Well, I guess, here goes!
I'm a single mom to an almost 4 year old little girl. I enjoy a very busy career and enjoy raising my daughter as much. My marriage to her father was, more often than not, full of stress and tension. We've been separated for 18 months now and almost divorced after 4 years together.
So why a tummy tuck now?
1) 90% of my pre-pregnancy wardrobe remains untouched. Stuff goes up the legs and over the butt but I'll be damned if I can button up my pants again. So I don't wear my pants anymore. Dresses: they go over the shoulders but again, a little bit too tight going over the tire in the middle (enter sad face) or it goes over, but there's a Kuato bulge. I can't stand the muffin top that I get now when I wear my low rise jeans. Short floaty tops? Forget it! Everything I wear has an element of stretch to it and it needs to stop.
2) I'm single again. Dating is great, but I can't stand to look at my own post-preggo gut let alone have the potential man of my dreams look at my saggy tummy. I want to walk into a new relationship (or maybe even a fling!) feeling like hot stuff. I want to live my life again looking and feeling good about myself. I had a flat stomach 5 years ago, I've missed it so much so it needs to happen. I'm taking care of me now.
3) I can afford it, finally. And it's almost bikini-season!
4) I work out 5 days a week. I've always wanted a toned stomach. I'm in ok shape everywhere else; but no matter how hard I work it, the gut won't go. After my surgery, and following recovery, I'm setting myself a goal for a washboard stomach. The time is now!
That's me. A new me. I live life like a warrior. Time to look like one! :P
Updated on 27 Mar 2015:
Sheesh. I'm only putting these up because I know it'll be history soon. Everyone, meet my friend Mary Muffinbelly.
Updated on 7 Apr 2015:
Ding ding, ring the bell! It's time to get over to the "flat" side! I'm feeling a lot of things, nerves, excitement, fear, anticipation, a little anxiety and relief - relief that it's finally it. No going back now!
I've been busy nesting and prepping and what not (and busy getting my taxes done!)...so haven't really been able to post.
And I'm starving!!!
Wish me luck! Can't wait to post pics :)
Updated on 8 Apr 2015:
So it's 2am and I'm in a V position in bed sitting up kinda. It's comfortable. Just peed for the first time in my little female urinal (brilliant idea Chiklet3!!) and she will become my bestie, I can tell already. My friend is sleeping on the couch and I had to call her phone to have her help me off the bed. I couldn't do it myself and felt terrible for waking her up. We emptied my drains. The right side seems slower than the other. There also seems to be little clot-like pieces coming out AND fat. That's normal right? Otherwise it's bright and red. Managed to slowly get myself into the bed too. My bed's quite high so requiring tippy toes to get in which makes it easier I think.
Earlier, I ate half a slice of bread with a slice of cheese and a few sips of soup. It's all I could get down me. I was walking around hunched over and walked into the bathroom wanting to drain independently but then a wave of nausea hits. And I'm sweating right away. I really felt like I was gonna barf and was so anxious at the pain but I stood still for a few minutes and it eventually went away. I felt weak like I might pass out. So I held on the sides of the basin while my friend emptied my drains for me.
Starting the antibiotics tomorrow and will pop a stool softener...a vitamin C pill and a multi-vitamin.
Otherwise a lot of stiffness, sides are a little sore from the lipo and pain pump pumping away.
Updated on 9 Apr 2015:
So I just took off all the gauze and dressings and finally met my new belly. If this is me currently swollen, I can't wait to see what it will look like when I'm not swollen. DOT has worked magic. That is all. So so so very happy! Even with the nausea and headache which is the most annoying thing right now!
Updated on 11 Apr 2015:
Well, yesterday I wrote a whole thing on how I finally took my OnQ pain pump off and then left the half-composed review to take a picture only to come back and find that it was gone. And there was a whole thing about how I was missing my little girl terribly; she's been gone during the entire time so far so I can recuperate (single mom life) but she's back tomorrow and thankfully, I feel well enough to deal with maybe having to take her to bed or bathe her or take her to the potty...basically be a mom. It feels so freeing to be rid of the pain pump. The tape that stuck the tubes down on my skin hurt peeling off. One side was more raw than the other and leaked a bit. Nothing a Hello Kitty band-aid couldn't help!
And apparently a bag of prunes helped do the trick in getting me going. At one point, I was literally bursting at the seams because I'd eaten and was so full and everything felt so tight! But discovering a bag of prunes in my pantry was like finding the Holy Grail. Laxatives clog me up more I feel. So I'm glad something more natural and tasty worked instead. And I can use the potty! Yay!
Today my shower chair arrives so I can't wait to get naked and under warm running water. It's the little things :)
Updated on 11 Apr 2015:
Shower chair arrived and I took a shower. And I felt so good, I'm standing up straighter too. I just rubbed my daughters calendula oil on my stomach and hips and anywhere I feel it's pulling. Yay or nay? It smells good and is soothing the itchiness. And boy is my stomach itchy!
