Slowly, but surely getting used to the changes.

So exciting that I feel confident to wear my hair up and out of my face. I am really wanting to go the the gym, but I am not sure if I can start working on those buns if you know what I mean :). I have been trying to avoid alot of physical activity, but it makes me restless when I go to bed. And San Diego is having a "cold" winter so I am trying to do myself a favor and remain indoors. Anyone doing yoga one month post op?

Wow has this experience been a full load of "uh ohs" and "oh my goodnesses." I hope anyone out there having a hard recovery just hangs in there because it does get better... much better. After my last post I was beginning to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I was able to face my fears and start showing my new nose to the world. Then Christmas morning came and I got the worst cold I have ever experienced (in a long time). Sore throat, runny nose, the works. I was glad I opted out of traveling with my family to see more family up north because I would've been even more miserable. Listen to your doc and avoid all travel just in case! I needed to get better so I could at least visit the God babies at my in-laws house. I laid on the couch the majority of the day and drank tons of lemon water, apple cider vinegar mixes, green smoothies, and tea. Thankfully I was back to my old routine of eating healthier so I did feel well enough to celebrate. I still took it easy and instead of laying on my own couch I took over the in-laws couch. There were 2 others sick with a similar cold even with being a couple weeks post op I was in better shape then they were. But the cold lasted into my first day of work and then some. I had to call out and postpone going back for another week after that just to be sure that I was strong enough to sit at a desk all day and analyze spreadsheets. I did saline rinses twice a day with the neti pot and man it is so disgusting yet gratifying to see all the gunk come out of my face. I returned to work just yesterday and getting out of bed and getting dressed up made me feel so much better. I was getting a tad bit depressed being stuck in my house and even though I went out with friends a couple of times I really enjoyed how much more confident I am now. I'm excited about all the cute things I can do with my hair and clothes. It may sound stupid, but I always limited myself before thinking I couldn't pull off certain looks. I don't remember the last time I wore a part down the middle of my head... maybe 9 years old. I always thoughtIit drew attention to my face. Anyways hereI am one month post op and I only hope it gets better from here. :) I hope everyone had a magical New Years!

The night of my last post I was so frustrated. Frustrated that I was letting my emotions get the best of me and not giving myself a break. I needed sleep and my anxiety was getting the best of me. The less I slept the greater the anxiety. I ended up falling asleep after much tossing and turning and I made sure to say my prayers and put my fears aside. I woke up in the middle of the night and the anxiety crept like never before. It immediately subsided when I felt that I could breath. The brick on my face (the swelling literally felt like a brick sitting on my face) was not as heavy. I went to feel my nose and I could actually feel my touch. I jumped up and ran into the bathroom. The swelling went down dramatically and I was so excited that I woke my sister up to tell her. Huge relief and I am able to sleep much better now. I slept for a full night last night... first time since the procedure. I am still taking it easy, but I am now on my way to a senior home to visit an old family friend and I am glad I feel well enough to do so. I cannot thank everyone who posted encouraging words enough. It made this experience much less difficult and I hope that everyone on their road to recovery finds peace and tranquility. We all react differently to things like this and I am glad that I am able to accept that just because I didn't come out of the doc office all excited about my nose doesn't mean that I cannot come to love it in time. The best things are worth waiting for so I hope anyone having trouble with their new look can see past all the temporary factors and be excited for the new changes. I truly believe that everything happens for a reason which is why it was so hard for me to deal. I wanted so bad to see past the obvious post op issues, but I was just giving into my insecurities. I really am grateful for the kindness people have shared with my through this journey. I know I have a long way to go, but this is my first steps and although I was off to a rocky start I feel much better. :)