I'm 27 years old, Asian, single (no...
I'm 27 years old, Asian, single (no kids) and completely flat chested. I am getting my BA procedure done by Dr. Martin O'Toole from Pasadena Cosmetic Surgery. This will be life changing for me. I've never shared my emotions about being flat with anyone but here I am now. I feel like I have to get this off my chest!
First off, BA was never the first option and in fact, I was against it. I tried so many pills, creams and even went on birth control pills. I want my breasts to grow naturally so baaaad. I tried gaining weight but my boobs never got any bigger, not even a centimeter! Where did the fat go? On my thighs.
On my 26th birthday last year, I told myself to give these methods one last try (that's when I tried birth control). And to my dismay, it didn't work. On my 27th birthday in May this year, I finally gave in and started researching seriously about BA. I finally got the courage to go to consultations. I was sold.
Why do I want this? For those who were flat-chested and got their A's B's or C's, you're my soul-sistahs. It's not about sexual satisfaction... I'm not 100% confident in bed, but I never felt uncomfortable or cared what my partner thought of my body. No, for me, I feel incomplete, as a woman. Whenever I read I-hate-my-small-boobs rant, in my mind I'd always say, "At least you have boobs, woman! I don't." and that has always depressed me because deep inside I'm a diva, a bombshell, a confident woman. But being flat chested always held me back and I can't explain why. Now that I'm nearing my 30th year on this world, I want to enjoy my final twenties. I want to live! I need change. I'm a simple girl. I don't need bling in my life or fancy clothes or expensive cars. What I want and need most is respect and confidence.
If you're still with me, thank you. And I hope to share my journey with you!
Whew busy week at work so I'm sorry for the delay but here we go!
I went for my pre-op on Wednesday. They drew blood from me, which I didn't expect! I'm scared of needles. The doctor explained tons of stuff from preparing for the surgery to post surgery. He measured me at 11.5 inches. To achieve my goal of a small C, I'm going for a mid-profile, 339 ccs silicone implant that is 12.4 in diameter, under the muscle. I wore the bra and inserted the implants and realized that yeah, I'm going to have to carry these around for a loooooooong time. So I really want to make sure they're not going to be heavy on my body by not going too big. I tried a smaller and larger implant and finally decided on 339 ccs. I know it's a weird measurement but we decided based on my rib (?) measurement. He said this will fall perfectly on the side. I brought some clothes with me just to see how they would change my look, and they're huge! It was amazing!
I left the clinic more excited than ever. This is really happening and I'm preparing to the fullest!
I don't know why the photos did not upload, but here they are!
One week left till my BA! I am so excited. I have not prepared to the fullest yet but I'll do them the entire weekend (getting meds, buying food, and stuff need for healing!).
I am taking 4 days off work - Thursday, Friday, Monday (Labor Day), Tuesday, and Wednesday. But I'm going to have to work remotely, just to check emails and stuff. I have everything planned out in my mind but there's too much stuff to do!
I am also debating about the size. I picked 339 ccs and aiming for a full B cup or a small C. But I as look around pictures of women from AA cups to B-C cups, they have at least 350 ccs in them. But! I trust my doctor. I know boob greed will arise at one point but hey, I went from nothing to something right?
Cleaning! Moving! Stressed Out! Breathe....
I've been cleaning like an animal the entire weekend. The bad news: I recently found out that I need to move out by the end of September. I found out last week, begged my landlord to give us more time, but they've already scheduled the renovations... Instead of panicking, I made a plan of action and have been so far, on schedule! I managed to clean my room, bathroom, and the kitchen; washed comforters, blankets, and pillow cases; vacuumed and sprayed. My room smells lovely, clean and fresh! Ready for the long haul! At 6PM tonight, I've packed 90% of my things. Will someone please give me a high five? :D Now, I don't have to worry about lifting much after my procedure and just focus solely on my recovery. (Still gotta look for that new apartment tho, yikes! Praying so hard....)
QS: How soon can you lift things like a pile of clothes or do laundry?
Anyway, I cleaned out my closet and got rid of these pads :D
I woke up to a great, sunny morning and decided it's time to take "the" before photos of me in some of my favorite tops. See how flat I am??? It's absurd! I want ya'll to be like, "How in the world?!" "Whyyyyyyyyyyyyy???" "Hallelujah for me, at least I've got an A" Hahaha! Just kiddin :)
I don't even know why I bought them! I would wear chicken fillets in them and even those don't help :(((
All I ever wanted is to fill in my clothes... go braless... feel like a woman!
Sorry for the eyesore ladies :D
28 Aug 2014
Day of treatment
I made it! Woke up in a lot of pain and trembling, but the nurse gave me a heated blanket which was oh so comfy! And gave me some pain meds. I am still in pain but I'm handling it well. Guess I feel the pressure of the bandages more than the actual cut! Can't wait to get rid of these tom! I don't even remember when I knocked out! Got the IV (which sucked as I hate needles!!), then they asked questions, they gave a patch behind my ear for nausea, doctor came and told me he's got my DD implants in the car! What humor! He's so funny and nice :) then they carried me off and saw the operating room then poof! I'm in the recovery room. What an experience! Stayed in the recovery room for 2 hours coz that bed is just too comfy!! But they has to wake me up haha! They said I'm such a sleeper. Sleeping is good, I expected more pain but it's OK. Appetite is good too. Been trying to drink lots of water, eating soups, canned fruits and yogurt and some chocolate chip cookies! Haha. A little bit bloated. So far I've been in and out from the pain meds. But always feel well rested when I wake up!
I'll post more tomorrow.
