Today Was the Big Day! - San Diego, CA

My 16 year old daughter and I go bra shopping. She's good to show acceptance of my decision to get enhancements. Yes I didn't really a big change like going up two sizes... Or did I?

The gal measures me to be 36 D and I try both "C" and "D" bio fit bras on(very little padding) with no under wire. The "C" rides off my chest by 1/4 inch and the "D" lays completely flat and smooth (eg comfy). So she writes "36D" as my measurement on the card.

My daughter is also trying on C and D sizes. We both conclude V Secret is purposefully making bras smaller and labeling them to be larger so one thinks one is larger: I don't look like a "D" I look like a "C".

I buy her two bras and decide to wait another week in case more swelling goes down but I'm convinced I'm already at my end result size. And I decided that what my fiance was envisioning were big publicity implants and all along I wanted just to enhance what I had been God given. In the end what I received - is exactly that and I'm heavenly happy with how that integrates with my body image and personality. Don't ever let anyone's opinion dictate what is best for you!

Day 16 - Swelling Gone and I'm beautiful but not a full cup size larger.

Me: (retrying on 34 C V Secret padded bra that I had worn and looking in mirror). Hmmmmmmm... Still fits but barely....(silently.. Where's my "c" cup increase?)

He; what's the matter.... (Looking)
Me: It still fits....(unsure)
He: Isn't that what you said you
wanted.... To look natural... So nobody could tell it was obvious?...
Me: Yes (trying to find right words)....a balance between enhancement and publicity......I didn't want publicity but I wanted to be a "C"....(will get measured today to see)
He: (Pause) it doesn't matter...(but clearly on his face I can see it does)
Me: My biggest disappointment is not with the results. Its that you are disappointed (with size increase).
He: It's no matter... As long as you're happy ..(but he wishes differently). You let what you wanted be overruled by what other people might think about you....you said you wanted to be a "C"
Me: (silently.. Did I??? I did....) I'm happy with them and thank you for giving me my gift (surgery)

How many of you have had this discussion? How many have gone larger and wished for smaller... And Vice Versa? I'm still happy but sorting through body image issues....

Day 13 - First visit to the gym
Two pleasant surprises today. Went to put on a previously baggy yoga top and now it fits perfectly. I was actually surprised it would fit at all. But this shows me my overall rating implant size i elected was not gignormous but maybe just right for my personal taste and body image as a fitness teacher.

I spent 30 minutes doing an endurance workout on the spin bike and stayed seated to avoid bouncing the "kids". Kept arms down by my sides or stretched them above my head or behind my back with fingers laced. avoided leaning on handle bars.

Nurse said "do what feels right with your body and if it hurts, then stop"... Happy to report I felt good and worked at medium intensity today.