly 200cc filled to 260cc (previous implants, seen in pics above, were 300cc filled to 360cc) I realize the new implant size seems small, but my preference is to have fullness at the top of my chest, without the weight and largeness.

In four months time I will have the second procedure. Because I have gone down in implant size, my breast skin and tissue needs time to contract to the the new smaller implant. At that point I will go back in to have an external lift/removal of the excess skin which has not contracted. I may have to have my nipple raised at that time as well.

Dr. Malek has now kindly offered to redo my breasts on terms that I find agreeable. This gesture is proof of his professionalism and his commitment to ensure his patients are happy with the results he produces. That alone makes me feel a huge sense of relief. The relief is in knowing that he has listened to me and it matters to him that I have felt so disappointed and unhappy with the results of my surgery.

Sometimes, doctors cannot understand the grief felt when a patien has paid for a procedure that turns out awful. There are so many feelings associated with this including regret and guilt for spending money, but most especially devastating is the feeling of insecurity and loss of self esteem on a daily basis, every time you see yourself in a mirror or think about the situation. It's your body. You can't avoid it. I would even say that I have felt an incredible sense of depression because of this whole experience.

To be heard and feel compassion from your doctor is not only comforting and validating, but it is incredibly important to your happiness and sense of self.

I will post pictures of the results once I have the surgery.