This Mother is Finally Going to Do It! Costa Rica, CR

Made my appointment and now gathering everything I need for my big trip to Costa Rica. So exciting but very frightening at the same time. Was able to get scheduled in short time. Dropped my estrogen, amitritpylin, Aleve pm (converted to tylenol pm) weaning myself off coffee. Boosting my vitamin iron and C. Got my blood work done, still need to get my chest X-Ray. Had to put an expedite to get my passport book. Wired my money. Wow this is really going to happen. Don't know what I am more excited about, the tummy tuck or the breast reduction!

It's funny how you can convince yourself when you look in the mirror and think "aw I don't look too bad for a lady my age. I just knew that my breast were just heavy, hurt my neck and back. Then I took the pictures, oh my goodness, what an eye opener. My poor husband has had to look at this for the last 12 years. I'm so embarrassed. I had always been underweight (100 lbs or less)for 46 years of my life and top heavy. Then when I hit 46 I found the love of food and dessert and boy did I blossom, not in a pretty way. My breast were a size 32D for a long time and pretty. But 15 years ago, my horse bit my right breast. It caused internal bruising, it swelled to the size of a basketball and to the same color of the inside of a cantaloupe, which led to an adhesion which caused my nipple to invert. Even after the swelling went down it never went back to normal so I had to buy bras to fit it and my other side just grew to match it. The last bras I bought were 34G&H. I have out grown those and time to buy ones. I decided I want smaller bras so hence having surgery. I so excited. Can't wait to buy pretty bras and being able to sleep without a bra. I'm more excited for the tummy tuck, C-sections and breastfeeding do ugly things to your belly that don't show up till your much older.

I'm not a very private person. I have no problem talking about things. I just can't seem to get it down on paper. This is a hard thing trying to keep like a diary on here. I tend to ramble like I do in real life. ADD/ADHD whatever you want to call it.

I have just a little more then a week to head to Costa Rica and I am more then ready. Everything on my list is done and ready to pack. My passport book made it in record time, sent for it on Thursday, got it last night delivered by Fedex at 7:30 pm. I thought that was pretty good considering it was suppose to take 11 to 14 business days.

I've read a lot of stories on here and most have given me the confidence of having this surgery. The website has made it easy for all of us to realize that we are all the same and we all seem to have a little problem of growing old and unaccepting of our body changes, and its alright. This day and age we don't have to accept it, we can change if for the better. We have made it easier to find good doctors, and we have found really good places. We have made cyber friends, we root for each and we hug those who need it. We trust each other which is a good thing in this day and age. I mean, how can we not trust another woman who is willing to put her naked unpretties on here, and bare their souls, to give us hope. Never in my life would I think I would be doing something like this. I am just a common woman, who works hard at a meager living, doing something I thought only a rich woman can do. Next year, I was hoping to do the facelift, but I found a beautiful palomino Peruvian Paso (my dream horse and my dream horse color) on line and ended up buying him. Choices sometimes you have to make. Sometimes I get a little upset about my choices. I spend more money on my animals then I do on myself. If it wasn't for my dogs, cats, horses and birds. I would probably be living in a very large beautiful home on the edge of the suburbs, with a beautiful, sexy body. Oh well, I'm hoping my good looking husband will take a look at my new body when it is healed, and say "Oh yeah, it's worth it, lets' do the face" But he won't he has more tact then that. In the meantime we've been looking at horse trailers with living quarters (my Christmas present) to travel to TN to get my new golden man. This next 8 weeks is going to be a long one. This has been a good year for me. I will have new no bouncing breast, a tight tummy with a cute belly button again to finish it out. Yes, I am thankful! I hope everyone has a wonderful Thanksgiving.