38 Yr Old 5'4" 120lb Scheduled BA for July 3rd! - San Antonio, TX

I'm a 38 yr old mother of three. Breastfed all 3 kiddos for varying lengths. Prior to children I was always a small B. After having children I was excited I managed to maintain a C cup up until a few months ago. I lost 10lbs and apparently it all came from the boobs! Even at a C cup I thought of having a BA not necessarily to get much bigger but more to ensure that with age I didn't lose what I had. After going back down to a "deflated B" (as my PS so kindly put it) I decided it was time!

My surgery is in 2 days and I'm still so nervous. I have moments of getting excited but then I get overwhelmed with everything....the procedure, the recovery, the horrible talks of constipation! I know I will be so excited when it's all said and done though and it will be worth it!

I'm still very very unsure of my size. My PS is one that was highly recommended from other friends and is one of the top surgeons in my area. However, he doesn't do "measurements" and after speaking with his staff of nurses I've been told that the size is such a personal decision he doesn't give much input other than telling you if you're going "too big" for your size or "too small" for what you say you'd like to look like. This leaves the final decision of the size seem so much harder since everything I've read is all over the place as to what is right for each person.

I've tried on the sizers two different times at appointments and the last I tried I had settled on 475cc high profile saline under the muscle with a transax incision (it's what he specializes in and does the most of as far as incisions go). However, now I'm wondering if it's too big???!??!?!

I'm 5'4" 120lbs and as I said I'm a deflated B right now. I do want fullness in the upper part of the breast but I also don't want to look HUGE. It seems like the more photos I look at I just become more and more confused as to what I like! UGH!

My final decision doesn't have to be made until the day I go in for surgery on Thursday but I'm really stressing about the size. I've tried rice sizers and as I said the sizers in the office. I'm just nervous and get really wrapped up in the number....which I know I shouldn't.

I've picked up my prescriptions. I will be staying with my best friend for as long as I need to as I am divorced now and my ex is taking my kids on vacation for 11 days so this is why I scheduled my surgery now. I don't want the ex or my kiddos to know....though I suspect eventually they will notice! haha!

Made arrangements for my dogs, packed my recovery clothes, going to purchase a few last minute supplies tomorrow....snacks, water, colace, etc.

I can't believe it's finally happening!

I could barely sleep last night. I just scoured Instagram for boobs. I feel like such a pervert! LOL I'm feeling more excited and less nervous....at least for now. Today I was instructed by my PS to begin taking the Bromelain, Arnica & the antibiotic in addition to the daily AM/PM supplements I was given two weeks ago at my pre-op. I feel like a junkie....a perverted junkie. So many meds!

I picked up two bralets from Target tonight which probably won't fit after the BA but I couldn't help it. I wanted something semi decent to attempt to take after photos in after I can take off the surgical bra. I also picked up a few last minute snacks, coco butter oil, ice packs (from the breastfeeding aisle that was a recommendation I saw on here!) They look perfect.

I've sent a list a people my bestie needs to contact for updates since I'm assuming I'll be completely out of it when I'm out of surgery tomorrow. It's not a long list since I'm not telling a lot of people.

My bestie will be taking care of me at her house for as long as I need to stay. However, she is having her BA on Monday (we wanted to do them together!) and her hubby will be home by then from work to help take care of her and assist me if I decide to stay longer. I'm not sure what my recovery will be so I have an open ended invite to stay with them until I feel well enough to manage. I'm off work for the summer and my kiddos are on vacation with my ex-husband for 12 days so I'm hoping I will be well enough when they return to be somewhat normal.

I'm a little nervous about not eating or drinking after midnight tonight since my surgery isn't until 10am. Also, I'm nervous about not peeing first thing in the AM since they need a urine sample before surgery and I don't want to not be able to go when I get there.

Still don't have a firm idea on size. Between 400cc-450cc more than likely. I want them to look good on my body (5'4" 120lbs) and somewhere between the fake and natural look. Big but not OMG YOU GOT A BOOB JOB big!

Hopefully I can sleep a little tonight. Super nervous about the anesthesia also as I've never been put under and have no idea how I'll react to it. I won't even read anything about it because I start to get too much anxiety about it. I hope I don't say anything stupid....though I'm sure I won't be the first. Also, hoping I don't throw up a lot afterwards. I am taking the Emend 3 hours prior to surgery so hoping that keeps the vomiting at bay.

Can't think of much else to update with. I took some before photos tonight. Going to try to upload those later as well. They are sad....so so sad. LOL

I can't believe in just a few short hours I'll be back in the OR getting ready to have this done. I can't believe how fast it's all happened. A little over a month since first deciding to go forward and do it. It's just crazy.

I slept pretty well last night. I ate really late since I wouldn't be able to eat again for a while and really tried to relax as much as I could.

This morning I HAD to pee. I was going to try to wait until I got the the PS because they need a urine sample and I was worried about going again when I was there but I couldn't hold it!

I'm ok as far as not eating right now but wish I could drink something at least. I want COFFEE!

Took the Emend and am all set. Just need to finish packing a few last minute things to take to the bestie's house and I should be good to go.

WHOA! It's happening!!!!!!