32 Y/o, No Kids, Athletic Gym Rat - Paramus, NJ

So I have decided to start documenting my journey of fulfilling a wish that I have had for the greater part of my life. For as long as I can remember, I have always had a small chest..I was inducted into the itty bitty [RS bleep] committee around 6th or 7th grade, can remember being referred to as a wall, and didn't actually start wearing a bra until maybe 8th grade. I tried very hard to accept my shortcomings and even told myself that I was totally fine with what I was given, but I am finally ready to do this for myself and couldn't be more excited! I have been wanting to get breast implants for many years now, but one of the biggest things holding me back was how my family would take the news. I booked two consultations, and the Sunday before the appointments, I finally told my mom. I couldn't believe how supportive she was. She told my dad and he was just as supportive as she was. I truly believe that moment brought us closer!

So since I just signed up yesterday, I'm sort of back tracking a little bit. Today I'll talk about my consultations. First one I went to was with Dr. Lipson in Fair Lawn. My friend came with me to that one. He was very personable and seemed very interested in getting to know me, which was nice...but I didn't feel like I got anything out of it. Lets face it, when you go to a consultation, you want to know how you are going to look in the end! He spent about 2 hours with me in his office talking about everything (which was very informative) and then finally took me in to exam me and take some before pictures. He then had his coordinator write down the price and showed me what bra to purchase for after surgery. The one thing I found a little strange was he wanted me to wear underwire as soon as I felt comfortable with it against my incisions. Seems like this totally goes against the whole idea of dropping into the pocket. Anyways, he quoted me $8000 for all pre/post op visits, surgery, twilight anesthesia, and silicone implants. Pretty reasonable. The next appointment was a few days later with Dr. Gartner. My mom accompanied me this time. We went into a room where Dr. Gartner came in and talked to us for about 25 minutes or so. He went over silicone vs saline, local anesthesia vs general, and then of course risks that could be involved. Unlike Dr. Lipson, Dr. Gartner suggests not wearing a bra at all while healing. Hoping I can at least put on a cami tank underneath if I'm going out somewhere! After he spoke and answered questions, he then had me put on a robe and examined my breasts. As most women probably experience, one was a little smaller and lower than the other...so that would cause me to have two separate sizes. He then left the room and his assistants came in to have me try on some sizers. They were so pleasant and very honest. They provide you with a sports bra, however I had my own anyways so put that on. Since I am on the taller/athletic size (5'7, 145lbs of a lot of muscle), they had me try a 400cc for the right and 425cc for the left. They looked great and extremely proportioned to my body. I wanted to see what bigger felt like, so I tried the next size of 425 for right and 450 for left. It definitely was noticeably bigger and not sure I want the outcome that large. Since you lose some volume under the muscle however, they suggested going for the 425 and 450 to achieve the 400 and 425 look. That will all be narrowed down however during my pre op visit. My mom was surprised by how much better I looked having the sizers in. I tend to carry myself very confidently and always have a big smile, so it tends to take away from that one little insecurity of mine! After my little try on session, Dr. Gartner came back in and said he thinks he would be able to get that size in. I'm starting off small, I would say an A...since I wear a 34 A VS very sexy push up and dont totally fill that out...but I have seen before photos of women smaller that have had 450cc's. Guess we will see! Finally, I was seen by the patient coordinator Vicki. She was very sweet and explained the cost and deposit to my mom and I. The cost for surgery with a local was $7400 and with the general it was $8200. We checked to see if the date I wanted was available and it was...but I didn't want to make any rash decisions so decided to take everything with me and talk it over in the car with my parents. (Dad drove but didn't come in lol) They both agreed that if I felt comfortable with him then go for it. My mom liked what he had to say, so that made me feel more confident in my decision to go with him. I called the next day to try to put my deposit down, but I was about 10 minutes too late and Vicki had already left for the day. Monday morning rolled around and I booked my date, June 19th for 7:30 am. I will be doing this all under local anesthesia...I like knowing what's going on and truly believe I'll be fine with this. I can take the 10 second pain of a needle and don't mind pulling and tugging. Of course I say this now....hopefully I won't freak out the day of! From the reviews I have read, everyone has liked the awake procedure so I'm pretty confident about the choice I made. My pre op visit will be June 5th. In the meantime, I made an appointment to have a physical with my primary dr so this way I can get the necessary bloodwork done through my insurance. I haven't had a physical in probably 9 years since I first started my job, so I think I'm due! As I get closer to the surgery date, I will post some personal pictures...haven't gotten around to taking any yet. I enjoy seeing everyone else's, it has been a huge help, so I want to pay it forward as well!

I haven't updated in a while because I was waiting, for what seemed like forever, for my pre op visit today! I went to get my bloodwork done yesterday and Dr Gartner's office called me today to check and see if I had my results. I told them I had them listed as one of the doctors to the receive the work, but one of his receptionists went ahead and called the lab. When I got to the office I had a million papers to fill out and my final payment was due. I was brought into one of the rooms where Dr Gartner met me and went over a few more things. My surgery is set for 7:30 am on June 19, exactly 2 weeks from today! I really couldn't think of too many questions at that moment, but he seemed to go over everything I wanted to know. He examined me one more time and we settled on 450 cc in the left and 425 in the right mentor silicone moderate plus profile. He said he generally only uses mod plus..and I personally prefer that profile anyways. I like the fuller look with some cleavage and side boob! I was also given all of my scripts to fill my prescriptions beforehand. Since I am doing my procedure under local anesthesia, I have to take some sedatives that morning. I also am able to have a light breakfast since I won't be going under. After surgery, my parents will be taking me back down to their house. The hour and a half drive will probably not be fun, but the care I will receive for the week will be well worth it! I'm extremely lucky to have parents like them! I also purposely scheduled surgery during a time when I would not be working...so I have a ton of time to relax and recover, I love summer for that very reason! Definitely getting real now....at this point, I just want it to get here already!