Intentional Deflation of Saline Implants 2/27/2014 Followed by Implant Removal 3/6/2014 - Roswell, GA

Well ladies, after almost 12 years of having implants I am ready to let them go. My story starts off like many others, I had just moved away to college, I was 19 years old, and I thought I was missing something because I had small breasts (barely a 32A). I am not kidding when I say that I would "wish upon a star" to grow boobs. So right before spring break of 2002, I went to a PS that I found online to see about implants. The next day, I was implanted with under the muscle saline implants through my armpit. I don't remember much else except that the pain of recovery was absolutely excruciating. I couldn't bathe myself or even pull my own pants down to use the restroom for several days - my roommate took care of me. I only told my mom (who was disappointed) and my roommate and no one else; I wanted it to be a secret - although the change in my figure was so obvious!
I always felt very embarrassed of the implants. It was always only a matter of time before someone would start their question to me with "Can I ask you something??" and I already knew what the question was..."Are those real?" I hated it! I wanted to crawl inside a hole and cry.
Anyway, fast forward several years and I really started to become concerned that my implants would give me problems. I would have nightmares where one boob had like slipped down to my belly button; it was so weird. Anytime I had a weird symptom (like a swollen, painful lymph node), I would wonder if it was my implants poisoning me. At ten years I really started to think about replacing them due to age but I have small children and didn't really have the time to deal with it. I was afraid to start researching it for what I might find out...and I didn't even want this to be in my internet search history (I've been w hubby for 8 years and we had never talked about my implants). And yes, I had three children with my implants and nursed all of them - two for more than a year each. Now I have had my implants for almost 12 years and I have gained the self-acceptance and the courage to remove them. I will post pics because I know looking at other pictures on this site and reading stories has helped me so much. I am scheduled to have my boobs deflated (my choice) in the office on 2/27 and then I will
have the implant shell removed on 3/6.
Stats:
5'4'' 105lbs - no weight gain
went from small 32A to 32C
no complications - implants actually look pretty good, I just don't want them!

Sorry these are so cheesy - my roommates and I thought it would be fun to take sexy pictures. LOL! But now I'm glad I had kept them because I had forgotten what I looked like. Small, but I'm a small person for goodness sake! Looking back I don't see what was so bad :( These were taken in late 2001.

All I see now in this pic are big, round balls sticking out of my chest.