Anyway, it's time to pull the trigger on this thing. I'm terrified of course. I'm not very tolerant to pain at all, and naturally everyone around me is going to know I had this thing done. Not all of them will judge me kindly, I know, especially the super religious side of my family. But I'm not comfortable in my own skin. Even though I've learned to fake it pretty well with the padded bras, I know that in certain clothes that it's obvious, or if I turn a certain way you can see a gap between my breasts and bra, and there are plenty of things I still just can't wear. Even when I'm intimate with my husband, I find I'm constantly trying to push them together or turn so that they're more flattering. I don't even have enough to push them up with a corset or anything.
Enough of that negative ish. It's time to do something about it and own this body on my terms. I've already had three consults with Drs. Christian Prada, Marissa Tenenbaum, and Richard Kofkoff. All three are fine surgeons and I think I would be in good hands with any of them, but they have wildly different attitudes and bedside manner.
Dr. Prada was my fist consult, and I really felt like he was spending the most effort to get to the heart of what I'm looking for. He did the full 3D imaging on the initial consult and was very thorough going over all my options. He clearly had opinions on what would look good on my body and wasn't timid about sharing. It's both a bit odd, and a bit reassuring, to have a surgeon who so obviously appreciates the female form both personally and professionally. The office was modern, vibrant, and large. It is also attached to a spa facility and felt the most relaxing.
Dr. Tenenbaum was very straight forward and professional, and I had the utmost confidence in her skills. She took a more hands-off approach however, and pretty much gave me the impression that whatever size or style I wanted, she could make it work and look good. The consult and financial overview was all in the one exam room and felt the most "doctor-ish" of the three. She was also the only one that operates in the hospital by default rather than a surgery center, which I liked.
Dr. Kofkoff was somewhere in between the two in many respects. There were a number of "creature comforts" to help keep you relaxed, like ultra plush robes and a pillow chocolate. After the initial exam the consult was conducted in a sitting room. The whole experience had a very "old money" feel, if that makes any sense. He was very thorough, almost graphic, in explaining how the surgery is performed. He also had some preferences that he wasn't afraid to share about different kinds of implants and what he would recommend. His answers were all carefully considered and supported and was generally very personable.
In the end I decided to go with Prada because I felt he was the most concerned with getting me a great pair of breasts, frankly. I have my pre-op and sizing appointment tomorrow, and my surgery is scheduled for 4/21. Tonight I'm going to go through all my wish photos and try to narrow it down a bit better. Right now everything looks good!