Wow! I woke up at 3am to pain! Grabbed some crackers and started eating so I can drink my pain meds. All better now! But the pressure and a bit of back pain does not dissipate. Have to sleep upright next time so it's easier to get up! Oh boy was it hard to get up! Watching reruns of Law and Order SVU! And maybe some game thrones later.. I go to the doctor today at 11am to take off the bandages. So excited! I still can't believe I did it!!
Say hello! The bandages were really the worst part for me. It was hard to breathe. Now I feel much better. I can also feel the implant on my sides. I still take pain meds. I'm not so sure about the size! I feel boobie greed and wish I've gone bigger but the more I touch and feel 'em the more I'm loving them! I finally have boobs! OMG!!! I can't wait for them to drop! Will post more pics :)
Thank you so much for all your support!
Oh boy! Finally was able to take a shower today. I got my period yesterday but somehow have not experience any cramps. Maybe the meds are helping with those! I woke up at 3am again to pain on my left boob. The right is almost painless! Ate crackers again and drank my pain meds.
So when I took a shower, I was finally able to examine my new boobs and I think they are the perfect size for me! :) anything bigger and I might be in more pain. They're pretty swollen right now but I managed to wash myself :)
Thank you so much ladies for your support! I love this forum! Wouldn't be able to do this without you
Week One: Anxiety, Confused, TIIIIGHT!!!
Hola Ladies ;) it's been a week! Time flies but not fast enough for my boobies to soften up and drop! They're super hard and tight! I get tired really easily, it's not funny.
I went to my first post op appointment yesterday to get my stitches out. They look meeh. Any tips on scar treatments? The doctor said I should really keep on moving my arms and a little bit of massage is ok. I lost sensation on my right nip. I actually feel my nips as if they're underneath the implants! Does anyone ever feel that way? It's so weird!
I went to work on Tuesday and drove. It was crazy. I felt like fainting at the end of day. But today I feel more like myself and my road rage is coming back! Hehe
I get really antsy sometimes, like it comes in panic attacks. I feel like I drank tons of coffee. So I've been avoiding caffeine for the moment.
I had sex yesterday! Sorry TMI! But I felt super sexy! It was nothing acrobatic haha but afterwards I felt really relaxed.... ;)
But sometimes I worry too much that they're too big. The boob greed is goone... It's actually the opposite. They look so big coz they sit so high right now. But when I'm in clothes, they look perfect. No one's noticed at work coz I've been wearing loose tops. But when I touch them at home, I freak out coz I feel they're too big!
And lastly, I'm a little bit confused! I don't know what to do with these new toys! I feel kinda lost like I don't know how to present myself. I need to find myself again...
Anyway, thanks for reading ladies :) will try to update on a weekly basis! Ta' ta
Hi Ladies! I'm so sorry for not updating. If you've read my previous posts, I have to move out by the end of the month. Moving is stressful!
So here are my boobies at Day 24! Approx 3 weeks and 2 days. It's getting rounder and softer! There's only very little pain when I squeeze em. And they're not that heavy either! I'm feeling much better with the size too.
So I went to see my doctor on Thursday. He said I've been healing quickly and that I can start squeezing/pinching them. I can also start working out! And in fact I can do sit ups now so I'm so excited to workout! I also bought a silicone scar gel for the incisions. And he also told me that I don't need to wear a bra which I loooooove!!! Will see him in 3 months.
I'm really starting to feel like they're my own! I'm feeling more comfortable with them and my confidence is just boosting! I get looks and guys call me honey now. There's truth in how people perceive your confidence.
I'm still waiting for them to fully drop before fitting a bra. I bought a bralette from Nordstrom and one from American apparel. Both have hooks at the back. I love going bra less though. My nips are too pointy but I just put my hair in front and poof no problem!
Thanks ladies! I'll post more pictures in a few days!
8 Weeks! Still hard, numb,
24 Oct 2014
2 months post
Hey girls! This is my 8th week update. I finally moved! And it's been eating up my time for the past weeks that I barely had time to pay attention to my new self. But maybe it's part of the process! I'm single, in a new part of town, and ready to face a new life and a new me!
Now back to boob talk! My right has been dropping perfectly and the shape's starting to look like a real boob! Although it's softer, it still feels, well, fake!
The left has dropped but not as much as the right. It's also tighter and harder. I'm kinda scared that I have CC, and I'm scared to even ook it up.... I wonder if any of you can tell from the pictures alone.
The scars are OK. They're more flattened and although I still feel some soreness underneath, it's less of a discomfort now. My problem is with my right scar. It is higher than the crease. I know it's not dropped 100% yet but it's a bit worrying! The left on the other hand, is SPOT ON! It's almost underneath the crease/fold! I don't understand because my left is the one riding high and yet has the perfect hidden scar! Any insights?
Also my right boob is larger than my left! My right always had a little more meat but I didn't think that would've made such a difference! My PS never even mentioned that my right was bigger! So I'm guessing it's from my left boob not dropping at the same rate of my right boob?
So, I feel 100% myself now and sometimes I don't even feel the weight of them, like back when I was so flat! But they've started to fill out the sides and I notice it a lot when my arms graze them while I walk. Oh man, when that happens, I'm in boob heaven. I feel so great! Even if they're not perfect, I am so grateful to have the chance to do this for myself. It's been a tremendous change to my self confidence! I love how they look in clothes so much I want to buy the entire mall! But I haven't done so yet :) and I prolly won't! But what I really want, is to meet someone special who will appreciate me. There's time for that I guess ;)
I would really like to thank you girls for all your support!
More pics! 8th week
26 Oct 2014
2 months post
Here are pics with a tank top! It's really up high and the left is just more obvious. Let me know what you think!!!