Updated on 12 Apr 2015:
There is a little bit of grisle that is refusing to budge. And it doesn't look like there is any fluid collecting because of it. What should I do?
Updated on 13 Apr 2015:
...6 days PO or is it 7? Anyway, right before I was hopping into the shower, I decided to get on the scales...and I'm 4lbs down! This of course had me jumping for joy - literally! Yes, I'm able to jump albeit little jumps but then I did some kind of a neked jig in front of the mirror! Haha oh man, this TT was so worth it. I'm still draining, at least on one side and I'm still super tight but almost up straight without a binder so can't wait to get a binder on.
I also drove for the first time in a week and picked my little girl up from school. I found a nifty way to hide the drains - popped them inside the pain pump fanny pack! Job done.
Updated on 15 Apr 2015:
The drains have to stay in! :(
Was hoping they'd be taken out but no chance. Which means I've got to come up with a genius way of hiding these drains for a memorial I need to go to on Saturday. Ideas?
DOT also peeled away the tape over my scar...revealing the scar. Wow. A) longer than I thought it would be but can't imagine how I'd be the shape I am now without that length. And it's a nice, neat line too.
So one more week of these liquid bulbs and that's it.
Does it hurt when he takes out the drains? Anyone? Not looking forward to that!
Happy Wednesday! Pics to follow when kid is asleep.
Updated on 30 Apr 2015:
Sorry I've been off the RS grid. Since my last update, a little girl came home to her Mommy, life took over, rest sorta ended etc.
About 2 weeks post-op, I also started feeling rough - feverish but no fever at all. Just aches and the shakes and very tired. Quite honestly, it was the worst I felt since the actual surgery. Went to bed super early with the kiddo on Tuesday night of the 21st. Slept terribly. Woke up as tired as I went to bed, was very irritable with my little one (didn't have the patience for her tying her laces, awful mommy who was snappy :( ). Anyway, we finally get in the elevator to get her to school. As we reach the ground floor, I suddenly feel extremely light-headed and nauseous and I decided driving wasn't a great idea when I'm feeling this bad. Hit the button going back up again, mumbling something to my little girl about needing to go back home because I don't feel good. Stepped back to hold on to something and the next thing I remember is waking up on floor to her crying hysterically "Mommy wake up!". By this time, the door is opening and closing on my foot. Gathered myself up thinking "[RS bleep], I actually felt and my skirt is up and I have no underwear on, glad no one else was in here". Stumbled a few steps after I got up and passed out again. I was able to get up again and get to my apt and call my building manager. She's become a good friend and I called her first because she was home. Then I paged my surgeon who asked me to get to urgent care right away and get blood tests and what not. I was due to have my drains taken out at 1pm that day so I thought great, I'll go do that first and then schlep over to Pasadena for the drains. Little did I know that I was going to be admitted for 2 and a bit days with a seroma. At one point, the ER doctor on duty, a pretty senior doctor in the trauma unit was adamant about possibly operating to get the infection out. Everything was happening so fast; white count was high, BP super low and heart rate high. After a CT scan, the spotted fluid which in the end (thankfully) was drained via ultrasound guided aspiration...phew!
Was afraid that I was going to be cut open again, ruining my perfect TT scar. But above all of that, I was worried that I was about to snuff it and my girl end up being a 4 year old orphan :(
Anyway, cut to the chase, those were a terrible few days at the hospital. Was sent home last Friday with Bactrim antibiotics for 7 days (twice a day), and drains finally came out that following Monday. I finally wore underwear for the first time in 3 weeks and after a few hours of acclimating to underwear and a binder, I went back to the office for two hours.
It's Friday tomorrow and this week was all about to getting back into my routine but very slowly. The binder felt very weird at first but after 4 days, it feels weird not having it on. It makes me feel secure strangely.
I have my follow up next Monday and DOT will check for fluid and what not. But otherwise I feel much better as I near the end of my course of antibiotics. Having those drains taken out felt so good. I sang all the way home.
So. In a nutshell. Had a bit of a scare but on the mend!
I don't know how seroma's happen, whether I did anything wrong or whether the drains were in wrong or whether I should have been in a binder earlier. I don't know. All I can advise anyone is a) seriously take it easy after surgery and get help if you're a single mom like me who lives alone and has friends/family that live far away or don't know your little TT secret and b) at the first hint of feeling unwell, all of a sudden, or feeling feverish, light headed etc. CALL YOUR SURGEON and tell them something is wrong.
On a lighter note, I took a picture last night of my tummy laying down with me in a binder and I liked it! After all that jazz, it feels good to be flat.
Updated on 14 May 2015:
I haven't been able to update in a while - life is sorta non-stop again after the three weeks off from work and Mummahood! I've started using Scaraway gel on my scar and took a picture yesterday. Look forward to updating as I go along and hopefully the line will fade more and more.
I'm also looking forward to hitting the gym again. Will start off slowly but God, I miss my routine!
For me, the gym = drinking more water (at all) = more protein intake = less Chinese chicken wings = less bloat = more good feelings ya?
Cannot wait!